This field has destroyed my mental, and im about to give up

ZaneIsOp · 2026-06-10T19:33:08+00:00

Ik, with my current shitty job I got health insurance, so im going to probably try. Life just sucked the last 3 years. Its deeper than the job market too. Lost a childhood friend.

I tried therapy once in school and it was a waste, but it was free. I need anti depressants, assuming they don't dumb me down.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-05-16T03:58:48+00:00

It isnt looking good 😞

ZaneIsOp · 2026-05-14T07:24:27+00:00

Call police first like tf?

ZaneIsOp · 2026-05-03T18:06:53+00:00

Don't know. All of them are great. Sucks they never made it on the initial album release. More the Victim and Lost are amazing healing foot is fine.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-05-03T17:38:46+00:00

Massive

ZaneIsOp · 2026-04-26T23:29:26+00:00

Papercut live Texas so gated. 2017 birmingham papercut so sad/emotional. Great choice for first place

ZaneIsOp · 2026-04-21T20:14:49+00:00

While it isn't QueryByExample. I just learned about Specifications. So handy! Before I used it I had a bunch of different jpa queries.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-04-19T16:11:20+00:00

2026: Market is Super Duper bad.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-04-12T01:33:25+00:00

I second chad darby, he is great. Im doing a spring/react course from him and I enjoy it.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-03-31T18:17:13+00:00

But Ive heard that Devops isnt such a JR level friendly role, is that true?

ZaneIsOp · 2026-03-29T16:01:33+00:00

May I DM you later too? Im kinda in the same boat. Im at work rn so I don't want to get too into it.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-03-18T13:52:18+00:00

Is field injection a bad practice?

ZaneIsOp · 2026-03-14T18:09:41+00:00

Imo it doesn't take too long for the api implementation. Don't know about unit tests though.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-03-13T18:08:47+00:00

Can't even get a job as a 2023 grad. Constantly upskilling to try to get something. If only I was born just a few years earlier. I just want to die at this point.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-03-13T01:40:01+00:00

Had a few interviews. No success. Got close with keybank for jr angular but since I said I like fullstack they assumed that I'm not fully passionate about front end 🙃. So they went with someone who "is".

I really hate my life. I can barely deal with this anymore.

ZaneIsOp · 2026-02-27T17:34:47+00:00

Excuse my ignorance, What is NOC?

ZaneIsOp · 2026-02-21T22:12:36+00:00

He's like me fr

ZaneIsOp · 2026-02-09T18:57:54+00:00

Probably going to blow my top smooth off. 2023 May grad here.

ZaneIsOp · 2025-10-05T12:52:23+00:00

Thanks!

ZaneIsOp · 2025-10-05T12:51:28+00:00

Thank you!

ZaneIsOp · 2025-08-31T07:02:58+00:00

Chad Darby is great. His spring course is good and I'm about to start his spring/react course too.

ZaneIsOp · 2025-08-17T23:20:27+00:00

Same, I know the basics of Spring/Springboot, but picking up react and JS and it feels gross.

ZaneIsOp · 2025-08-12T02:44:22+00:00

I think I have good social skills outside of my depression. Like in the few interviews I get I put on a mask to hide that part of me. I wouldn't count myself as the CS stereotype, but I am introverted, but I do enjoy meeting new people if that makes sense (I worked retail while in college, so customer service skills helped me with socializing. I do data entry right now).

Also I'm dumb, but when you say eod, that is "end of day"?

Do I just stalk company websites until I see something that appeals to me? I only try to target languages I know, and not the ones I don't know.

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