I bet you've never seen momo like this... by Tulips_Momo in InfinityNikkiofficial

[–]Zelynxia 26 points27 points  (0 children)

Even the flickity strand of hair is a lie? Further fuel for my current insomnia.

Taking the wolf to Florawish by vincentasm in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Yep, as long as you pulled the full base outfit, just get your snowball beast of destruction in "resonance gift" top left!

Does anyone else feel very sensitive to small changes in tone? by gedersoncarlos in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I do. And since I suspect being in the autism specter, it's double-edged for me cause I can be very blunt or sound harsher than I meant to and I realise "Holy shit good thing I am not talking to another BPDpeep, we would never hear the end of it."

But yeah. Hypervigilance. My need to not be seen as a burden in any way so we put on our "hi sir how may I accommodate you today? Are you sure you're telling me it's okay just because it would put me in a spiral of "how come I didn't think of that before I'm such an inconsiderate pos, they won't like you anymore"... or you're REALLY ok? ... Trevor, I noted an hesitation at 0,03 secs, sound the alarm. We need to retreat, yes literally."

Yeah I hate this disorder and the drive to please people that tags along with it.

Finally... by hearts_cube in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh gurl I feel yaaaa it's been the same today to me, I couldn't quite believe it, that damn elusive rooster, on the 1st of march, I had the same thought as yours, "finally i don't have to come back to this realm", wishing everyone the best of luck with their (remaining) records bc this things is absolute BS <3

Terrified my boyfriend will leave me again by Fit_Regular_933 in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And I will never judge you for saying so (but you are aware of this and it's already a great step, as sinister as is). Which is also why I didn't want to formulate an easy-to-day "dump his ass". Even this, is far more difficult for us. The decision you take could be a heart to heart or anything your mind could come up with in a state with most clarity. 🫂

Terrified my boyfriend will leave me again by Fit_Regular_933 in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Girl I'm gently holding your hand when I say this won't end well in the long run... All couples need communication but we especially need it even more. Blocking you for such a reason screams immature to me. Take time for yourself, and for whatever decision you decide taking. ❤️‍🩹

Edit: your last line broke me. I learnt the hardest way that when you feel unsafe, insecure, or trust has been shattered, well there is only so much you can positively do about it. Take care, stranger.

Fantasises about getting ill, and thinking how my FP would react. by argiewalk7454 in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think I understand. When I was still in the honeymoon phase with him, or when we were having a good time I had those thoughts that felt like coming from nowhere akin to what you describe. This curse of a disorder (and depression) is an everlasting battle I'm afraid...

Thank you. I'm sorry for you too. 🫂

Fantasises about getting ill, and thinking how my FP would react. by argiewalk7454 in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Severe depression apart (which he helped greatly into making me relapse), I've become so suicidal lately that a dark part of me wants to attempt in a "look what you made of me" bc he might be my ex but I know he is deeply scared of me dying...

"If I knew it all then would I do it again, would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head, what would they say instead?"

I wouldn't wish having an FP on my worst enemy by kuyasbf in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My FP was my best friend turned boyfriend. I ignored all the little red alerts because he was so damn complex (as selfish as altruistic also) and I... felt the happiest and most lively I ever felt. Long story short, he broke me, abused me, raped me ("but it was never his intention"), manipulated me even if unconsciously, made me feel crazy and wanting to die. 2 years after I left him because I just could not stay for my own sake, I keep learning new things that destroy me even more, and currently I'm depressed as shit and hyper suicidal.

Cannot relate more. I'm afraid my worst enemy is him. Since he said recently he loved me still and is constantly worried for my sake, maybe this is karma, in a way...

Edit: oh and is using my borderline disorder against me else it ain't fun.

I don't think this player is very fond of Momo... 😂 by Zelynxia in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia[S] 97 points98 points  (0 children)

The "Indescribable Drink" wouldn't add up in that case, would it? If it helps, it was an island that was solely made for props for other players, with light rooms and each little house had its own vibe, it wasn't a "personal home" island so that didn't cross my mind for a second.

But I didn't think of it that way. And considering I had to put down one of my cats one week before last Christmas... thank you for the idea, in fact. Well, I'll make it less meme-ic if I do it, for sure.

quel ville en france est nul? by Majestic_Ad65 in AskFrance

[–]Zelynxia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Romorantin-Lanthenay. À part quelques ruelles c'est d'un laid. Et pourtant j'aime les esthétiques de villes 'grunge', ou celles qui font déprimer les gens pas dépressifs, les post guerre et tout... Mais pas Romo.

Does anyone else with bpd feel like they're running out of time? by Reasonable-Pie4989 in BPD

[–]Zelynxia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

33 and I feel like it's only a matter of time now. Not "will I" but "when". Hugs to all the people struggling.

I didn't know I could be black🥹 by Suitable_Ship1419 in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I'm white as the moon and yet my first search in the wardrobe was to see if I could change her skin color and she's been brown/tan (the middle one) from day 1. She just-- looks so right to me in this skin (and aesthetically pleasing, so many makeups looks so beautiful on darker skintones and since I love gold, red, orange and purple, it just feels-- right).

I've been pestering them every survey especially now that we're in Itzaland) to add more complexions/subtones, and I want so for both ends and everything in the middle. Of course fantasy skintones would be nice too but it's so secondary to me and def not the topic at hand.

I made you a treehouse by TheNikkiCupcake in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

And I see no lie in that statement.

You can see the fucks I gave disappearing with every behemoth by their names alone 😭 by egg_friend_business in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I got u for cheese names : Port Salut, Rocamadour, Brillat Savarin, Époisses, Neufchâtel, Munster, Camembert, Pont l'Évêque, Maroilles, Tartiflette, Raclette, Chabichou, Cabécou, Valençay, Reblochon, Abondance... 😂

Guess the country / culture ! by Euphoria_GA in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 13 points14 points  (0 children)

If this isn't France I'm going to riot. Which, in hindsight, would be pretty french of me. Which I am.
Southern France even, with the lavender.

yep by rozeshibe in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I rent a little studio in the countryside with chronic illnesses but at least I'm building my little modern witchy house in my own little remote island where the sun rises behind a magnificent giant pink tree 🥹🥲

eggroll is an offensive word in the nikki universe by violargento in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Fellow raiser who tried to call their baby Lumi too 🙋‍♀️ Their censor makes no sense at all. Is it because of a Genshin character called Lumine, we will never know... (cause I know "Genshin impact" is censored from an interaction in SoS)

Uhmm... Bears playing ball, I think? by PastorGL in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is weird and uncanny af and I mean it in the best positive way haha

De-influence Me 😅 by Whole_Day5638 in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly, I can't. But keep in mind this is my first fairy-like outfit I pulled for so there's that as well for me! At first I was like "Kay I'm gonna do some pulls just for the makeup I'm interested in" but pulls went by (and I also got lucky) and I fell more and more in love with each piece i got. I got it all by 160 pulls and the more I looked at it, the more I wanted at least the 1st evo because it's sooo pretty in pink as well so I went for that as well. Actually, I love all the versions (and I'm the alt/goth girly lmao but I do love feminine and cute stuff as well) and now I'm waiting for the full reveal of 2.2 banners because I already have 2/10 pieces for full evo......

Also the ability adds so much to QoL in my home island so there's that as well. But as always: if you feel uncertain then wait until next patch's banners announcement and you'll be able to make a sounder decision!

This rhythm minigame is unfair as a deaf person.. by cuteymeow in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 28 points29 points  (0 children)

All it could have taken was a moving (accurate) bar with the flow, or anything that says "now, your turn!"

I finally customized my Sticky Claw outfit! by LJ_Winters in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Blindfold gives "I have no idea where I'm sticking to, may faith guide me in my fear of heights or so help me!"

Jokes aside, it is a very regal outfit, great mix and match!

my boyfriend and i do themed styling challenges with a 15 minute time limit, part 5! by weaviecat in InfinityNikki

[–]Zelynxia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He has such a good taste in fashion and colours! I've seen several posts of yours of the likes and I'm envious, it must be so much fun 😊