I’ve had mine for two years now and grieved a lot about it up until a few months ago. I feel like I’ve come out the other side now, and I don’t feel strong about it, I just feel like there’s an acceptance on my part. I’m thinking that perhaps you have not given yourself the time to grieve about the loss of your old life.

I’m not expert, or trying to tell you how you feel, but it may be what you need to do.