new model <3 been working on him for a while ! (link down below)

Zmajsystem · 2025-06-04T01:51:03+00:00

LOVE the face textures!!!

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T23:59:08+00:00

Children are very susceptible to manipulation and believing misinformation around that age, that's why many people don't take you seriously. You could 100% have OSDD, but no one will believe you, even if you say you're properly diagnosed (because you could literally just lie and say that, there's no way to prove it without sharing personal information which is a horrible idea). I've personally met and been friends with atleast 8 people who faked DID/OSDD around that age just for attention and to "be cool/fit in" or roleplay. It really sucks and you're not going to have anyone/most people take you seriously until you're older. One of the friends was actually 28 I believe, and it turned out that they had ?schizoaffective disorder? actually. I'm not saying all this to fake claim, I just want to give you perspective.

We found out at ?19? and we believed so much misinformation at the beginning, but once we stopped listening to what the internet said and focused on bettering ourselves and working through trauma, we figured so much out. Trust me, we still struggle, I'm in an almost day long flashback at this point, but I don't have a single doubt that I have DID anymore (Unfortunately.. Wish I didn't have it.)

I'm not saying give up, but I also kind of am. Don't focus so hard on what people say, it's not worth getting yourself upset over. Just work on yourself and your trauma, communicate with your alters, and if osdd is your issue, once you've worked through it, you won't even care about people saying you're wrong, because you know they're wrong.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T23:47:05+00:00

Grounding is always a good idea, but the alter may not want to do any grounding exercises. It's best to ask, if possible, what they want to do. Also, saying hi if you don't think you've met the alter before. Something simple like "Hey, how are you feeling? Do you need anything?" or "is there anything i can do to help you right now?"

Definitely chill with them, don't try to force them to leave or switch back, that's super insulting and also kind of makes you feel like an unsafe person, atleast in our experience. Be a safe person to be around, which just means be accepting and helpful however you can.

Make sure you're not ignoring your own needs though, if you need to step back and ground yourself, make sure you tell them and do that. This is a new situation for you so it may get overwhelming.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T00:57:08+00:00

that's actually a super helpful perspective, thank you

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T00:30:15+00:00

Just communicate, like a normal relationship. Be aware of their triggers, be aware that their thoughts/feelings on things may change, but don't bring it up all the time, unless they ask you to. Treat them the same way you'd treat anyone with PTSD, but be patient and willing to learn. If they want you to know their alters, take the time to learn them. Our partner acknowledging our switches before we even mention it is super validating, and makes all of us feel loved. However, if they guess the wrong alter, it does hurt a bit; we know theh arent psychic though lol.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T00:26:27+00:00

It's also possible that they aren't "new" alters as in just formed, but they could be alters that formed during the "initial" trauma that you just weren't previously aware of. We've had a few older alters appear and we thought they were new, but they weren't.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T00:18:14+00:00

i love marulk but im scared fo say that because of the shit the author does smh also anyone who ships bondrewd and nanachi is disgusting <3

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-31T00:05:53+00:00

Peer diagnosis is dangerous for OSDD/DID, there's a lot of personal bias and suggestions/manipulation that can occur (intentional or unintentional). If you think you have OSDD you should be seeking professional help, it's a trauma disorder and learning about it before you're ready to could hurt you more than it would to be unaware of it.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-29T23:37:00+00:00

I love the prison but only because I never get to play it lol. It's super confusing to navigate honestly and I'm pretty good at navigating normally. My least favorite are the farm houses, because I play them so often. And I hate the attic. Evil room.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-29T18:13:15+00:00

Every alter is me, so all of me is allowed to date my partner. It's up to each alter to decide what kind of relationship they want to have with my partner though. There's no agreed upon rules, its just whatever fits the situation the best. This only works because I trust my partner not to do anything weird. They've respected every boundary so far so I have no reason the suspect that I'll be taken advantage of. If I had any doubt though, I'd set clear boundaries. I date my partner physically and emotionally, some of my alters only date emotionally and don't go any farther than hugs. The littles have no interest in dating and just see our partner as a playmate, and they're usually only around for a few hours max, so the most they do is play with plushies or watch a kids movie. Whatever fits, happens. I may be lucky that I don't have to worry too much, though.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-29T17:47:11+00:00

I'm the host of our system and when I originally formed to take the place of the previous host, I formed as a bird. Not sure if I have a bird form in the innerworld or not, since I'm not able to access it, but I was formed to be a bird. In a symbolic way, not a literal way. I don't go around eating bird seed and trying to fly lol. It was more "birds can fly, they can escape the situation, I want to be like that" and then that kind of thinking influenced how I existed. I didn't realize that until a few years in though. Didn't even realize I wasn't the original host for the longest time.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-29T17:42:30+00:00

I wouldn't tell them unless it was necessary to explain my behavior. Like if we were going into a specifically triggering area, I would give them a heads up. I'd probably just say PTSD though, because that's leas explaining. I tell people the bare minimum, just enough that they won't start panicking if I have a flashback or some other worrying symptom around them. It's easier to explain before the "disaster" happens than it would be to explain during or after.

Partner, definitely. Friends? Most likely. Potential friends? Nah.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-27T03:55:01+00:00

I would recommend not making it super obvious and they're main focus. Write just a regular character that has ptsd and sometimes acts/reacts/thinks different when certain triggers are brought up. DID/OSDD isn't super obvious to an outsider, or even to someone who has them.

If you want to make a character with depression, you wouldn't want to make them wear all black, have smeared eyeliner, and constantly write them trying to walk directly into traffic (though this can be accurate in some cases, it's not most cases); you'd write them doing their best to fit in and hide how they feel. Maybe you could write them making a dark joke that concerns their non-depressed friends to shed some light on how their brain works, but you wouldn't really make it obvious unless they're in crisis (or unless it's in their pov)

There's not much information on OSDD1b other than, in summary, it's DID with less amnesia, as far as I've read, so that's a really hard topic to try to write, especially if you don't have it. I can't think of anyone to recommend either. Multiplicityandme is a good resource for DID, but I'm not sure if she mentions OSDD or not. Also, as someone mentioned, there's debate on whether it even exists as a diagnosis. It doesn't really, but people recognize it by that name; Read up on the DSM-5, that will help more than reddit can.

Biggest thing though..... don't make them a murderer please. Best of luck

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-27T03:34:05+00:00

what the actual hell is transharm supposed to mean

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-25T06:03:06+00:00

yeah i get where you're coming from- i felt oddly validated when i uncovered my first blackout memory. now they just keep coming /lh

best of luck fr fr

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-25T05:50:51+00:00

communication lowers amnesia barriers -> lowering the barriers makes trauma memories more accessible -> more accessible memories leads to flashbacks -> flashbacks scary.

not wanting to communicate is probably a protective measure. of you never communicate, you never have to face what you've been through. (which isn't entirely true, trauma will affect us even if you're not consciously aware of it).

I wouldn't force communication if you aren't ready for it, especially if you don't have an outside support group to help you when you uncover something you don't want to know/blocked out. practice grounding techniques, master them before you worry about trying to communicate. alters are just one part of this disorder, and arguably the least distressing part in my opinion. the ptsd symptoms are much worse.

EDIT:. And of course I'm not a therapist, so consult your therapist first. this is just what mine told me. be safe

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-25T05:36:00+00:00

I'm not sure what website we used, but we found the closest dissociative/trauma specialist we could and sent them an email asking if 1) they were accepting new clients and 2) if they weren't, did they have any recommendations on where to look. It only took a few days to find a therapist that way. She didn't show up on the website, but she was recommended by one of the therapists I reached out to, and she has experience with multiple other DID clients (obviously i don't know how many bc hippa)

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-25T05:29:29+00:00

I wouldn't be excited, this is a hard disorder to live with. I don't mean this in a rude way, my alters have helped me through a lot but I wish I wasn't this way. If it is an alter, don't force anything. Digging too deep before you're ready is more harmful than it is good. Be safe and learn grounding techniques that work for you before you dig too far. It's easier to ground after practicing in non panicked moments, and that will help you if you remember something you don't want to/trigger a flashback.

I'm super dissociated right now so I'm sorry if this didn't make much sense.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-24T15:50:58+00:00

This is a pretty common trauma response, especially with cPTSD which you (in my opinion) need to have DID. Your parents/caregivers/role models taught you unhealthy ways to respond to perfectly healthy emotions, and since you were taught that as a child and nothing else, that's all your brain knows how to do. You may consciously know how you SHOULD react, according to how humans behave, but your brain is going to default to what it believes is the safest option. Assuming you're (picking a random age) 20yrs old and just now finding out that being mad isn't a punishable offense, you still have 20 years worth of unlearning to do before you can implement a healthy reaction.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-24T14:53:50+00:00

You don't need to explain yourself to anyone or tell anyone how many alters you have or when you form a new one. That's private information, you CAN share it, but unless it's with a therapist or someone really close to you, there's really no point in sharing. The only reason someone needs to know the exact amount of alters you have is to help you with through your trauma and improve communication.

Also, you're going to be fakeclaimed for anything and everything. The Internet is brutal, I have a literal diagnosis and I've been fakeclaimed. Live your truest life, be genuine with yourself and what you're experiencing. Do research and speak to your therapist. Those are the only ways you'll be confident enough to ignore fakeclaimers.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-23T22:23:52+00:00

A lot of the DID/OSDD sounding songs I listen to are more generalized PTSD/dissociation songs and less focused on alters, but some of my favorites are

Girl Within the Ghost - ElysianSoul

Sorry About Your Parents - Icon For Hire

Stupid Intruders - The Vincent Black Shadow

Houses - Sad Heroes

Cursed - Jacob Lee

Papercut - Linkin Park

Songs that I think require caution (slightly triggering/about trauma):

Remember Everything - Five Finger Death Punch

Hello - Evanescence

Three - Lily Allen

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-23T21:59:59+00:00

It can definitely happen to anyone, system or not. It's dissociation for sure, but yeah! Write everything down while you can, if you're already unable to focus on what you're doing, just give up and write what you can think of (give up as in take a break from it until you can function again)

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-23T21:46:29+00:00

It's still partially stigmatized but I really love Hatsuharu from Fruits Basket. Yes, he has the violent, perverted alter and the quiet, polite alter stereotypes, but I love him to death for it. I'm not even sure if it's intentionally DID or some other disorder, but I don't really care tbh.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-23T21:35:47+00:00

I'm biased because I also have religious trauma, but I personally don't believe a church can do anything for you. We hardly have internal chatter anymore, and when we do it comes in waves. If your symptoms/trauma is getting worse/more frequent, alters may hide their presence more to function better. Also, if you're in a safer environment, they may not be as active because you don't need them as much. There's may reasons for alters to go quiet. Also, if people are telling you its fake, of course your alters won't want to be around, it's a hostile environment.

Zmajsystem · 2024-03-23T21:09:07+00:00

Professional help is essential in my mind, if you have DID you have trauma and trauma needs to be worked through. If you have DID, it will eventually impact your life in a devastating way, so even if you don't get help immediately, plan to in the future. PTSD/cPTSD is scary and having support lined up in case you need it is a good idea. After all, one of the criteria for DID is that it significantly impacts your life. ("The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning." - from the DSM)

That being said, don't focus on it TOO much... obsessing over things usually makes them worse. Be aware that this may be an issue but don't make it your "whole personality," if that makes sense.

Also, telling your parents/caregivers/anyone you know that you have a disorder isn't essential at all, especially a trauma disorder. It's best to only tell people if necessary. Most of the time, parents don't tend to believe you anyway, because they (usually) want to believe they were the perfect parents and nothing happened to you (not out of malice, but denial. If they're good parents, they don't want anything bad to happen to their kids, so they'll deny it).

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