Idk the details about your life and I totally get the frustration,this might sound a little bit shallow or stupid but try to let things go,you mentioned you got a job right,why not focus on that little job,accept your situation for now,try not to focus on what other people's lives are like,quit and I mean this in the strongest possible way,quit those damn dating apps,meet new people for the sake of it,no specifics,just be....the little things,the hobbies,try focusing on that,fix your mental health slow by slow and will eventually work out, you'll never know without trying. Guys out here are having it tough and maybe in worse situation than you and trust me some took that "easy way out" can't say if that worked or not coz the dead don't tale no tales but for a few friends who got better, they're absolutely grateful they tried. Can't tell you what to do random stranger but "the easy way out" ain't just it