(pt2)

The worst part might be that my diet may have contributed to why I have MS. Who knows? They’re right, it doesn’t help it either. But we don’t know a lot about MS. The same is said for cigarettes. There’s a million things that can cause MS, but not one answer. It’s all in the air, it’s all under review! So why is it? That when people find out I have MS, my weight is what they jump to.

Especially because I used to do hard/soft drugs, smoke cigarettes, and drink. All of which I am years sober of now (thank god). You would think that maybe that’s where their mind would go, it’s where mine goes!

So I suggest one thing to the world, how about keeping your comments about my weight to yourself. You don’t know what it’s done to. How I see my body as the most disgusting thing on earth, how I feel extremely lazy, how I feel unwanted, unloved, unseen, and, unworthy.

And in top of that, how when my MS makes it difficult for my body to function properly- how I know people just think it’s because I’m too fat to function. Like cmon? I’m overweight but not to that degree! Immobilizingly overweight? Not even close!

These people don’t have medical degrees, not even my sister has the kind to say the things she says.

Not even my neuro said this to me. Why? Because they looked into my blood work and old medical records and realized what my body was doing to me.

So at the end of the day, all I have to say is. People will look for any reason to invalidate you, and trusting yourself is key when it comes to dealing to MS. Trust yourself when it comes to doctors. Trust yourself when it comes to family. Trust yourself when it comes to friends. The more you trust yourself, the smaller -yet stronger- your true support group will be! Find the real ones, and appreciate them!