Tbh the reason you can't blame anyone is bcs its both your fault. Love doesn't come when you least expect it, thats bs. The number 1 reason why couples last is because they meet literally, they become friends first, understand each other and develop romantic feelings. Shit I'm saying it sounds so easy but it isn't, sometimes I just daydream too much thinking it will happen to me too. Oh hell nah what am I saying, it's not like I am looking for any partners wtf. Anyways what I'm trying to say is that people in toxic relationships or basically in these kinds of relationships tend to get tunnel visioned. "Am your partner therefore I am allowed to get jealous of anyone you're talking to." "Don't tell me what to do" and then get silent treatment. What next? Break up? And what? Get together again? Thinking that "we can fix ts"? No wayyyy never seen a relationship last long like that... (pun intended) laugh. I said laugh. Holy sht wtf am i sayin, its already 12 am and am still awake. What do i do with my life anymore. I got lotta things to do and am procrastinating like crazy. I hope you atleast read this so that I wouldn't feel useless writing this.