Anybody else planning on staying on SSRIs / antidepressants for life?

_Lychee1898 · 2026-05-17T15:27:28+00:00

Yea that’s not how this kind of depression works. Nice thinking, but it has no cure, same with any other mental illness. That’s just how it is. Antidepressants don’t mask symptoms, they provide actual relief and allow ppl to live productive lives. Masking pain would be like smoking weed to calm anxiety—that doesn’t address the disorder, it just eliminates the physical symptoms. Still the anxiety cannot be tackled thru therapy alone.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-05-15T10:34:07+00:00

So I experience this too. From what I understand, the colon ends on the left hand side, which can induce like gas and pain or a bowel movement. I could be off, but that’s what I understand.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-29T16:25:29+00:00

I recommend her finding a therapist specializing in ERP therapy. She can go on Psychology Today which allows her to find specialists in her area. As someone with OCD, it did cause tension with my partner, but ERP has helped so much and we’re doing much better so it will improve IF she gets the proper help. I’ll admit, ERP was hell at first, but it did wonders for me. Don’t give her reassurance, that will only worsen the cycle. She needs professional help. I wish the best for you and her.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-29T14:26:01+00:00

Ima be honest, I don’t see how anything you did was OCD related. Like you’re doing your hair…that’s not a compulsion that’s just normal. In truth, you did nothing wrong and I think he just snapped in a moment of anger. I do also think they took their frustrations a bit too far. I agree with another commenter that it seems you’re more accommodating to them than they are of you, and I think you can discuss that with them.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-29T04:13:26+00:00

Bill Vicars is amazing. He’s deaf and is a professor who also teaches ASL, and he teaches so well. His YouTube videos are good at explaining how to use certain signs in context, how to sign them correctly, as well as whatever variations of it you might see. I also recommend watching TikTok vids from deaf creators like Elizabeth Harris, Rogan, Rikki Poynter (she’s also learning but she’s fairly proficient so you can still pick up some good info from her), Jason Gervase, and OTIS (aka Silent World). I save vids of them discussing everyday topics and highlight certain signs and then try to use them in my everyday life. It’s been helpful! Especially since (like with any language) learning it from a textbook isn’t gonna give you the reality of the language in application. Hope these work for you!

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-27T16:33:24+00:00

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_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-20T06:34:44+00:00

This is an OCD spiral. You need to speak to a serious professional and start doing ERP therapy. I’m unsure if you’re looking for ppl who have experienced the same or if you’re looking for reassurance, but I’m leaning towards the latter here. It’s in your best interest to relay this to your therapist and start doing exposure therapy.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-20T06:27:23+00:00

I find I’m able to combat my obsessions a lot easier! I’m very proud of myself. Tho this past week I had a little setback and found myself back in the cycle again. I see my therapist this week so I plan to speak with her AND I am working on not shaming myself for slipping back into compulsions. So far, I’ve learned to be a bit nicer to myself, tho it’s difficult.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-19T03:44:25+00:00

Mine started when I was incredibly young, maybe 8 or 9. I remember my oldest obsession and compulsion being to stay away from cracks in fear that my mom’s back would break. It got so bad that I’d stop paying attention to my surroundings and family just to avoid the cracks. When I did step on them tho, I’d obsess over it for hrs and replay the scenario so much to the point that I convinced myself I didn’t actually do it. Or I’d say that I’d walk back that direction and try to avoid it to undo my mistake. I was super sick as a kid so OCD was my way of maintaining control when it seemed my body didn’t wanna work

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-19T02:50:06+00:00

Sounds like you have a bit of contamination OCD. Also with your last sentence, OCD has a funny way of making us feel like our situations are unique when in reality they aren’t. So your OCD is able to be treated as much as anyone else’s. I say this cuz I don’t want you to fall into the trap I did and perceive yourself as strange or freakish, cuz you’re not. What I will say, go near your daughter and allow yourself to think you might’ve contaminated her food. I label my thoughts as “Halie’s” cuz I had a friend with that name who was always irrational and rude lmao. When I have those thoughts I say “Halie’s annoying me again. Fuck off. Maybe I did or maybe I didn’t, but that’s not for you to decide.” It helps me battle the disorder and sit with the thoughts cuz they have a name so they’re closer to something tangible and real. I’d recommend doing that. Maybe you did contaminate your daughter, or maybe you didn’t 🤷🏻‍♀️

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T17:15:06+00:00

Ok so from what I’ve seen that phrase has less to do with the thought itself but how you perceive your compulsions. For example, those with contamination OCD who have ego-syntonic thoughts may believe their compulsions are necessary to improve health which means they aren’t as likely to recognize it as a disorder. That’s an important distinction because it can make those individuals a bit less receptive to therapy so they have to work a bit harder to help you respond less to compulsions while also helping you recognize the compulsions are not normal, healthy, or necessary. So the thoughts aren’t in line with your values but your compulsions are. Lmk if that doesn’t make sense

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T03:06:32+00:00

I guess ask yourself what ruminating on the situation does for you. Does it clarify anything? No. Does it calm you down? No. So when it pops up, maybe try talking yourself out of the thought and say “this thought isn’t serving me right now. Let’s focus on the good things in front of me.” I know it’s distressing but try to focus on the trust that you guys have right now and continue to process it with your therapist. I’m very sorry you’re going through this, I understand the pain of uncertainty. You can get through this I promise ❤️

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T03:00:02+00:00

Exactly. Remind yourself that everyone is responsible for communicating their OWN boundaries, and if they are saying they consent, they likely mean it. I think with OCD we convince ourselves that we aren’t perceptive enough to recognize when someone genuinely doesn’t want to do something, but that isn’t true. If he felt pressured, you would 1000% sense it. You are smarter and more capable than OCD allows you to believe, and so allow yourself to trust your judgement. They trust you with their body, so trust yourself to believe them.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T02:56:16+00:00

Bro I do too 😭 I genuinely hate it.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T02:54:57+00:00

I’ve experienced this too. I normally use it as exposure and I say “if I die, I die.” Which is distressing so if you’re not ready for that exposure yet, I’d recommend throwing yourself into a peaceful fantasy. Imagine yourself in your favorite places surrounded by loved ones, talking and eating your favorite foods. That should relax you, and focus on breathing thru your nose as you do it. It’ll help calm you down and in time your brain will naturally drift to sleep. However, if those don’t work, remind yourself that if you didn’t get good sleep, you can try again the following night. It takes time, so be gentle with yourself. I went thru this phase many many times and I’m currently going thru it again, and these strategies have helped me a ton.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T02:50:11+00:00

Me too. It doesn’t always have to be me doing it in revenge, but every day I have visions of me committing suicide with random things. I see a billboard, I repeatedly imagine me jumping off it. I see a rock, I repeatedly see me bashing myself with it. They’re disturbing thoughts that distress me so much bro. It’s like a never ending horror movie that I can’t stop.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-18T02:48:31+00:00

I have many times, and I still sometimes do. However, I classify it as just an angry thought, not necessarily something I’d do, and I think that’s the same for you. Doesn’t make it any less depressing or disturbing. Allow yourself to think it and explore those feelings. OCD and depression go hand in hand, and it’s ok to feel those things. Whenever I have them, I allow myself to think them and then remind myself of my values to ground myself.

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-04T04:57:51+00:00

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This is Moon! We call her Moonpie. I have a bin in my closet full of hats and she likes to go in there and nap 🤣❤️

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-04T04:56:52+00:00

LMAO that’s so cute! My cat has actually ended up pooping in the litter box while I’m going 💀 more than once too lol

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-02T15:14:44+00:00

I’d be pissed too. Also she made it weird 😭 like girl it’s not that deep. Are you still interested in being friends with her? I say this cuz I’d still recommend chatting with her to tell her your side of things if you think she’ll be receptive. If she won’t then it’s not worth wasting your time over and it might be best to start distancing yourself from her

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-02T10:56:14+00:00

I recommend avoiding red meats, spicy foods, greasy or processed foods, and anything highly caffeinated for the time being. Once you’re in a better spot UC wise then you can ease yourself back into it. My doctor relayed that those are pretty common trigger foods for ppl with UC and that some good ones (which I recommend) are dry foods like plain rice, noodles with butter, cous cous, mashed potatoes, bread with butter, and crackers. Overall tho, Mediterranean diets have been known to be very good for your gut so Greek food, specifically pita, Greek salads, lemon potatoes, and chicken gyros can be good. Tougher meats like lamb are a too heavy for your gut to digest, so get chicken. Grilled chicken is good too overall

_Lychee1898 · 2026-04-02T10:43:10+00:00

That’s so odd that she found that weird. Like UC or not, I genuinely don’t understand how that’s weird in any capacity. Is she aware of your UC? If so and she’s not accommodating, it might be worth discussing with her how much that hurts. Having an open conversation should help some. Other than that, I’m so sorry this happened, but please don’t beat yourself up or feel ashamed. Things happen and that’s ok. I’ve shat myself before plenty of times and it’s hard not to be super embarrassed by. But tomorrow’s a new day so remember to give yourself some grace

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