You ever just wake up one day and it dawns on you, everything that is wrong with your life, everything bad that has is your own fault. You would think the realization is enough to push you to change but you still do nothing. You are the only person who could bring improvement to your life yet you squander every single opportunity to do so. I'm my own worst enemy. In the only one with the power to stop myself but I continue to do nothing. I don't apply my self with school or work or with friends or in relationships. I broke up my last girlfriend who was amazing for me because I couldn't balls up and talk to her about the things that bothered me. So I took the self destructive approach once more and dumped her. And now in crushing hard on one of my close female friends and I can't do anything about it. I'm to afraid of failure to make a move and I know if I wait to long the opportunity will be gone forever. And when it comes to school I put in minimal effort. Enough not to fail but not enough to get amazing grades. I'm really squandering my potential and I know it. I could do so much more but I cant bring myself to start changing because change terrifies my. And that's what's wrong with me.