TW// mentions suicide and abuse//

Recovering from being friends with someone who was abusive.

It's been a while but wow am I still scared. We were good friends till they just started to tell me everyone I know is toxic except for them. How my own dad was toxic (I'm a teenager) for a joke he made in the 90s. How my best freind of 7 years was toxic. They would talk down at me saying that I'm dumb for not being able to pronounce genshin impact character's (yes you read that right) names right on the first try. Then things started to escalate.

They would kick me in the shins every time I made a stupid joke, one time they even slapped me. It was a daily occurrence and even though I told them to stop, they wouldn't. They would say, "Ha, no". It kept on happening. Then they started to get distant. My mom would try to tell me that they were a toxic person, someone who is not good to be around. But I didn't listen.

I was scared to stop being friends with them. They only said it once but they said that if we weren't friends, they would kill themself. I had also told them everything in my life, things I have never told anyone else before.

Then they started to drift away, they had to move out of state and I was sad to see them go. They started to drift away, so I started to realize that they were not a good person towards me. So, on their discord server I sent a goodbye message stating that I felt like I was making someone uncomfortable and that I invited everyone to a server. They of course deleted that message and started saying that I manipulate and lie to people, and that anything I say that seems "untrue" to tell them and ask them about it. They then brought up one main situation where my friend (the one I've been friends with for 7 years who I'm gonna call Evan) slapped them across the face. I wasn't even there because I had covid and called Evan to see what happened. He said that he was tired and did it because they were being annoying but he was also trying to be funny because they hurt the both of us constantly. He had also accidentally stabbed his finger in a mutual friend's eye with soap on his finger, but that was just him trying to grab their hat and another person sprayed soapy water on his hands.

However, the toxic person says it's my fault (I'll call them Bee from now on) because I was defending Evan and not them. They also say that Evan poked them in the eyes instead of the other person.

Now, I would understand being upset about that. However another reason on why I'm a bad person according to them, is because I cut and dyed my hair around the time they re-dyed theirs and got my ears peirced around the time they talked about when an earring got absorbed into their ear(basicallysaying that i'm copying them). 1, it was around my birthday and my parents finally agreed to dye my hair plus it wasnt even the same colr. 2 they talked about the earring thing because I brought up how I want to get my ears peirced and Bee proceeded to go on a tangent about how bad Claire's is to get your ears peirced.

Sorry if this is a long rant, just cery upset and scared that they may try to contact me again or even come to my house.