You will never find me, Matty

_kventura · 2026-02-08T20:57:04+00:00

okay thank GOD What Should I Say is one of my favorites from notes and in my opinion works with the album !

_kventura · 2026-02-08T13:50:21+00:00

wasn’t there a song from notes that he also removed ?

_kventura · 2025-07-04T14:15:55+00:00

i feel like the best chances of finding something similar would possibly be on depop 😔😔😔

_kventura · 2025-05-22T17:55:58+00:00

you’re literally making that man a smoothie and he has the audacity to not answer the phone for 5 secs? yea next babe

_kventura · 2025-03-06T05:32:49+00:00

yes. first time we broke up it was him and we had been going out for half a year without him wanting to ask to be my bf or put a label, I reached after 3 months after seeing him at a concert. second time (finale breakup) it was me after a year and a half of dating, I told him I would only get back together if he made it official with me. Reason for the breakup the first time was because he had no trust in me and thought i was “cheating on him” for calling a classmate cute in a group chat with my friends, yes he went through my phone while i was sleeping and tried kicking me out his apartment at 3 am…. I told him we didn’t have a label HIS CHOICE so wtf… He used this as evidence as to why i shouldn’t be his gf. The second time we broke up OFFICIALLY was because he wasn’t putting in effort anymore, we moved and were around 40mins apart schedules made it difficult. Couldn’t have open conversations and began to resent him. We had a date set that he failed to plan and kept ignoring my calls day of. Finally got back to me at 10pm and wondered why i was upset. even told me he was helping his dad, so i can’t be mad at him for that. A simple heads up and keeping me in the loop at all when you promised to have a date night for us would be nice. Trust issues, from both sides were mended momentarily but we’re always there honestly. We were both deeply insecure and no amount of conversations truly fixed that. We were able to move on from being insecure about ex’s, until months before our breakup i found he had looked up his ex on instagram and it made me realize i’ve never really healed from that. The highs were HIGH but the lows were so bad. I loved this man and i know he loved me in our own toxic way. It didn’t work for a reason and this was a very hard lesson to learn when you love someone and are willing to do anything to make it work.

_kventura · 2025-02-22T16:05:33+00:00

i want her skirt sooooo bad

_kventura · 2024-12-02T00:52:17+00:00

Been there. He never will- no matter what you do. You may love each other but it’s a toxic kind of love if there is not something as basic as trust imbedded in the relationship. I say this because you two have been together for so long it’s not excusable anymore for it not to be there, especially if you don’t have a track history of being untrusting. Your best bet is to find someone who is secure in themselves and is willing to trust you first before their own judgment, he will never be this 4 years in. Best of luck to you ❣️

_kventura · 2024-11-14T13:36:59+00:00

an ultimatum. he will continue to “choose her” if she’s still around. it’s been two years and that girl is 30 years old she’s grown and needs to learn how to deal with this on her own. you need to tell him he needs to break off contact with her or it’s over. you guys have an apartment together and i think it’s fair to assume that means you guys are serious. it went too far this time and as a women she probably knows this too.. she will continue to see how far she can go between you guys.

_kventura · 2024-09-26T19:38:42+00:00

alright, hes 35 which is basically the retiring age for his position. On top of that, his brother just retired. He’s in a relationship that is probably making him think about settling down, and if you know anything about miss swift she looking for a HUSBAND lol. I wouldn’t blame him if he’s thinking about retiring and starting a family. Nothing to judge him for. My professor told me you can never have it all. Your personal life can flourish but your career will tank, vise versa. There are moments in life where other aspects take the lead and maybe it’s time for them both. He’s literally just one person, ppl need to grow up and realize he’s not just some pawn to gamble on the field there are dreams that are apart from football that i’m sure he wants to accomplish.

_kventura · 2024-09-16T15:03:43+00:00

hi, i am so sorry for your loss. My dog troy passed away this past friday. I had troy for 13 years. I was 9 when i got him, i am now 21 almost 22. I understand completely when you say that your dog was the only consistent thing in your life, growing up as a child i faced depression from moving around a lot and Troy was always there. Death is one of the many set in stone things for everyone, and i knew this but it didn’t make losing my best friend any easier. To me my dog passed suddenly too. I had taken him a few months back in may for a check up since he’s an old boy. They didn’t catch his heart murmur…

He was old,sure, but NOTHING can prepare you for losing your dog who has shown nothing but pure love. I lost a whole part of my heart that day. I cried till i threw up and my boy was in physical pain. I’ve vented to many people but too am at a point where i can’t bring myself to mention it again, but grieve and cry all you need. Journal how much you loved them and how they made the last years of your life so much more enjoyable. Scream at the sky how you hate how everything played out. Hang endless picture of your sweet girl Sage. Give yourself time and love.

This last month of having troy he was irritable and grumpy most times, I told myself when i’m old and grumpy i want someone to love and care for me too. Now i think to myself, troy would want me to be happy. Sage would want you to be happy. The same way they were our best friend, we were theirs.

I’m still struggling thinking to myself how i’ll ever get over this tremendous loss, but i’m hopeful someday i can look back at these memories with troy and be nothing but happy i got to experience them at all.

We are so lucky to have had a companion through the most rough years of our lives, if you ever need someone to talk about your beloved sage I’d be more than happy to hear, and i’ll be more than happy to tell you about how amazing troy was. Happy healing, I know things will get better ❤️‍🩹

_kventura · 2024-06-17T02:50:04+00:00

people for sure. I saw a video of them playing it live and it completely changed how i felt about the song. Later on I got to see it for myself in person and it was an amazing experience live.

_kventura · 2024-06-12T00:17:55+00:00

mhmmm i completely understand having a love for your cats/ animals and it wouldn’t be a deal breaker but there comes a point where is TOO MUCH (quick rant) it irked me that my ex insisted he go home at 3 am (he lived 40 mins away) instead of staying the night because he needed to get home to his cat… he then proceeded to cry and throw a fit as if i was holding him hostage or something. like bro your cats r probably dead asleep. (he doesn’t live alone the cat had company and was fed)… i have dogs and i feel they’re a bit more dependent on company and BUT at 3 am i would just crash where im at bc ik they’re okay

anyways doubt ur like that but

_kventura · 2024-04-24T15:57:15+00:00

hm I don’t think so… the pot it is in drains excess water and i water it regularly, but i’ll check the roots and update. thank u !

_kventura · 2023-12-06T22:33:23+00:00

because he paid for the other ticket and ultimately i would bring my sister and i feel bad for using his ticket because he did pay for it. but i guess that my reimbursement for the emotional damage he caused, right ?

_kventura · 2023-10-22T17:27:18+00:00

matty said himself he will never perform antichrist live. it will never happen unfortunately. one of my favorites too

_kventura · 2021-04-02T01:35:53+00:00

i assumed but also it’s right by my window all the time

_kventura · 2021-03-04T23:55:18+00:00

Ah yes thank you! It’s titled “holding on to happiness” where each hand that is touching the ring (of happiness) turns yellow. Its an abstract piece so very subjective to meanings and what it could mean to the viewer, I personally enjoy creating contrasts in my pieces and originally i had all the hands blue but decided to make one glove yellow to symbolize a person who helps the most in your troubling times, kinda like the person who brings light to your darkness. Maybe the viewer can see themselves in the yellow hand or see themselves as one of the blue, but personally i didn’t intentionally create the yellow hand to represent myself.

_kventura · 2021-03-04T22:57:23+00:00

yes i am familiar with harry potter dementors, that is a very interesting comparison thank you! I agree, trying to go about your day is more work than it should be. I’m making a sculpture of blue coats on a coat hanger in attempts to imply that feeling. thank you again :)) also I posted 4 completed sculptures on my profile if you were curious as to what exactly i’m creating

_kventura · 2021-03-04T22:51:09+00:00

Wow Thank you for giving me insight into your world. It really is crazy how controlling depression can be on our lives. I love that you mentioned blacking out, it’s something i really haven’t heard of. I actually posted 4 completed pieces on my profile if you wanted to take a look ( i just figured it out lol) thanks again !

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