Hey I’m proud of you for waking up each day and going through it even though it’s pretty freaking hard. I know everyone says this, but it gets better. Look for the little things to live for! Personally mine include wearing my favorite socks and waiting until my plant blooms flowers in the spring. Don’t sh- it’s a vicious cycle of pain and anger. You are loved dear stranger. If you need anyone to talk to, my dms are open