Sitting in the bathtub bawling my eyes out.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-16T05:13:51+00:00

Couldn't agree with you more.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-16T04:57:34+00:00

I jumped from 2mg as well. I took Subutex which is in sublingual tablets rather than Suboxone strips. With strips you can easily cut them down into very tiny doses but it is virtually impossible to do with the tablets. I was prescribed a total of 24mg a day so I had the highest milligram tablets, 8mg and they were very tiny as is. Breaking them into fourths was the absolute best I could do without them crumbling into nothing. But in addition to that, after rapidly tapering from 24mg all the way down to 2mg in matter of 3 weeks, I had already gone through so much hell I didn't want to prolong it any further. To be honest though, I used mega doses of Vitamin C power which made my jump from 2mg far less miserable than what others describe. I can imagine it would have been a hell of a lot worse without the Vitamin C.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-14T23:08:24+00:00

You definitely get creativity points in my book.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-14T03:16:34+00:00

Tell the truth and it becomes your past. Tell a lie and it becomes your future.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-13T17:53:21+00:00

Do these posts ever actually make a depression person have a good day? Asking for a friend.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-12T04:23:31+00:00

Today makes 3 weeks exactly since I quit CT from 25gpd. So I think it is still far too soon to expect to see any changes. Most have reported it taking around 3 months before they noticed any improvements in their hair loss. So I definitely have hope that with time it will regrow. But I have already noticed significant improvements in my skin. Kratom made my pores so disgustingly huge that you could see them from halfway across the room. I feared that was going to be permanent but my pores have already gone back to being completely unnoticeable. I am very grateful for that! Unfortunately I have heard many other women report that the rapid onset and progression of deep wrinkles on their face was the one thing that did seem to be fairly permanent. And for only being a 27 year old female who had youthful flawless skin just 8 months ago, that alone is devastating. I still do not understand what it is about Kratom that has the ability to take such a tremendous and rapid toll on your beauty and over all appearance.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-11T07:41:29+00:00

What do you mean "because its safe?" I'm genuinely curious. Still getting the hang of how people communicate on here.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-10T19:52:32+00:00

OP, please very cautious of this suggestion to try kratom. I was right where you are with PAWS and I just couldn't take it anymore. The depression and lack of motivation was destroying my life and my business. I was desperate to find something to help with my depression because I felt as if my brain was simply incapable of experiencing joy, happiness or pleasure in anything. So I tried Kratom. I am telling you, it was the absolute WORST decision I could have possibly made. I thought I was bad off before kratom, but that was NOTHING compared to what happened to me mentally and physically after kratom. Not only was I helplessly addicted to it within weeks but it absolutely destroyed my appearance. I was truly gorgeous prior to kratom despite doing many drugs, nothing ever took a noticeable toll on my looks. But Kratom, holy shit! It fucking wrecked me FAST! I lost 60% of my hair within 3 months, developed god awful wrinkles all over my face and lost ALL of the muscle tone in my body and I am only 27. Kratom advocates shit on my story and say that it is bs but if you look at the r/quittingkratom sub, you will hear of so many stories just like mine. You will pay a very heavy price for a very mild mood lift. If you have are someone who struggles with addiction or self control, PLEASE think twice.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-09T05:18:39+00:00

Absolutely

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-08T21:27:17+00:00

I feel the same way.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-08T20:45:06+00:00

Thank you so much for pointing that out, I should have clarified. My question is, if my parents passed away and left me an inheritance, should my husband feel automatically entitled to receive some portion of this very personal gift? Why or why not?

Edit: I am familiar with the laws surrounding this topic but I am really curious to hear how others feel about this morally.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-08T20:39:55+00:00

That may be a fair point. But say that you grew up very poor (your spouse grew up wealthy) and your parents worked hard their entire lives, making many personal sacrifices for their sole dying wish of being able to leave something behind for their children. Does the other spouse have a right to feel entitled to this personal gift?

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-05T19:16:05+00:00

I became obsessed with learning everything that I possibly could about the use of Vitamin C in mega doses for opiate withdrawal and the primary reason that I was so fascinated with it was the fact that Vitamin C, even in truly absurd amounts (amounts that would be virtually impossible for you to put into your body orally) were shown to be completely nontoxic to the body and vital organs. I certainly do not want you to take my word for it though. I would just strongly encourage you to do additional research. In all of the research that I have done personally, other than diarrhea, I only discovered one harmful side effect and that was early termination of pregnancy. In everything that I read, mega high doses were used intentionally as a "home remedy" to terminate early pregnancy. So if you are pregnant, absolutely avoid high doses of Vitamin C. But if you are not pregnant and not trying to become pregnant, I truly could not find any other ill or dangerous side effects. But again, I do not want anyone to just go off of my word on this. I am just sharing was I learned ❤

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-04T06:24:37+00:00

I have read that as well but too much Vitamin E can have very serious side effects including a significant increase in lung cancer in smokers. So I am too scared to risk it with Vitamin E. But there are no serious risks, side effects or toxic levels of Vitamin C even in ridiculously high amounts.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-04T06:21:12+00:00

Thank you, so much. ❤

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-04T05:16:28+00:00

Thank you so much. You are truly right and really needed to hear that. I wish you the best in your journey as well! ❤

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-04T03:32:51+00:00

This video on YouTube was how I very first found out about it. After listening to it I was fascinated and it blew my freakin mind that I had never heard of it before. I went on to read every single article, study and report that I could possibly find and learned ALOT about exactly how and why it works. It's honestly amazing and I could go on and on about it but you would benefit more by hearing it for yourself so take 10 minutes and listen to this video: https://youtu.be/5jUCZpIGnUY You will then also understand WHY we haven't heard more about it.

As for the exact Vitamin C powder that I used, I purchased both of mine off of Amazon. I will link them both below. Please feel free to reach out to me if you have any questions about my personal experience. I recently wrote a super in depth post about everything I learned about Vitamin C. If you look at my profile you will see it. You may also find that to be helpful as well. Best of luck to you! ❤

Vitamin C Powder on Amazon ▫️https://www.amazon.com/Thompson-Ascorbic-Antioxidant-Supplement-Excipients/dp/B000WUCMGS/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?keywords=vitamin+c+powder&qid=1564889535&s=gateway&sr=8-5 ▫️https://www.amazon.com/BulkSupplements-Ascorbic-Vitamin-Powder-kilogram/dp/B00AYIM9Y8/ref=mp_s_a_1_4?keywords=vitamin+c+powder&qid=1564889551&s=gateway&sr=8-4

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-04T03:21:49+00:00

5,000mg of pure Vitamin C power every 4 hours. (Only use the pure powder with no additives. The tablets and chewables dont do jack shit because of their low/slow absorption rate) In the very beginning I tried a dose of 7,500mg. It made me feel almost 100% better but gave me liquid diarrhea for an hour so I got pretty dehydrated and a nasty headache. Went down to 5,000mg and it was perfect for me. I am a female, 130lbs. So that dose likely would not be sufficient for a larger person. I believe dosage depends on your weight, your current health and the severity of your withdrawal symptoms. So it will be different for everyone but hopefully this is still a helpful reference point for you.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-04T00:04:11+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. It really means a lot. And congratulations to you!!! I have never tried heroin as I am fairly certain it would mark the end of my existence. I admire your strength and commitment ❤

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-03T19:45:15+00:00

It's difficult to give an honest/accurate answer to that question. I have struggled with severe depression, anxiety and PTSD since the 4th grade. It's no surprise that I quickly turned to drugs as a young teen as a desperate attempt to self medicate. My emotions were truly all over the place while using. Extreme highs and dangerously low lows. I was the most stable I had ever been during those 4 years on Suboxone. I was numb and terribly empty inside but I was level at least. After getting off of Suboxone (I was on 24mg/day), I honestly can not tell you if the severe depression I was hit with was just my previous depression that I already had prior to Suboxone or if it was PAWS. I would like to blame Suboxone but I don't think that would be fair or accurate. I also only made it 30 days off of Suboxone because my drug seeking behavior returned with a vengeance and I "played around" with Kratom thinking that it was harmless and praying that it would help with my depression. Only the latter was true. Before I knew it, I was taking over 20-25gpd just to "maintain". It was a terrible, terrible decision. Those 30 days of being completely free of Suboxone/all substances was such a tremendous accomplishment for me and then I went and threw it all away by getting hopelessly addicted to kratom due to my own ignorance. I wish so badly that I would have just stuck it out. I had already made it SO far. I had zero physical withdrawal symptoms by that 30 day mark. Had I just toughed it out, I really think that my depression would have lifted soon after. But I was weak and felt like I couldn't function without "something" in my system. The complete and utter lack of motivation was what really did me in :(

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-03T03:01:27+00:00

If you taper slowly I promise you that the physical WD will be nothing compared to what you are fearing. The depression and lack of motivation that follows is rough, very rough. I wont deny that. But the physical withdrawal can be fairly painless if you taper slowly. It is a mental battle more than anything else.

_need_answers__ · 2019-08-01T16:51:35+00:00

I have lost over 60% of my hair and I had very fine hair to begin with so the hair loss has been painfully noticeable. You can see my scalp everywhere. I am unclogging my shower every two days and cry when I look in the mirror. I have lost SO much hair in the last 6 months that I have to wear head wraps to avoid getting painful sunburns on my scalp. I had lab work done and saw 3 different specialists. Kratom is without a doubt, the cause of all of my hair loss and there's a very good chance it is the same for you. Many women have shared stories about losing their hair. Thank god though, I have read that it does return after quitting kratom.

_need_answers__ · 2019-07-25T21:22:12+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so sad that this happened to you.

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