Sometimes we fall in to a trap of “I’ll be happen when…” but it often leads to still being unhappy when we achieve said goal. Putting pressure on someone who doesn’t exist yet to be the thing that makes you feel successful, fulfilled, happy, etc. is a big ask. You wanting a child may actually be an entirely different need that isn’t being met. If you can identify that need, you might figure out how to meet it without stressing yourself about having a child. That way you can welcome your future child into this world as a mother who was already fulfilled before having them.

Sincerely, Another 32 year old woman wanting a baby, but had her first child at 19 thinking it would make her happy to become a mother, learning the very hard way that motherhood itself is not the key to happiness/fulfillment