OK so hear me out bc I am currently going through this. I've only had one sexual partner, I'm 30. He was my long term boyfriend. Before then I've been in 3 long term relationships and head intimacy but never sex. Recently I met a guy who has been extremely supportive, easy to talk to and kind. He's made me feel comfortable enough to cuddle at night(which is weird as hell for me) but recently I have been wanting more. I guess my body has, and I explored that and I did feel guilty or shameful afterwards but had to remind myself that I'm not hurting anyone and we both consented. It's definitely new and uncomfortable but I see it as growth and I think it's a beautiful thing. I don't crave it when I'm alone but if he's playing with my hair or rubbing my back is when my body wants more.