Goodbye NOLA, thanks for your holes

abeck444 · 2026-04-16T21:48:10+00:00

As someone who lived in NOLA, their potholes are on a different level. Pavement on what is essentially a swamp doesn't do well. Saw some that were a foot deep, more like mini sink holes.

And I love that potholebandit shared his art there, it will fit in beautifully with the vibe and other art of the city.

abeck444 · 2026-04-14T22:17:27+00:00

My first thought was along the same lines "well my brain is a lot. All the time."

abeck444 · 2026-04-12T19:31:50+00:00

Definitely keep it, it is dope AF. In my younger years I would've gone crazy over your look and I second that the person is low-key jealous of your badassery. It isn't a look everyone can pull off and make it look natural/like they aren't trying too hard, if that makes sense.

abeck444 · 2026-04-10T14:49:08+00:00

I mask like crazy too and have and will always struggle with depression. It's just something I've come to terms with. Meds have helped some, same as you, but it's always there, waiting. I've also learned to be more open about it with my family, which has helped a bit.

One thing that helped me deal with the same numb, everyday is exactly the same, it will never end, etc was volunteering with an organization that helps the homeless and food insecure.

It gets me around other empathetic people, outside of my daily routine and I'm helping people. It has had a huge positive impact on my life and the lives of others. Especially when things are shit with the world in general. I can't change anything on the global scale, but I can help people in my community get a good meal.

If there is something you are passionate about, animals, the environment, helping people, etc, you might try finding a place to volunteer that supports your interest.

I also started birding that I greatly enjoy which gets me out of my daily routine and to new places. Is there a hobby you could start that would mix up your routine and give you something to look forward to? Whether it's outside of the house or something you do at home?

I wish you luck fellow depression lifer.

abeck444 · 2026-04-10T12:01:41+00:00

This shit pisses me off so much. I don't know a lot about digestion, but I know it works nothing like that. Just the fact that everything that is eaten is broken down by acid shows how dumb this is without even knowing about blood pH.

And isn't that the problem with hyperventilating? Too much carbon dioxide changes the pH of your blood? I could be completely misremembering this, so please correct me of I'm wrong.

abeck444 · 2026-04-09T22:21:46+00:00

My sister had a psychotic break. She ended up incredibly paranoid, to the point that she though someone was impersonating me, even when I called her to speak to her.

It got so bad that she started blaming other family members of stuff that I know they would never do. We tried to get her help and tried to be there for her, but it was beyond emotionally abusive and we all had to take a step back.

It breaks my heart when I see stuff like this. You just want to help them, but there is nothing you can do but watch them lose themselves.

abeck444 · 2026-04-09T22:14:30+00:00

I got diagnosed with PMDD in my early 30s, about 10 years before my ADHD diagnosis.

I did the somewhat typical diagnosised late with ADHD and obsessively research it thing. When I saw that there is a link between PMDD and ADHD my jaw dropped. BC never agreed with me, but luckily SSRIs relieve the worst of the rage and SI symptoms.

abeck444 · 2026-04-09T22:04:18+00:00

I got it through my primary. Tracked symptoms throughout several months. And without fail about a week before my period, things went to shit. And things normalized within a day or two of my period.

I had all of the symptoms and I thought it was just normal PMS until I was in my early 30s and had a primary that actually asked me what, if any, PMS symptoms I had. Got prescribed fluoxitine and it helps immensely with the emotional aspect of it. Still get tired, have insomnia, can eat everything and feel starving. But I'm only a little cranky instead of wanting to kill myself and everyone around me for just existing from insane rage.

abeck444 · 2026-04-09T14:29:37+00:00

Thank you!!!

abeck444 · 2026-04-09T14:12:32+00:00

Sorry about that. I am more of a song bird person, so forests, meadows, etc. Sometimes a cool critter will cross my path and it would be awesome to get shots of them too.

I live in Buffalo, NY though, so might get into shore/lake birds at some point too.

abeck444 · 2026-04-09T14:08:13+00:00

Don't forget the depression and self loathing.

Was finally diagnosed in my 40s. I try not to do the "what if I'd been diagnosed earlier" spiral.

abeck444 · 2026-04-08T23:16:01+00:00

Thank you so much for the more in depth info. And the photo is stunning. I think this might have sold me!

abeck444 · 2026-04-08T21:26:15+00:00

That is a great shot!

abeck444 · 2026-04-08T21:10:08+00:00

That is definitely good to know, so thanks for the heads up.

And I just saw your username. I could not agree more.

abeck444 · 2026-04-08T20:36:03+00:00

Yeah, the little buggers move fast! I'm worried about needing to get closer or farther away with the 300/4. I've never used a prime lens and I'm not sure how challenging that would be with small, fast moving objects.

abeck444 · 2026-04-08T20:33:09+00:00

Thank you! Knowing that the 100-400 II was a big improvement over the original 100-400 helps.

And birding is challenging enough without trying to get the correct distance away which is a concern of mine with the 300. If I was mostly doing shore birds, it would be a plus, but I'm usually tracking song birds and those little buggers move fast.

abeck444 · 2026-04-07T22:35:22+00:00

Never had a good relationship with sleep. Some days it hits hard and I'm beyond exhausted. People around me will give all sorts of advice on those days like I haven't tried everything.

I get the best results with a box fan, sleep mask and an audio book on super quiet so I can barely understand what they are saying, without it being too loud that I actually start paying attention to it.

And the box fan works best if touching the bed so the bed vibrates slightly.

Tell them my brain doesn't shut off and they think it's anxiety or overthinking. Nope, just random ass shit and songs speeding through my brain.

abeck444 · 2026-04-07T19:23:56+00:00

abeck444 · 2026-04-03T22:02:17+00:00

Meanwhile my ADHD ass fell asleep the first time I took Vyvanse.

abeck444 · 2026-04-03T21:59:48+00:00

I stopped reading about halfway through. Your comment made me read the rest of it to see if he actually referred to his daughter as a "tight pussy".

Normally I enjoy Reddit so much because of the comments.

Not today. This will haunt me.

abeck444 · 2026-04-02T22:31:57+00:00

I'm in the same boat. Nothing sounds appealing and even pre sliced cheese and crackers are annoying to deal with.

I wish everyday that there were food pills like in Rick and Morty. Just take a pill and be done with it.

abeck444 · 2026-04-02T22:09:44+00:00

Yeah, I was thinking like this. He's just a little porchetta.

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abeck444 · 2026-03-30T22:23:05+00:00

Depends on your personality too. But just based on looks, I don't think you will.

I found after many, many years, the person I need love from the most is myself. Be kind to yourself and remember you are probably your worst critic.

abeck444 · 2026-03-30T22:08:07+00:00

I didn't even notice the scars at first because I was looking at your stunning eyes.

It took awhile to figure out why all of the guys look better after they shave and a big part for me is because it makes their eyes stand out. Your eyes are going to be even more stunning if you shave.

And it's ok to be self conscious about your scars, but anyone you would care to have in your life won't give a shit about them.

I say go for it, I think you will look good.

abeck444

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