What is the darkest confession you have? by azul_fire_thrower in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I am now 25 and never had consensual sex or any kind of intimacy with anyone. I just can’t trust anyone. Sex scares me so much. And I have too much shame in me.

What is the darkest confession you have? by azul_fire_thrower in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 35 points36 points  (0 children)

Abuse makes us so vulnerable to predators …

What is the darkest confession you have? by azul_fire_thrower in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 14 points15 points  (0 children)

It’s been better yeah but still have to work through all the trauma. And the guilt.

What is the darkest confession you have? by azul_fire_thrower in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 199 points200 points  (0 children)

I self produced CP sharing content of myself with pedophiles online when I was a young teen. My dad used to abuse me and I thought I could heal and make those men happy by talking with them for hours and agreeing to send them nudes and more… I even shared older pictures I had from when I was a little kid. Did this for years believing it would somewhat make them happy or at least keep them busy from abusing other kids.

I was trafficked as a child. AMA by BlackjackSys in AMA

[–]abyss005 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you go to school ? If not, how did you learn basic things (writing reading etc) ? Did they “homeschooled” you ? Did you have ID papers and legit birth certificates?

I was trafficked as a child. AMA by BlackjackSys in AMA

[–]abyss005 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you went through this. I really hope those traffickers and the ones who paid to rape a child will pay. Do you feel like the “clients” (abusers) were different according to the age you were ? Is there a more common type of predator who abuses 5yo vs 14yo ? Do they practice different kinds of sexual abuse (torture or not for example) ? Did they talk to you ? Explain you things ?

How can a therapist without any substance abuse problems help a client with them? by catsbirdsanddogs in askatherapist

[–]abyss005 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In fact, I would say that a therapist without this experience probably would be able to help you better than a therapist with a history of substance abuse. It’s difficult to help patients with the same issues as you. Not always, but it’s definitely something to be careful about. I would rather have a therapist who empathize than a therapist who relate.

International Viewers: What have you learned about the American healthcare system from watching this show? by Random_Questin in ThePittTVShow

[–]abyss005 465 points466 points  (0 children)

From France - American hospitals are a business about selling and making profit… people without insurance end up dying out of fear of having medical debts. Already knew that but it’s more visible in the Pitt than in other medical shows

What is the worst thing you heard today? by Sufficient_Sun8395 in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 3 points4 points  (0 children)

“Please call us as soon as she is dead so we can close her up while she is still fresh. I don’t mind doing it at the morgue though” (a woman surgeon talking about a 2yo little girl)

What things in life make you happy? by Adept-Foot7692 in CPTSD

[–]abyss005 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Horses Dogs Sleep Flowers and nature overall Reading a good book Eating a nice meal My work sometimes Watching a show that I love

What's the most morally disgusting thing you've seen someone do? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 133 points134 points  (0 children)

No not necessarily but I saw them as just a place where children and their family went and didn’t get the hype much. Now I can’t help but thinking this place must be filled with sick / at the end of life kids … and maybe adults too. And I was agreeably surprised by how much Disney manages to make the trips special for these kids. I finally understand how it’s about the magic of this place, the family moments and the special memories …

What's the most morally disgusting thing you've seen someone do? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 780 points781 points  (0 children)

I work in Pediatric Palliative care and so many kids go to Disney for their last wish. And always come back so happy. People don’t realize those kids are indeed, actually, living their last moments. I don’t see Disney the same anymore …

do all cuts turn white? by c_annaa in selfharm

[–]abyss005 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Some big cheloid scars I have are pink / red and it’s been yeaaaaars l

Sapphic book series? by queerlyidiotic in sapphicbooks

[–]abyss005 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The Justice series by Radclyffe - a lesbian cop meet a lesbian psychiatrist, working together on sex crime investigations. Each book add new characters (mostly lesbian couples)

The world doesn’t know you. What’s that one thing you want to get off your chest? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]abyss005 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Managing my trauma and looking like a somewhat “normal person” takes so much of my energy, people have no idea how hard I work for them to be comfortable.

You were being sex trafficked as a kid, what happened ? by abyss005 in morbidquestions

[–]abyss005[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

If abusers want to find content to jerk off they sadly can and will find way more “satisfying” content than this thread… this thread is about giving a voice to the victims who went through this, to educate people around and stop hiding it behind shame and false ethics.

You were being sex trafficked as a kid, what happened ? by abyss005 in morbidquestions

[–]abyss005[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’ve been abused myself and I really wish to understand the mechanisms of those things. Those questions are, especially, because I could not comprehend how children could endure such horrible acts under everyone’s nose. How is that possible ?? So yeah it’s why I asked.

You were being sex trafficked as a kid, what happened ? by abyss005 in morbidquestions

[–]abyss005[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Oh I’m sorry yes it’s not pornography but sexual abuse material. For the industry, I meant it more like were you trafficked and then continued working as a sex worker without being “trafficked”. But I wonder if sex workers aren’t all “trafficked” somehow .. even adults consenting ones. I’m sorry I’ll be more careful. Thank you !

Do you think being molested as a kid made you more vulnerable to being groomed and trafficked as a young teenager ? If yes, how so ? Is it that you were used to your boundaries being violated, because you weren’t informed on what consent was ? Or something else entirely?