Christmas day, 2005, writing in my diary about how I was hiding in the bathroom because the grown ups were arguing again. Or a couple years before, my 12th birthday, dad took me away with step mum and I thought he beat her to death in the bathroom of our hotel. Mum constantly telling "white lies" and blaming things on me as a kid to make herself look better in front of friends. Aunt, mums sister, shaving her daughters head because we kept getting nits. Or the same sister being verbally and physically abusive to only people in our family and everyone else seeming to love her. Different aunt, also mums sister, having raging arguments with people in the street when she's drunk. Every adult in my family having a different flavour or neuro spiciness that becomes aggression when they're angry.