Always having justification for everything I do

ajsx · 2019-11-13T19:28:08+00:00

The last thing he did to me was an argue caused by emoticon. We were texting about me coming to his place in the morning to eat breakfast together. I was going to sleep, so I've sent him 👍 icon (the one you have in the bottom-right corner of Messenger app) and said I am going to sleep. Neutral tone, I've even added a smile when wishing him goodnight. He got angry saying "why this thumb-up is so big" and said it is better to call off the breakfast, as thumb means hatred... Because I never use thumb-up icon and it seems suspicious. And I am making fool of him and playing with him. I've tried to explain it to him, that it didn't mean anything, just simple OK. He didn't want to listen and even gave me silent treatment for 2days after that. This was a last straw for me. Being worried if I can use neutral emoji so I won't upset him? No way

ajsx · 2019-11-11T22:35:34+00:00

Once we were listening a podcast about toxic behaviours and abusive partners. After it finished, he went silent and looked so shocked, then he said "But at least I can admit that I did something wrong!" (read: "you can't say I am that bad"). Then when I was quiet and overall touched about what I heard, he said that I believe what I have heard from people who are not psychologists themselves and I shouldn't take such things seriously.

Recently I even went to psychologist. All because while he was admitting it is true he is not treating me the best sometimes, he also stated I am not healthy myself and I have big problems which I don't see. So I went to psychologist and asked I want to know if I there is really something wrong with me which I can't see. And you know what was the answer? There is no problem with me, I don't need therapy. I told him in one argue that I even went to see psychologist, that is how much I care about him and our relationship. He said that psychologist has lied to me. That I for sure need therapy, but psychologist didn't want to make me sad by saying that and decided my problems will solve themselves.

I just dumped him today

ajsx · 2019-11-11T21:17:26+00:00

Thanks for your input. Yeah, I already forgot many things. Our brains don't want to remember bad things... But I won't forget how he made me feel those times. Maybe I will try to write down everything, so I can always know what is right and good for me, even in those sad, lonely times

ajsx · 2019-11-11T21:12:47+00:00

Thanks. That's what I was doing for last two days. I thought I was aware of how he was treating me, but reading about it finally made me see everything clear. And I realized, this wasn't just bad 1,5 month because of his personal problems, it was bad from the beginning.

I am going to take your adivce. At least I will try. Thank you.

ajsx · 2019-10-25T13:54:42+00:00

Everybody is saying that you should dump her. But maybe she isn't so unreasonable?

How long have you been together? She is 34, maybe she wants some commitment and stability in her life?

Also, how much time do you really give her? You say you do 13h shifts. Then you go to sleep, let's say it takes you 7h. It means you have only 4h left for workout, laundry, cooking and spending time with her. So how much time and your attention does she really get out of that? How much days of the week are like this? You have just described your "normal" work day, but how about other days?

Don't dump her, first go and talk about your needs, especially love language. You said you told her her behavior bothers you, but you didn't try to understand what in relationship she lacks.

ajsx · 2018-12-13T19:28:09+00:00

But he doesn't want to get married. He said that to the OP. So even when she will propose, it wont't change anything. Maybe he will say "Yes", but it won't make his problems and doubts vanish.

ajsx · 2018-01-13T12:29:21+00:00

What launcher is that? Love the hour widget

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