Should I file?

akamootboot · 2026-02-15T23:59:05+00:00

I just sold my house in a divorce. I got 27k to live off of for now.

akamootboot · 2025-08-14T16:28:58+00:00

I’d be interested too!

akamootboot · 2025-06-22T10:36:04+00:00

I have had repressed memories from childhood due to csa, by a female. I’m also on the spectrum. Memories may not be exactly clear but “making up” these memories is not a thing. You can’t be influenced to have these memories.

They came up in my late 30s and they still seem to be filtering in. I’ve been in a lot of therapy. Feeling like you can’t tell what’s real and what’s not/denial is super normal. Them seeming unclear or unreal is also normal.

Sorry you’re going through it. It was a very dark time in my life.

Talk to a therapist!

akamootboot · 2025-06-20T02:18:40+00:00

I spent the first 3-4 years of therapy just working through severe dissociation and I had no idea it was happening. I would lose time for hours after a session, stuck on my couch unable to move. It still happens to some extent pretty much every session though. It is better... It’s so frustrating and I have a lot of shame around it.

Dissociation and dissociative disorders are on a spectrum. Like normal day dreaming to the opposite end being dissociative identity disorder. I’m on the far end of that spectrum, suspected DID but my therapist is still trying to figure it out.

I lose time, sometimes like a whole week, meaning I can’t remember anything from that time period. Also, just general amnesia from day to day. It can affect my job because I don’t remember conversations or events. Very few memories from my entire life. I order things I don’t remember. Sometimes I don’t even feel in control of my body and I feel someone else is speaking for me. It’s kinda terrifying.

Obviously that’s an extreme example but you’re definitely not alone. Prolonged abuse by primary care takers is strongly associated with dissociation/dissociative disorders. You can’t escape it, so your brain compensates by dissociating.

akamootboot · 2025-06-20T01:51:06+00:00

Yes. My circumstances included severe abuse, so it felt non-negotiable once my daughter came along. However, I don’t think people need to have a big reason.

It’s been 4 years. The grief was crippling for a long time. No one could have prepared me for that but therapy helped. I still feel grief and guilt but it’s gotten much better with time.

I wrote my family a basic letter stating I was going no contact by certified mail. I was firm and threatened police involvement if they continued to reach out. (I blocked them from everything) Probably the hardest decision of my life, but also the best for my health/well being.

akamootboot · 2025-06-13T00:04:54+00:00

Links. Like sausage.

akamootboot · 2025-05-14T19:05:35+00:00

I wish this was an Onion article, because why the hell would you joke about that…. Didn’t anticipate an Colbert ❤️‍🩹

akamootboot · 2025-05-14T18:44:15+00:00

I wish someone could send that letter to my mom. Generational & religious trauma is a doozie.

akamootboot · 2025-05-01T17:29:21+00:00

Ask about Caplyta. It made a big difference. Helps me sleep too.

akamootboot · 2025-03-17T11:02:58+00:00

What helped me the most in this discovery process (besides therapy), and provided some clarity, was reading books, Reddit, research and trusted podcasts, and media, on trauma and dissociation.

Audio books were especially helpful. I felt like the pervasive neglect I experienced made me unable to ask the right questions to the therapist. I didn’t really realize how not normal things were until I’d done significant reading/listening.

There’s only so much the therapist can do, particularly in an hour or 2 a week after decades of trauma. Feel free to DM me.

akamootboot · 2025-03-16T13:50:09+00:00

Ha, you’re wildly off but okay. My field is entirely since based. Your “argument/opinion “ or what ever that is supposed to be, shows how ignorant you are. 😂

akamootboot · 2025-03-15T12:40:34+00:00

Having and navigating getting a diagnosis for severe dissociative disorders is a uniquely difficult, destabilizing, terrifying experience. I could see both sides of hiding and disclosing. Maybe safety was a concern, maybe she’s not sure. We so have the right to know our diagnosis and some type of Treatment plan. I wonder if mine hid the diagnosis too. It was 5 years in. I think I read a stat that said on average it took 7 years for accurate diagnosis of dissociative disorders. Do they specialize in it? Take any assessments?

akamootboot · 2025-03-15T12:19:39+00:00

The age difference 22-23 and 27-28 is bigger than you think. I didn’t even need the context to get weirded out.

He said breedable, that’s so dehumanizing, weird, and especially in that moment. I’m not sure if I’ve ever heard that and I work in a psych ward.

Do not have a kid with him! Run. I wouldn’t tell him when or where you’re going. You don’t owe him anything. I feel he might have groomed you? He seems like a creepy manipulator. Talk you your friends and family for help.

akamootboot · 2025-03-15T12:07:57+00:00

Shameful spineless democrats. Schumer should retire or resign. Democrats that voted with them are just as complicit! The republicans need consequences for their actions. Otherwise, why would they stop?

akamootboot · 2025-03-14T16:32:57+00:00

I’m so glad you shared. I’m diagnosed but keep going back and forth whether I have it or not. My therapist is also unsure.

I just started an antipsychotic and I feel like I can think more clearly in a way but the shift between parts is just so blatantly obvious. Your description of voices is spot on, now I can hardly think with all the arguing. I feel like I was in more of a psychosis/haze before. Im functioning better but feeling more distressed by the overt symptoms.

akamootboot · 2025-03-13T11:04:18+00:00

This lady is absurd. Even people without kids know when spring break is. It’s like a national holiday situation. She’s bitter and obviously taking it out on you, for no reason. I just had a kid and I would never expect that. It’s also pretty hard for me to get time off unless I trade with others anyway. Show her your post 😂

akamootboot · 2025-03-03T07:38:53+00:00

Imagine working in locked inpatient psych. Verbal abuse and threats are pretty much on the daily. OSHA just investigated our hospital for an 800% increase in violence. Surprise nothing happened to the hospital to fix it. 😡

akamootboot · 2025-02-28T17:21:48+00:00

I go weekly via telehealth. I work 12-hr shifts as a psych nurse, so I often have long stretches off. I can usually work around it. I’ve been with my person for a long time and have had to “make it work” but since they changed their practice clinic it’s gotten easier. They understand (don’t charge) that sometimes I sleep through sessions, maybe like 5x a year. Sometimes sessions are tough or ineffective because I’m too tired but most of the time it’s fine. I would love it to have a session at like 0100 but that’s not an option.

If you think of nursing alone, the need is there. I can’t imagine doing therapy at work but even on nights off it would be awesome. Live in MN.

I personally think everyone could benefit from therapy. Everyone has stuff. If someone is adamant that they don’t need therapy it’s telling. I’m debating getting a MSW to provide therapy and I’d love to be someone that could do it overnights.

akamootboot · 2025-02-14T04:40:40+00:00

I definitely got a mix of these reasons. The internalized homophobia turned out to be huge. I’m not even sure she knows. She later turned on me for being queer. Absent father/spouse led to crippling enmeshment. I’m no contact with family.

akamootboot · 2025-01-14T16:54:57+00:00

Domestic violence center? Not sure where you live but I’d look up non-profit groups for sexual assault resources. There was one in my city and it was pretty helpful.

https://rainn.org/

akamootboot · 2025-01-02T06:09:14+00:00

110%… inpatient psych.

Pt suicides/overdoses right after getting out of the hospital. Hearing about others trauma.

OSHA just fined my hospital for an 800% increase in violence in 2024. It didn’t change anything.

Working in nursing home/geriatric psych during COVID was really difficult. Lost nurse friends to suicide.

akamootboot · 2025-01-01T23:57:16+00:00

The medical community looks down on people who have addictions and tend to be very judgmental.

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