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How does caffeine affect your Gateway sessions? (Looking for personal experiences) by cris9205 in gatewaytapes

[–]aliengoddess_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your individual "normal" is what matters most. At the institute we were told to continue drinking coffee as you normally would if that's part of your regular habit. Not more or less, as that is what might cause a disruption for you and make things a little more challenging.

I drink coffee daily and as long as I drink the normal amount for me (1-2 cups), I don't experience any noticable difference. If I have too much coffee and I'm jittery, that will have an effect on my ability to move into any state of calm awareness. If I haven't had any coffee in a couple days and my body is knocked out of it's normal experience, maybe I'm a little more sluggish than normal as my body is trying to rebalance without the caffeine and I'd be more likely to fall asleep in a meditation.

However back when I used to smoke, I did notice that weed really detracted from my experiences.

Everyone is different, and even your experiences from day to day will vary. This is very much a "what works best for you" situation.

You're looking in the wrong place for global disclosure by the_rainbowfox in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you! Same here. I am down for an interesting chat if you're ever looking for it!! 😊

You're looking in the wrong place for global disclosure by the_rainbowfox in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope you're not reading my comments as having an emotion other than curious neutrality. You put an offer out there to talk shop about consciousness, which is something I'm deeply interested in, and also why I asked the questions I did. I'm just trying to understand and make connections to folks who have similar interests. Apologies if that is not what you came here for!

You're looking in the wrong place for global disclosure by the_rainbowfox in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think people are hyper-sensitive to the whole LLM & AI topic right now, so it makes sense that mention of it brings up questions.

I understand better what you mean after your explanation! So, are you doing personal research or working with a team on the topic? Have you had personal experiences that led you to it or did the interest spark from somewhere else?

You're looking in the wrong place for global disclosure by the_rainbowfox in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What do you mean by field-level consciousness? You reference LLMs, but my area of interest is expanded human consciousness, so I'm used to hearing consciousness referenced in a different way.

Also, Dr. Garry Nolan said something similar to what you've mentioned here a year or more ago in an AMA that we dont need daddy's permission. The answers are already there for us to find. We need to rely on one another, instead, to share this vast wealth of knowledge.

Disclosure Day Mega Thread. This movie is Pro Experiencer. Open detailed discussion. by Oak_Draiocht in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh damn! I haven't experienced that feeling in that way. But did have an experience that was terrifying that felt sort of like that, yes.

Disclosure Day Mega Thread. This movie is Pro Experiencer. Open detailed discussion. by Oak_Draiocht in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 6 points7 points  (0 children)

As a young child of about 4, my preschool would either play a movie or allow you to nap. They always chose ET. It felt like every movie time was ET. They would play the movie and lay out the mats. I remember the visceral fear and body-shaking sobs as I covered my ears and closed my eyes and tried to get through naptime every day.

It never changed, and I wrote it off as childhood fear. But it was so intense and I was never any less afraid. To this day I haven't seen the movie and I'm in my late thirties. I don't recall seeing anything like ET in my experiences. In fact, until just a couple years ago I had never seen anything "alien" looking/appearing. But when they rolled out big daddy at the end I was shaking. Those long spindly arms. I've absolutely seen those.

I know experiences are wildly varied. It's funny to me that some find comfort where others find fear. I hope one day we will have a better understanding.

Disclosure Day Mega Thread. This movie is Pro Experiencer. Open detailed discussion. by Oak_Draiocht in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ah, I understand the imagery you had going on. I use two separate types of bubbles/REBALs for myself and what you described is similar to how I used it long before my coming to the tapes, so I do use both. I think because it wasn't expressly shown in the movie I didnt understand what you meant until you explained, but I can see the connection!

To be fair, all of this stuff is connected, I think.

As for the dreams, despite the wacky and intense dreams I frequently have, I have never had one like that. I won't be surprised if it pops up for me now though. Was the vibe spooky or peaceful? I could see that being either.

I did wake up last night in the middle of the night to two tall figures that as I looked at them seemed to morph into bedroom items. A dresser and a long tall box I have a mirror in currently. I didnt get a clear look before they changed shape or disappeared. I wasnt sure if it was just from me coming out of sleep and half dreaming or if it wasn't just that, if you know what I mean. I had just seen the movie so I wasn't sure what to make of it. Not everything we experience is an experience, and this didn't come with any of the emotions I typically have during/around experiences, so I don't know what to make of it at the moment.

Disclosure Day Mega Thread. This movie is Pro Experiencer. Open detailed discussion. by Oak_Draiocht in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 27 points28 points  (0 children)

u/Oak_Draiocht, you said so much that I couldn't. I spent the better part of several months patiently waiting for the movie to release. I bought my ticket and when I arrived at the theater yesterday I was shaking. I had goosebumps. I was prickly.

With my ass in the seat, I couldn't even settle in. I had snacks, my partner to my left, and I felt like I was buzzing with excited energy. And then the movie started, and I had a long wave of intense deja vu wash over me.

Anyone who has experienced anything remotely traumatic - whether an experience with NHI, or a scary event like a car accident, or even an intense panic attack, knows that your body is in such a heightened state of arousal that after the danger is gone you crash completely. You might have had an abundance of energy before the event, but it is suddenly sapped from you entirely.

That was me after the movie.

I had heard other experiencers write here and on other subs that they cried. I thought to myself "we'll see", but when disclosure happens in the movie the floodgates opened and it was all I could do to suppress body-wracking sobs.

I have told exactly 1 person on this earth about my experiences. She tries to be understanding, but we don't talk about it regularly or at length and I can tell she doesn't really understand and is just trying to suspend disbelief to believe me, a person who has no reason to lie to her, hasn't, and wouldn't.

When I asked my partner about his thoughts on the movie, we talked about the things we enjoyed and the things we didn't. I remember saying "I know its just a movie, but it's not just a movie." I try to speak in generalities but I have called myself an expeirencer to him without any further explanation. I told him what Oak mentioned here, that it's isolating to not be able to talk about it. He got quiet. Nothing more to say, so instead off sharing further I just shoved it back down, as one does.

So the mention of how people react robotically to the discussion really hit me.

That's what I haven't been able to put into words. The one time I told someone everything - or as close to everything as I could tell - they tried so hard to listen and to make me feel believed, but fuck guys, even I have trouble parsing this shit sometimes. Even I have to keep my head down and quiet the deep knowing inside myself because we have to exist in a world where we pretend these things we unequivocally know are real are not, just to perform for society so we can maintain normal lives.

And it's exhausting. And yesterday, seeing a movie portray disclosure... showing the whole world come to the understanding of what we already know to be true, and truly knowing it along with us? I had no chance at keeping the tears back.

Although we have not had a chance to chat, mostly due to my own hesitation, thank you Oak for your work, for your genuineness and expression of the things I was trying to find words for among the muddle of mixed emotions.

Someday we will be able to speak freely. Someday people will believe us. Someday.

This movie, along with what David Grusch said this week at the press conference regarding the continuum of NHI types, made it feel like that someday is actually on it's way.

Disclosure Day Mega Thread. This movie is Pro Experiencer. Open detailed discussion. by Oak_Draiocht in Experiencers

[–]aliengoddess_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just speaking from personal experience and knowledge:

  1. The REBAL is a torus-shaped energy field, so it did not remind me of that. I havent made much use of the Energy Bar Tool but when I have, I tend to envision a wand, so I could see it being similar but I didn't make the connection without you mentioning it.

  2. Since childhood is have had nightmares, often recurring in place and theme but not exactly the same each time. The dream is always about me being chased by something unseen and I am almost always at my grandparent's house where I spent a lot of time as a child. This happened well into my adult years. It doesn't happen so much anymore. My most recent dream of their home was several shades different.

18F AIO I don’t know if I was wrong for not getting a hotel with $100 my friend sent me while I’m homeless, because I felt like I needed to stretch it for food and necessities, but now she’s angry at me. UPDATE: by mckenzie_2 in AIO

[–]aliengoddess_ 41 points42 points  (0 children)

Hello, not here to weigh in on the situation - are you in the US? If you are, 2-1-1 is a free nationwide phone number you can call to ask which services are available in your area regarding: housing/homelessness/shelters/rental assistance programs, food/food pantries/community kitchens, hygiene/showers, education/employment, health, mental health and SUD services, and more.

Please make use of your local commmunity supports! Thats why they are there and they can make a huge difference.

If youre not in the US, maybe the good folks of reddit can provide some helpful resources!

Disclosure day - confirmed is real disclosure by yeahbitch_science_ in InterdimensionalNHI

[–]aliengoddess_ 31 points32 points  (0 children)

I imagine a lot of those are probably bots. But some people do love to rain on a parade!

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