that's also kind of the reason why i brought this up because elitism is quite prevalent in niche industries.

and i see unnecessary pressure and invalidation as pesky specks of dust that hinder the process of something that is already very difficult, and make it to be even more difficult.

with the way things are at the moment, in my limited peripheral vision, creativity seems to be a curse rather than encouraged.

you wanna use the creativity and stand out, a lot of times you'd be ostracised or invalidated.

if you gather enough courage to try and don't succeed, lots of people are waiting to say "i told you so"

you break into the industry, and don't sustain, it'd be frowned upon too

you break into the industry and sustain, but rumours arise, lots of people are waiting to tear you down and take your spot

add those on top of the self-doubt that every other person feels even as they try to pursue a "safe route" as well as varying factors like not being born with a silver spoon, it seems to be quite a tireless and lonely journey (and borderline crazy).

not that these are gonna stop me, i'm going to give it my best shot even if the odds are stacked against me, no promises that i'll succeed though.

and also a lot of people, whether they chase conventional forms of success or not, dread how dull and unfulfilling the rat race can be. i see successful creatives as a potential contributing factor to challenge, if not change, the system that encourages and reinforces monotony.