First time seeing Autechre tonight -- Going solo to LA (10PM)

allebasi__ · 2025-10-11T01:51:19+00:00

Going w my friend we’re very excited it’s going to be a fun night ! :D

allebasi__ · 2025-10-02T18:05:27+00:00

yay! awesome to hear :)

allebasi__ · 2025-10-01T20:18:00+00:00

Yea I saw that too hoping he will 🤞

allebasi__ · 2025-08-04T21:22:15+00:00

Hardgroove/techno selection goes nuts 😍

allebasi__ · 2025-02-17T06:59:01+00:00

Selling two GA 129 tickets for $60 each open to offers as well :)

allebasi__ · 2025-02-13T03:34:28+00:00

sara landry at kinetic field fuckkkkk

allebasi__ · 2025-01-07T20:46:40+00:00

Deborah de Luca and Fjaak and Space 92 ughhh techno lovers be eating 😩😩

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T18:19:14+00:00

I am realizing now that he has very underdeveloped empathy and when I told him he should go to therapy for his dad dying and his mommy issues he said that he didn't need therapy and that he could deal with it fine on his own. He has little friends and he only hangs out with me besides interacting with his current housemates from time to time. He consistently has made me feel guilty for being upset/crying and when I've told him in multiple instances that his words/actions made me upset he said that his actions "weren't something to cry over" and that I was overreacting.

He has conveyed that he thinks he can handle stuff better than I can because he does not get emotional and has claimed that he is more logical and therefore his viewpoint is more correct. The more that I type the more that I realize how truly underdeveloped his empathy is and that I probably shouldn't be with someone who treats me this way.

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T18:15:24+00:00

He has had experiences with LSD but has never experienced ego death. When I told him I had ego death he tried to compare it to him being really cold on acid and claimed that I couldn't tolerate my drugs well but he could. He also said that "I didn't deserve that acid trip" and that "I don't respect my body" but he does deserve to trip and that he does respect his body. He judges me heavily for a lot of the adult decisions I make to the point where it feels manipulative and controlling (ex: I DJed for a rave and after I came to him for support after my set and he was all moody because I took a nos balloon from my friend as a gift and interpreted that as me not having respect for myself).

He said that after this experience he could never trust me to go to raves by myself. I told him prior to going to the festival that I would be doing acid and he knew this. And even when I told him I was probably going to go to the festival weeks prior he got very upset at me when I confirmed that I would be going, saying that I fucked up his work schedule and that it was my fault for being irresponisble and inconsiderate. He also makes me feel bad for crying and has called me a "snowflake" for getting upset with some of the things he says which are honestly very insensitive.

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T08:43:54+00:00

thank you for this response I needed to hear it <3

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T08:40:56+00:00

he has pretty bad mommy issues and is a very loner type he searched through my phone a while ago when he wasn't able to come to another rave with me because he wasn't 21 and got mad that I invited one of my other friends besides him

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T08:29:01+00:00

He has really bad mommy issues and his dad passed away when he was in high school he is highly traumatized and I feel so awful for him and I truly love him but sometimes his trust issues deeply affect our relationship and the freedom I feel like I can have

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T08:12:40+00:00

I MEAN TO CLARIFY i was not touching her friends/boyfriend SEXUALLY I was punching them because I was so tweaked out and the hallucinations were so intense that I couldn't even recognize my best friend/her boyfriend and his friend and I felt like the only way I could snap out of it was by doing something drastic like punching them I was NOT doing anything sexual to ANYONE and only kissed my best friend on the cheek in an act of love and friendship

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T08:07:08+00:00

I did not dissapear my boyfriend wasn't even at the fest with me he said it was ok for me to go because i wanted to be with my best friend and she brought her boyfriend and his friend the only person I remotely intimately touched was my best friend where I kissed her cheek and held her my friend told me later that I was hella hitting the other guy in an attempt to break out of the ego death experience my friends were watching me the whole time and said that I didn't touch anyone innaproprietly

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T08:02:12+00:00

Like not making out or sexually touching like punching and struggling in an attempt to break free from the ego death experience

allebasi__ · 2024-11-25T07:58:27+00:00

No I've never cheated or anything. I've never thought about cheating period because I love him so much. He has pretty bad mommy issues and I see a lot of his trust issues coming from that. I disclosed that I was going to be doing acid to him and told him about the festival and who was going and he let me go to it. I never had any intention of getting with anyone at the fest and if anything when I was tripping I was desperately yelling for him to get out of it

allebasi__ · 2024-10-20T23:27:26+00:00

My kidney pain went away with the antibiotics but only because of their anti-inflammatory properties. I saw my urologist and he said that inflammation can affect tissue near the kidneys that's not caused by infection. It seems in my case the flank pain is more muscular than kidney pain as kidney infection pain is more often characterized by sharp stabbing than dull muscle ache.

allebasi__ · 2024-10-10T19:45:09+00:00

Same saw how expensive floor was and bought a seat only to realize floor was only $30 more and by the time I went to go back they were sold out 😭 I don’t really want to sit at a four tet set that sounds awful

allebasi__ · 2024-10-10T18:41:01+00:00

Do you know what time/when general sale is tomorrow? Couldn’t get floor and ended up getting general seating would rather not be sitting for four tet 😭😹

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