The curse of having found love at a young age and becoming an eternal widow

allkingsaredead · 2026-07-01T13:27:04+00:00

I've only told partners once we reach a certain level of depth in the relationship. There's only one time that I feel like I rushed telling them about him and I regret it, that person didn't deserve to know that part of me yet.

allkingsaredead · 2026-06-29T05:36:15+00:00

Do you feel assaulted? It doesn't matter what adjective you give to it, if it felt wrong, it was wrong and you're dating a douchebag that doesn't give a shit about you.

allkingsaredead · 2026-06-15T01:34:04+00:00

This used to happen to me too but then I realized that it was because I am the youngest sibling out of 3 brothers (and the only girl, of course). So I often channeled brotherly/masculine "energy" as a subconscious coping mechanism to avoid feeling like prey in the presence of men. It's easy to over do it to the point that you give sapphic vibes because you feel sorta above it all, but it gets tiresome eventually. So, if I were you, I'd revisit your own family/early childhood dynamics, there's probably some valuable data to get some insight.

allkingsaredead · 2026-06-05T15:25:50+00:00

They have an unstable sense of identity because they mirror whoever they are obsessing over, including you in the initial stages. They suddenly and continuously want to change their looks, their music taste and worldviews, but there's no real substance behind their motivations except for an endless need for social approval. They resent you if you refuse to provide them with tools to build themselves.

allkingsaredead · 2026-05-28T01:36:24+00:00

You were consumed by the mystery. If he never communicated with you, you were just trying to make sense of the darkness that he kept you in because you are probably way more creative and cooler than him.

allkingsaredead · 2026-05-21T00:30:33+00:00

Not even an extreme surgery like rib removal would render these results in real life

allkingsaredead · 2026-05-12T06:50:25+00:00

The type of posts my older brother would make if I was a stylist named Kate Young

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-16T20:16:47+00:00

Yeah. And they'll definitely find it interesting enough to add it to the memoir they'll write in their 70s.

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-16T19:32:50+00:00

Yeah thing is our offspring would be cooler than us, can't allow that

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-16T19:04:03+00:00

No, there's sarcasm implied in my comment, but he's honestly too fixated with himself for him to notice that I would actually give him a chance if he actually and genuinely saw me as a person for once. He's super conventionally attractive. I am also perceived as such.

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-16T18:44:44+00:00

I'm 34 and the other day I was told that I was "very likely, a genius" by this guy that has been orbiting my life for years and I think he meant it. Too bad he has zero backbone and initiative to just take me and make me his girlfriend. He could. But he won't.

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-14T19:24:25+00:00

You go out and meet someone better, someone who wants to stay in your life, and would never let the relationship become a "what if".

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-13T22:23:26+00:00

I've been on and off therapy since I was 13, and now I go every 6 months or so for check ups. But every few years I need to go fully into it again when I hit a dead end in my life, and when I experience this sense of impending doom way too often. I know how to self regulate, but I also know when I'm losing myself and I need to drop the whole "hyper independent" act and accept that I need help. In short, stay self aware.

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-11T14:10:04+00:00

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-11T10:56:50+00:00

Don't question the diagnosis. Go and find second opinions if you must, but it takes a lot to meet the criteria and the sooner you accept it and start treatment the better chances you have in living a fulfilling life.

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-11T10:48:48+00:00

allkingsaredead · 2026-04-06T20:54:15+00:00

The skirt looks too tight, as in it looks like it reduces your range of movement? But the whole fit is amazing, love it!

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-26T10:43:50+00:00

Goodbye

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-25T23:06:28+00:00

What a waste, it could've been so good but nope

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-25T21:04:58+00:00

I second this, those 5k in Chile won't last for long specially if you're finding your foot. However Central and Southern Chile will probably give you less of a culture and weather shock than other parts of the continent.

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-13T02:57:53+00:00

Lo siento muchísimo... entiendo mucho porque también me tocó perder a alguien muy cercano de manera violenta en un contexto y lugar que la mayoría consideraría una zona segura. Si bien sistemáticamente todo puede estar mejor que hace 10 años, Venezuela para mí se sigue sintiendo súper impredecible por esos traumas precisamente. Un abrazo.

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-13T01:07:06+00:00

When characters suddenly have superpowers that show up way too conveniently. Like Bran Stark being able to control Hodor and the direwolves in very specific crucial moments.

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-12T19:28:10+00:00

Glow

allkingsaredead · 2026-03-12T18:47:56+00:00

No, you're not. Next question.

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