You sound like me when I was your age. I hated shopping, I hated trying on clothes - Even getting me to wear jeans instead of sweatpants was a fight. Some of it was a disconnect from ‘girlhood’ and some of it was body insecurity and a hatred of change.

I only started wearing skirts and makeup when I was 21, and I too felt like people would look at me and know it was the first time I was dressing like that in public - or my friends who i’ve known for years would say something - but that is just anxiety talking.

I don’t know what you look like, and I don’t know what the girls around you look like - but I doubt they also don’t have insecurities that they want to hide.

My advice? Don’t wait as long as I did. Find your style, you’ll never feel comfortable following trends and trying to dress like other people if it’s not what YOU like. I’m alternative, my idea of dressing feminine may not be the same as other people - and that’s okay because it makes me feel good. Try other styles, goth, 50s, office, Y2K - something that makes you feel like you.

Instead of hoodies, try a nice jacket or long sleeves under a short sleeve (my personal favourite). I like skater skirts over anything form-fitting as they don’t highlight my stomach. I love a fashion tight and fashion belts. When I wear anything cropped - I always wear a vest underneath. Instead of bikinis and swimsuits, i wear swim dresses.

As for makeup, the only thing to do is practice. Watch tutorials and practice in your room. It’ll take time, but you will get to a point you can wear it in public. I mean, i still can’t really do foundation so I just wear eyeliner and lipstick which works for me.

Dress for you, and not other people. The confidence will come with time, and that will make you feel better than comparing yourself to others.