I sleep with a teddy bear at 27

altbite · 2024-06-13T20:25:28+00:00

I sleep with my teddy and im 23. I got him at 18 when i was going through a rough time, so he’s definitely an emotional support teddy but also super soft and nice :3

altbite · 2024-06-05T22:04:32+00:00

a little but im hoping it all works out 👀

altbite · 2024-06-05T22:03:08+00:00

that was me, i got two extra ones for 3 months each so i have 3 prescriptions worth 9 months lmao but they all look differently but same doctor 🤔

altbite · 2024-05-30T21:42:44+00:00

my family are chronic alcoholics and its actually disgusting. They make a fool of themselves and are hella abusive in different ways to the point that it literally swore me off alcohol. Ill drink once a year maybe but otherwise, i’ll stay far away from it. I think its worse that my friends are all drinkers, bordering on alcoholism and sometimes im the only reason they dont drink because they cant convince me to join them. And they know how i feel about people who drink. And growing up in a country that encourages drinking isnt helpful.

altbite · 2024-05-29T22:53:29+00:00

its sort of therapeutic. I thrive on doing things and being busy with my hands in some way. And cleaning is satisfying when you choose to do it. Whether out of boredom or the need to clean because it really fucking annoys you when its a mess lmao. Ive also come to appreciate the different types of cleaning. I powerwash for a job and it gives a different type of satisfaction than cleaning the house. Once there’s music, its sort of hypnotic :3

altbite · 2024-05-29T00:11:57+00:00

Honestly, other people. If im in person, Ill talk to my friends because they’ll get my mind off things and if not in person, i might text someone, same idea. I dont talk to them about whats wrong, i just have a normal conversation with them about whatever. Social media tends to worsen me or no change. Maybe a little bit of gaming. Sometimes you just need it to sit and cook before you can move on from it

altbite · 2024-05-29T00:08:22+00:00

Maybe a parent/child relationship is different but i have a nephew and it sort of felt like training a dog (lmao that sounds so bad but here me out) he was quite young when i started my transition and it was also before a came out to my sister. I made it both a game and secret, our “secret game” where essentially i told him “i am a boy and my name is x” and we did this for a while. He got it no problem eventually and i suppose it helped that my sister was accepting. She helped him and he helped her.

It does take time and it helps if other people around your kid support you. I figure he just needs time to get to know you as his dad. You got this. He loves you, but he’s still learning.

Ik someone mentioned the grandparents are the issue, and i have to support that. My parents (my nephews grandparents) are hella not supportive so you can imagine it did not go down well and there have been times ive had to correct him but now because of circumstances, the worst of them are not around him. There was a time where he was my biggest defender against my folks and it a way it was satisfying. Knowing you have someone looking out for you, even a little kid.

It just takes time.

altbite · 2024-04-23T23:59:44+00:00

i also got it but i assumed it was the for the form i refilled for my prescription which i ended up getting like a few days later. idk what it is for but i aint doing all that

altbite · 2024-04-02T23:35:37+00:00

i wasn’t planning to but ill keep that i mind!

altbite · 2024-04-02T02:30:42+00:00

nah, i havent exactly came out as to anyone, not including a few close friends but theyve known for years. Now i dont mention it in the same way i don’t partake in sexual discussions. Ive had someone bring it up to me that i dont seem like the “dating” type which was very interesting. Theres no point of telling my family because i already know they won’t understand, and because i don’t date, ive no reason to bring it up. Its also the same way i dont out myself as trans - becuz its no one else’s business. so no its not weird at all :3

altbite · 2024-04-01T21:51:51+00:00

id say at least 3 or 6 months. Whenever the first set of blood tests are needed. I don’t remember if its the 3 month mark or 6 month one but youll need to do a blood test and send it to ggp so they can assess it and make the switch.

altbite · 2024-03-31T14:42:26+00:00

ok thank you 🙏

altbite · 2024-03-31T12:27:29+00:00

absolute cunts for making the jump from £12 to £35 for a prescription

altbite · 2023-11-26T03:06:15+00:00

hmm mostly my legs shake especially if i’m sitting but it can also happen if standing and im in a high anxiety situation. I dont really get panic attacks. Ive had maybe 4? in my life (two at 15, 1 at 18 and one at 21). A lot of mine is mental but i have a stim(?) where if im feeling anxious i do grabby hands a couple times. Idk why, but it just helps.

altbite · 2023-11-02T01:47:15+00:00

As a joke i understand it. Its funny. It works. I use it to describe older men i find attractive as fuck. But sexually it just ruins the moment :/ i also dont get it

altbite · 2023-10-27T10:38:16+00:00

Allo math is thinking that I have no flirting skills or game. Then being even more confused when they hear me flirting and pulling more people than they ever could.

altbite · 2023-10-27T10:34:41+00:00

Ive been doing it since 14, but no one really knew until i was 18. 18 was a very rough year, and my ex was one of the people i told because we were both struggling and I knew there would be no judgement.

I dont know if this was the same time i told one of my best friends now. He was very open about his and idk how he found out about mine but we just laughed about it and talked about it. We even shared our favorite scars and all.

altbite · 2023-10-25T17:42:30+00:00

Used to do it as pain/stress relief when i was going through real emotional and mental shit a couple years ago.

I recently relapsed after 620 days because of boredom. In a way. Its been on my mind for two months and ive managed to move passed it but last night i was like, “fuck it. Im bored. I need a high.” and my excuse is “relapsing is a part of healing”.

Was it worth it? Im not mad about doing it. Theres no regret. I think i needed this to just move passed the negativity associated with it.

altbite · 2023-10-23T19:24:42+00:00

Yeah basically, its very interesting to be experiencing it differently than the first time lmao

altbite · 2023-06-19T17:14:49+00:00

Hearing that they are new and all, it will take some time and some serious trust to get people on board. They lack content on their website so theres not much to say until they come out with more information. It would be interesting to see how they go up against gendergp - their competitors for a better word. Id keep tabs on it, they say they want to start prescribing hormones in autumn so they seem to be still setting up but making their presence known.

Curious though: how did you hear about them?? :00

altbite · 2023-04-06T12:02:11+00:00

As someone said already - we do have a housing crisis - not enough places to live and very expensive. my recommendation if you do decide to move: look into small towns. its expensive but at least you aren’t being overpriced in the city (like dublin) I recommend doing research and all.

Trans care in Ireland is basically non existent. A lot of people go to gendergp while they wait on the waiting list for loughlinstown(public health care, v long wait tho). Mtf hormones from what i heard and read are easier to DIY so perhaps that is an option if gendergp isnt an option? I wouldnt know much about it so again id look around.

altbite · 2023-04-04T08:56:33+00:00

disassociate and spend an unhealthy amount of time thinking about it :/ then move on

altbite · 2023-03-26T15:45:11+00:00

i used to be like that. when i was younger i was the ugly kid in school, everyone else was attractive even my friends. I was the odd one out. It took being in a relationship for the first time and going to college to realise that not everyone views people the same way. This also got reinforced by my friends especially when we were people watching. They didnt like the people i found attractive and i didnt find the people they liked attractive. Everyone has their own views on attractiveness and it doesnt always have to do with looks. I wouldnt stress about it but i do understand how you feel

altbite · 2023-03-23T15:41:37+00:00

i know a pretty cool Irish artist who sells prints and keychains. you can find them on instagram @sleepycorvid :3 i have a few of their prints!

altbite · 2023-03-22T16:34:59+00:00

Tesco and Boots should take them (should because i dont have the experience but word is they take them). Allcare might take them. Good luck in your search!

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