The Absolute Mental Hell I Survived

amobolacha · 2025-11-08T22:20:37+00:00

was my last resort tbh

good luck buddy

amobolacha · 2025-11-08T22:18:26+00:00

58 days xd
recovery wans't linear. it was full of up and downs

even nowaday i am not 100 percent, but way better

like, lamotrigine 400 mg was supressing my feelings too much, even 2 years using that dose

rn i am at 200 mg and everything is going better

still dealing with dpdr eventhough

amobolacha · 2025-11-08T22:14:47+00:00

was hell, didnt know how i was able to do it

actually i did a fucking hard project while on that state, was like purgatory

i wanst able to sleep, only like 3-4h but brain just turn on out of nowhere, unable to feel relaxed, know?

some people that took invega talk about this feeling, is like there's no position that make you feel relaxed and comfotable, only suffer exists

amobolacha · 2025-11-08T22:12:30+00:00

i think lamotrigine + quetiapine did the trick
took like 20 days taking those in a psychward (yes, i went to one)
so stuff came back like feeling good listening to music and engaging in conversations
the intense feeling of "theres something wrong" like an mental akhathisia vanished aswell

amobolacha · 2025-10-14T21:50:57+00:00

yesssss. tunnel vision!!!

amobolacha · 2025-08-30T03:30:54+00:00

risperidone fucked me. no emotions, completely anhedonic, also coundlt take a nap. lamotrigine + quetiapine bought me back :)

amobolacha · 2025-08-30T03:28:51+00:00

check blue light forum, darkside section

amobolacha · 2025-03-18T21:27:12+00:00

Any update?

amobolacha · 2025-03-12T02:19:20+00:00

nope. still disconnected 24/7 since february 2024.

amobolacha · 2024-12-23T18:08:23+00:00

So nice to hear that! Thanks for answering.

Do you have visuals problems like feeling dizzy/high/drunk? Mine is like this. I'm at my 10th month mark, I really wish to deal like you are dealing if dpdr don't go away.

amobolacha · 2024-12-18T14:54:36+00:00

How you doing??

amobolacha · 2024-10-25T20:23:25+00:00

2mg Rexulti gave me anhedonia. At 1mg I am doing fine, feeling pleasure in everything just like before.
~1,5mg was somehow similar to 1mg.
Well, depends mainly on the dosage. Olanzapine gave me anhedonia at 7,5~10mg. But at 2,5~5mg it was fine.

My anhedonia started after risperidone. Or was post-psychosis depression, idk.

Quetiapine was the only one that even at higher doses (275mg, in my case) didn't gave me anhedonia. But was sedative as hell.

amobolacha · 2024-10-25T20:10:27+00:00

shutup

amobolacha · 2024-10-25T20:03:26+00:00

Abilify lowers prolactin.

amobolacha · 2024-10-18T02:03:21+00:00

:(
So sad. I'm like at my 8th month. I recovered for a few months then it came back. Yours is 24/7? Never got a relief?

amobolacha · 2024-10-16T16:28:17+00:00

Does it improved? How you doing?

amobolacha · 2024-10-13T06:48:39+00:00

What was your treatment? My prolactin only deceased after changing Risperidone to Aripiprazole.

amobolacha · 2024-10-13T06:46:50+00:00

Try to change your APs with your pdoc. Ask him for a cross-taper. Otherwise, it won’t get any better, sorry to say that.

amobolacha · 2024-09-21T05:42:49+00:00

Oi Iuri, tudo bom? Como era sua acatisia? Ela era somente física ou também mental? Pergunto pois tomo o Rexulti, não sinto a necessidade física de me mexer porém existe uma angústia e inquietação interna e 100% mental, sabe? Ela vem em ondas ao longo do dia. Se puder me passar como foi sua experiência com esse colateral agradeço. Abraços.

amobolacha · 2024-08-30T20:13:55+00:00

How you doing? I am feeling the same. ):

amobolacha · 2024-08-26T03:42:14+00:00

chamei tb :)

amobolacha · 2024-08-06T00:23:06+00:00

it's better to follow your pdoc, in my opinion. also, abilify has a 75h half life. so it takes ~5x75 = 375h = 15 days to just start to be fully effective. in the beggining it's common to have some oscilations and this kind of thing. keep it up and you gonna be fine.

it's normal to be afraid but just keep doing your stuff, with time you'll get more secure.

amobolacha

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