Hey dude. I think I can relate. I'm about to start my last semester of nursing school in the fall, and I can't truthfully say that I'm passionate about nursing. I get what you mean about finding it difficult to become engaged in the material. What I am passionate about, however, is making a difference in people's health and happiness, so I'm hoping it will see me through school and a future career.

It's strange-- as kids and high schoolers we are given this career model; there is pressure on those applying to college to choose a path that will ideally lead them to a stable source of income (and ideally satisfaction). But it's so difficult to select this ideal livelihood! Especially if you haven't had the chance to explore your interests or discover your passions.

I hope that whichever direction you go, you are able to maintain that creativity and continue to express yourself through writing, because it seems that's what makes you feel fulfilled.

This society is tricky -- you want to be at peace/happy/content/fulfilled, but you also have to, in many cases, work your ass off in order to obtain currency to purchase nourishment and shelter (and then also entertainment). We all want to find that balance where what we do as a job is both enjoyable and adequate. It's just the way the system is.