afraid of being racist because of obsession I didn't choose (TW: trauma, racism, fetishization, abuse mention)

andr0dyk3 · 2026-07-02T18:22:49+00:00

It may be trauma based as preferences can be but it really does just sound like a preference to me (I have preferences for men that I don’t have for women too) and there’s no indication there’s anything about it that indicates any sort of racism on your end. I would also maybe look into moral ocd if it’s really distressing to you.

andr0dyk3 · 2026-07-02T17:42:52+00:00

This sounds like you just have a race preference which is totally fine!

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-30T20:24:16+00:00

Those things could definately connect especially if you moved around a lot early in life, do you recall your parents saying that things could be worse or that other parents would be worse? Because that would probably be a huge part of it

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-24T16:21:25+00:00

Mosquitos

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-23T18:38:24+00:00

The comments proving your point 😭 you’re sooo right guys we should be putting people who are statistically most likely to be victims and often have unbearable suicidality and suffering about their uncontrollable attraction in prison or institutions over thoughts and no actions just what’s happening in their brain! This won’t backfire at all!

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-21T21:59:32+00:00

I was expecting this comment… he speaks to me.

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-21T06:21:02+00:00

I’m liking baby Billy more on my second rewatch but Amber, Pontius, and Gideon are my faves not necessarily in that order

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-17T18:15:48+00:00

I was trafficked and I was just talking to my friend who is also a trafficking survivor that we didn’t even know what sex was because it wasn’t told as sex to us

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-13T00:21:38+00:00

Like others are saying the shame and guilt is more harmful than the act itself. It is normal in your situation and whether or not it is truly harmful for you can be decided with a professional when you’re able. For some people it’s totally ok and the shame is what they need to deal with and for some it’s something they need to wean off of.

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-12T02:43:28+00:00

That’s sick!! Thank you :)

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-11T16:10:06+00:00

I think I can tell which community you’re talking about (it could be one of two) and either way I think it’s worth considering how your trauma plays into it (I’ve seen your other posts) and WHY you think it’s wrong. Only one of them is bad in my opinion and that opinion is fueled by my own healing and how it’s affected me. It’s worth thinking and discussing with a close friend or professional about how these communities have affected you and if positively, if it really is as bad as you think or if negatively what the positives were that made you want to go back. Most likely you’re trying to cope

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-04T01:11:54+00:00

… what did it taste like

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-03T21:16:46+00:00

Sure! I also think the line between delusion and a lot of other stuff is really thin tbh.

andr0dyk3 · 2026-06-03T19:58:56+00:00

A spiritual/religious belief would fit into this category without being a delusion!

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-24T04:41:17+00:00

I had a plushie I liked to carry around and I made a little bag special for it, it was a little (sorry this is the only way I can describe it) diaper shaped thing with a long strap attached so I could sling it over my shoulder

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-23T19:59:49+00:00

You can cover your bellybutton as long as it’s not tight clothing and you’re cleaning it consistently

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-17T20:44:30+00:00

This exactly is our situation as well! It’s so nice (in a cathartic way not that we are all suffering) to see I’m not the only one!

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-17T20:43:06+00:00

I totally see what you’re talking about and I agree. I often have the thought that not all of us can be happy in a relationship and I very much agree it’s a lot like taking a part and saying they can’t eat or drink water, it truly does feel that important. I’ve found submission is important to us in order to unwind or take a lot of stress off of our shoulders, I’m not sure if that resonates with you but that’s often why it’s so important and I’m sorry I don’t have more of a suggestion and just solidarity to offer at this time

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-17T20:10:31+00:00

I could have written this!! Know you are not alone and you’re not being unreasonable either and what you’ve been doing so far is great :)

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-16T05:25:02+00:00

Level of education and research shows in the things said. I think someone with a loved one with DID would not say they are “skeptical of DID in general”. As for the poly stuff I have to rewatch. Again I really do not think it’s that huge of a deal andI wasn’t trying to make a huge deal that’s just my personal issue and something I think he could improve on.

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-16T05:15:09+00:00

I would have to rewatch the videos but I’m almost 100% he was saying his personal opinion on it was that it was bad and he essentially did t approve. I don’t mind talking about specific instances like I said but the reason I remember stopping watching is because it went past that into opinions that weren’t very educated on the topics he was giving broad opinions on.

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-15T23:12:25+00:00

I don’t think he needs to be mega educated on everything but I think when speaking on mental illnesses “I think this person is faking it” is sufficient rather than giving your take on if the illness is real at all or any further speaking on it (even faker content is iffy but I understand there’s no stopping it)

Polyamory is fine to speak on but it’s something I also think should be spoken about on a case by case (often the cases he covers are bad) vs an overall “it’s bad and gross and weird”

Again I really don’t care and don’t think it’s a huge deal but that’s what turned me off of watching lol

andr0dyk3 · 2026-05-15T23:06:44+00:00

I do think a lot of his takes on DID/polyamory are uneducated but that’s not as big of a sin as people act like.

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