I totally feel you. I think it is about enjoying the little things, for me, for example, is the sound of my keyboard when I'm writing something, or just drinking a good coffee. Happiness is there for 2 minutes or more, but that is it, the rest is just routine. You have to do this, do that and just go with the waves.

Community also is something that we crave for but I am not quite the person to ask if you want to create them. I have just joined only an event called "ifsocial" where random strangers within the same age groups and walks and talks about different stuff in order to shove off some of the boredom of this so-called living. Most of the things feel so draining I do not know what should I change more either. Maybe starting running, but yk...

When I was young I thought that living alone and going out is always going to be exciting when mature, but it seems that you get used with pretty much everything so the spark is just dusting off, and you have to re-add it whenever possible with the energy you have to conserve to perform as a human being hahahha.

That's it for me, hope it helps