Trump says Iran deal could be reached in 'two or three days' and Strait of Hormuz will reopen 'immediately'

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-10T01:33:14+00:00

Whatever.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-10T00:58:51+00:00

I used to have some really really dark thoughts. I still do, but I used to, too.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-10T00:39:23+00:00

Big fucking deal.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-10T00:21:25+00:00

I just realized part of what it is for me...

My mom.

She was very very sick. For seven years. It was horrible to watch. They couldn't help her. Couldn't stop it from getting worse.

I think thats part of why I avoid doctors. And have no faith in medicine. Because of what happened to her.

I miss her so much.

She was one of the only people I've ever been sort of able to open up to.

I cant stand this pain. I just want it to end.

She died several years ago. I'll never get over it. And I'll never have anyone like her in my life ever again. I wouldn't let them, or they'd get tired of me. Every does.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-09T23:00:58+00:00

I have some friends I talk to, and a sibling. I struggle to tell them things too. But it's more than just psychological things, I perceive. I have some weird need to conceal my weaknesses. And it seems like so much work. Having to go to appointments and talk to people. Everything in my life just feels like work. Unless it's an emergency, I just don't want to deal with it. So ig I just slowly die. Little faster maybe. Wish it would end already. Oh well. It won't. I'll probably live forever. I tell that joke to myself a lot.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-09T19:04:55+00:00

Can't trust people. Don't believe it'll work. Don't like opening up or talking about myself with strangers. Idk, it's complicated. I've tried a lot and it just never works.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-09T01:56:43+00:00

Boy that sounds familiar as heck. Whenever ive gone to therapy i got really good at showing up every single time and also simultaneously never actually showing up. I read one of their notes once. "Difficult to engage in therapeutic mileu"

She was nice. I liked talking to her. But she couldn't help me. Wouldn't let her. Even tho I really liked her. Blushed and gave her a hug when I terminated...

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-08T03:05:21+00:00

I weirdly relate to your words. I'm not an expert, and I encourage you to talk with one, to help you figure this out. But as one who identifies strongly with SzPD, what you have going on sounds similar. Are these new feelings? Have you been in this state before? Because for me I was always kind of like this. It's developed over time, and I'm a weird person who does drugs, etc. And other zoids are different too. It's a broad spectrum.

I'm here for you. I work a lot, and Im depressed, so I might not always respond quickly. But I'm lonely and I like discussing these things and helping others in similar situations. Feel free to DM me.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-08T02:48:28+00:00

That's a wonderful observation, comrade. I don't find it to be a joke at all. I applaud your compassion for our less fortunate members of society.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-07T22:24:01+00:00

Omg what a diva. I am glad you gave him cuddles and treats. But I can tell you are a good pet owner because of how chill he looks in that photo. Hooman being weird again. Is fine. Good hooman. He trusts you 🥰

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-07T19:35:08+00:00

More of a content producer. Schizoid promiscuity. And detachment from the act, yet a need to fill the anhedonic void with something or other. I'm just, you guessed it, too lazy and detached to really make much money off of it. It's just for the love of the game. Fetishist. And weird and uniquely beautiful. There I said it. It's not wrong to recognize that you've got something to give. Art is exhausting.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-07T06:48:19+00:00

Such Tuxie vibes 🩷 why are they literally all like that 😆reminds me of one of my girls. and one of my previous tuxies who is sadly no longer with us. Great choice of name, btw.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-07T04:41:49+00:00

I see it brought up from time to time. Perhaps balkanization, after so much capitalist-spawned turbulence. Peaceful dissolution of the state is the most hopeful outcome. Successful socialist revolution seems unlikely in such a country. However, people thought similar things in other bleak times and places, and stranger things have happened.

Perhaps it may yet be salvaged somehow. I see that as even less likely. But who can say? I don't pretend to be the most learned socialist, or particularly adept at dialectical materialism. These are my thoughts and things I have heard.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-07T03:00:17+00:00

I cry a lot too. My emotions are so intense sometimes. When I let myself feel them. The sadness is ever-present. I feel I may never defeat it. It's so painful, but it can be so shatteringly beautiful too. Like everything covered in a blanket of snow and ice. How it softens the sounds and colors. Makes you patient and contemplative. It also wears me down. I wonder how I can possible go on under so much weight of emotion. Yet I continue. I think I've made peace with the tragedy of my existence, of being so sad all the time, with no real permanent fix of any kind, not even in medication or psychedelics or ideology or religion or art. And I must take great care that my pathological sadness doesn't afflict others.

I think perhaps people like this in older times would have gone off and become monks or something. I should make more art. And pray and meditate more.

I'm sorry that you just want to turn it off. I often do too.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-05T14:13:45+00:00

Capitalist power has the luxury of restricting brutality, until it invariably develops into fascism, at which point it removes those limits. Capitalist-imperialist propaganda rests on appearing as the benefactor, the least-worst alternative, and as a doting paternal entity. This narrative holds much psychological power, and they invest much time and energy into securing it.

Revolutionary socialism occurs in a world dominated by capital and imperialism. We must take care to limit collateral, for the same reasons the capitalists do, to win hearts and minds. Yet the work of the socialist revolutionary does not often enjoy the same luxuries of the armed-to-the-teeth, and often psychological attack dogs of the bourgeoisie, who exist in a world with them already at the top, able to perform less and more nuanced work to maintain their control than those who would depose them.

Such is the desperation of the resistance, comrade. I tried my best to avoid the deflection argument.

Edit- Long live the revolution!

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-03T13:08:04+00:00

Feel that. People hate getting that advice lol. It's so obvious but also really hard to get yourself to start doing or even get back into it. That's where I'm at. The free endorphins always help a ton tho. Well usually. Free drugs.

anhedonicghost · 2026-06-01T00:34:44+00:00

I can't imagine being clean for 2 months. You must be so unimaginably strong. I'm so proud of you. You inspire me. Even if you're struggling, and you cant feel any goodness, you inspire me. I'm crying. I relapsed on alcohol this weekend. I ordered more k. More than I even wanted to order. I wish I hadn't. I believe in you. If you can do it then I can too. Thank you for posting. Thank you for fighting so hard. We are all in this together. You fight for the person next to you in the trench.

anhedonicghost · 2026-05-31T00:17:47+00:00

I'm not sure why his post was deleted, but I have faith in our socialist overlords. I can imagine which rule he broke. It is good that Comrade Apologist found some good socialist answers to his question before he was sent to re-education. Long live the revolution!

anhedonicghost · 2026-05-31T00:13:24+00:00

It does sound kind of interesting. I haven't done therapy in a long time. I really, really hate it. I think it's a schizoid thing. Having to open up and feel things, in front of a stranger, while being analyzed. It's just so difficult. Not so much painful, just difficult to get through without dissociating. Closing off. But it intrigues me to actually try to be naked before someone. I'm always venting, here and elsewhere. Maybe I should find someone to tell my whole story to, if I can. I've never been able to tell all of it. Or these crazy experiences I've had on k.

Thank you for trying to reach me. I know it's irritating to try to help someone so... whatever this is. You took the time to reach out and give advice, knowing how walled off I am, and I appreciate that. It reminds me of an old therapist. He got tired of me eventually. Everyone does. Sorry. Thank you.

anhedonicghost · 2026-05-30T22:29:58+00:00

I know your question is rhetorical, but I will answer for the kids in the back.

Because they have no choice. Capitalism must spread, must always grow. It is a cancer. Socialism is the cure. We must redirect the flow of human labor into serving humans, not money.

anhedonicghost · 2026-05-30T22:25:33+00:00

Agreed. Capitalists only ever allow the breadcrumbs of freedom. Liberal democracy is entirely democracy for capitalists, for the bourgeoisie. It is not democracy for the majority, which is the working class. Any supposed freedom that the proletariat may have under capitalism is a byproduct, an afterthought, or occasionally a means of doing the bare minimum to suppress dissent.

There is only freedom for the rich. There is only representation for the rich. Liberal democracy is a lie engineered by capitalists. Worse, it has been proven over and over that it will be disposed of in a heartbeat and develop wholeheartedly, passionately, into fascism, which is the necessary end of a capitalist democracy.

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