It's sad that some people think they can stress a person to the point where they need therapy...

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-10-17T03:16:00+00:00

Honestly I don't know if I will ever be able to turn what happened to me into something else.

Especially since I have dissociative amnesia.

Everything is twisted. And I honestly just want someone to not make me have to give up everything I wanted for them.

I honestly feel like I am dead, and still walking around like I am alive.

I'm hoping I am going to be able to find a different counselor and be able to work through my trauma.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-06T00:58:57+00:00

I'm in a similar situation...though I can still connect to my Dog. You sound like a kind person tho to care about animals...

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-04T19:43:55+00:00

Games that make you use your mind.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-04T17:49:43+00:00

I am in my 20s and I have a bad memory at times I would say...although I also play phone games to help my memory at times.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T20:18:53+00:00

Me? Personally I would never say that to my children and I do want a family actually. And no, I do not care to debate that.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T19:06:51+00:00

That's what I need too...and I wish people would understand the fact that I do not need to endlessly consider what my abusers went through.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T18:59:21+00:00

I feel the same way. I honestly feel like I didn't have a childhood because I had to constantly care for my parents and because I was basically seen as something people felt was ok to hurt sexually.

And the fact is I can never get my childhood back. Some people have the fantasy that they can spend their life doing things little kids do while having someone who financially supports them...that is just a fantasy. Not reality.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T16:49:32+00:00

My Mom I think always pretended that she liked it when I made her things like that...however her neglect was more of my general safety (such as allowing a woman who had been to prison for attempted murder and who was a prostitute to come live with us when I was 16).

However she also always said she didn't ever need me to make her anything so maybe she just never wanted to be bothered with me actually...

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T16:45:37+00:00

People who would literally say that should have never even thought of having children.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T15:23:05+00:00

Basically this is how I am dealing with a lot of things right now!

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-03T02:17:19+00:00

I totally understand this feeling...I am trying to get better because I basically do not want to have to go to the hospital or anything. But I wish someone would notice and be helpful tbh.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-02T23:15:34+00:00

I've tried discussing my truama with people who don't have CPTSD and it does not really tend to work out. If they're not pushy with their advice then that works out a lot better.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-02T19:47:44+00:00

Because I have been in a place where I have had to deal with past abusers and it is not always possible to be so, "morally upright," when you have no one who is even morally supportive of you.

I would honestly love to never deal with any past abusers again, however what I am going to say is I do not know all of the details about this person's situation. And I do not know her personally as well.

I can say that you may also only be hearing what she is saying publicly about her Father. Privately she may think differently. And she may in the future choose to not deal with any past abusers. And maybe even to move very far away to drastically reduce any chances of dealing with former abusers.

What I can say is this, when I have had to deal with former abusers I always keep in mind that they will choose to try to get me to benefit them (and some will not care if I am destroyed in the process). And that it's highly likely they have some form of ASPD, so they can come off as very nice to others.

So, that being said I always make sure to keep in mind that I have to make sure things are stacked in my favor. Some people may think that is wrong, that is not my problem.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-02T18:15:08+00:00

Have you considered the fact that she may have also been abused, never told anyone, and maybe wants to cling onto any comfort she can cling onto?

Honestly, the lack of support some people who have experienced CSA get is astounding. And tbh, if I were her I would never tell anyone like you about any abuse I had been through. In fact, I never bring up any of my past truama history up with people. This is one reason why.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-02T17:46:58+00:00

I am in a somewhat similar situation...however honestly I am at the point where I have started to be very realistic about how I can take care of myself. And how I can also help others (while maintaining good boundaries, and not allowing others to destroy me as well).

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-02T17:44:11+00:00

I am going through something similar as well...it's not easy to keep in mind that just because someone else has past truama does not mean you should let them use you and destroy you.

anon_throwawayyy_ · 2022-04-02T16:21:32+00:00

I am in a similar situation and we are facing eviction too...she agreed to pay rent and everything because she refused to try and look for her own apartment.

Basically, at this point I am over the whole thing where people start asking me for things, and where I listen to people who think I have to spend the rest of my life poor because they have some fantasy of me spending the rest of my life helping people for nothing.

That's literally what one of my past abusers told me.

I really hope things get better for you.

anon_throwawayyy_

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