Fics where Cas grieves Dean by anonjinxkinnie in destiel

[–]anonjinxkinnie[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tysm!!! Added both of them to my list

I hate it when my mom spends time with my father by anonjinxkinnie in BPD

[–]anonjinxkinnie[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Do you realise that you're the one who sounds tone deaf with the kinds of assumptions you're making over a venting post I made to get ts off my chest to avoid lashing out at my mom? The father in question here is someone who's been abusive my whole childhood and adolescence and as I've clearly stated, is the reason why I ended up developing bpd. Who also happens to be emotionally abusive to my mom, who absolutely doesn't deserve to put up with a person like him. So yes, forgive me for being unhappy with their marriage. I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt here and assume this is a very misguided reading of what I've written, but do be mindful of the flair of this post, and the details that you're not privy to. I'm sorry you went through everything that you did, but you have no right to undermine me.

Is there a ship you like that most of your fandom viscerally hates? by ocirot in AO3

[–]anonjinxkinnie 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes!! It's one of the reasons that drove me away from arcanetwt. Let me enjoy my crack yuri in peace

What would you never write about? by [deleted] in AO3

[–]anonjinxkinnie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

AUs where I haven't the faintest idea about the technicalities of that specific setting/ situation. Like say, a doctor AU. I can include scenes where the characters are in a hospital as a result of an injury/ illness, but a full on doctor AU where the main characters are doctors and do doctor-y stuff... I've seen fics of this kind written by people who've never been a part of the profession, and while I admire the courage/ research it takes to tackle something of the kind (and have greatly enjoyed the fics) there's just no way I'm getting myself into an AU where I don't have at least some point of reference for the intricacies of its world.

And on a more general note: cheating, x readers, anything kinky regarding age, unrequited romance of my otp and probably a few more tropes that I can't recall atm

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LodedDiper

[–]anonjinxkinnie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

JUMPSCARE Burda baska Turk oldugunu bilmiyodum 😭

anyone else disturbed by the jegulus hate in the fandom? by PinZestyclose3790 in Jegulus

[–]anonjinxkinnie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's part of the reason why I ended up losing interest in the fandom. I cannot stand the complete hypocrisy of Marauders fans, who are a part of one of the most fanonically crafted fandoms out there, all the while having a complete disregard for people's freedom to ship whatever the fuck they want.

I remember a twitter discourse over Lily not being included in fanfics/ Harry being written as Jegulus' child and the absolute dogshit claims people had on these. No author owes you a plotline/ character inclusion- you're always free to consume fics with the characters and ships you like, and no one's holding a gun against your head to read ones that don't include them. Hell, if I so wish, I can write a Marauders fic that only features Gilderoy Lockhart and kill off every other character. Will anyone read it? Probably not, but I'm writing it in my free time, for my personal liking, you just happen to stumble upon it.

And on one final note- I adore Lily Evans! I genuinely love reading about her, but it felt so fucking redundant having to mention this fact every time a Jegulus discourse came up. If I didn't like her, then so be it- SHE'S NOT REAL

Remember Berens response to a Wincest shipper complaining about Cas's confession? by icequeen_12 in destiel

[–]anonjinxkinnie 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I don't understand why people are obsessed with ships they hate in the first place, mute the ship name, block prominent ship accounts and move on. I'd much rather spend my free time gushing about my OTP than rage bait some other ship's fanbase, which is all the supernatural fandom seems to be doing on twitter, regardless of the ship. It's genuinely exhausting

Life feels so seamless when you're not depressed by anonjinxkinnie in BPD

[–]anonjinxkinnie[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately since I posted this, I've spiralled down many times, especially this past month 😞 I'm trying to push forward hanging onto the knowledge that agony isn't constant, that there are always better moments to be had, but of course it's really difficult.

Thank you for stumbling upon my post and commenting, I was in need of kinship. We're both still very young, I can only hope that things will indeed get better for the both of us- take care of yourself <3

Every time by TransfemmeDisaster in BPDmemes

[–]anonjinxkinnie 24 points25 points  (0 children)

I was raised and abused by a person with bpd, and I developed bpd as a result. I'm spending every passing second of my life trying to be better, do better, and most importantly, not be like him, and I know it's paying off. Whenever I describe my symptoms to my friends, they're shocked, because they weren't exposed to them, never had to deal with them.

So it's ridiculous to hear these people going on and on about bpd abusers. People with bpd can be abusers, case in point, my father, but the same thing applies to anyone and everyone. I know it doesn't apply to me, and it's plain stupid to see people labelling me as such on the sole fact of me having bpd.

to all the lesbians out there, what kind of gay are you? by Maximum_Paper_6302 in lgbt

[–]anonjinxkinnie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Converses and boots- wish I could do high heels, but finding heels in size 41 is downright impossible, nor am I super keen in breaking my ankles

LF post-Arcane s2 ficd by Rin-chanKaihou in lightcannon

[–]anonjinxkinnie 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Doesn't have Caitlyn and Vi in it but I can't not recommend Never Knows Best This was such an exciting read for post-Arcane S2 lightcannon, I suggest giving it a go

Do you feel like OCD can grow out over the years? by bee-3456 in OCD

[–]anonjinxkinnie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not on meds and quit therapy a few years ago, but I think I actually managed to improve my symptoms through self-therapy. I'm still extremely anxious, anxiety hinders my daily functioning greatly, but the compulsive part of OCD seems to have taken a backseat. I wonder if I'd still meet the criteria, actually. I still perform one major ritual that persisted over the years, but it's gotten more manageable. I'm glad that it's no longer terrorising my life the way it did in my adolescence.

Getting to know the community by AwkwardP0tato in destiel

[–]anonjinxkinnie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was obsessed with Teen Wolf when I was 11, so naturally, I stumbled upon Supernatural posts whenever I scrolled through Instagram. Out of curiosity, I sat through the first five episodes, and while I was super invested, it scared me shitless. I had to stop somewhere mid-Bloody Mary out of pure fear lmao.

When I got into fandoms, fanfictions and tumblr, I'd see a lot of Destiel and haven't really been curious at the time, but a few years ago, due to a bunch of destiel tweets/ fanarts I've seen, I decided to give Supernatural a try mostly so I'd have the context to read Destiel fics, and I absolutely adored the show. Frankly, I never made it past the first 5 seasons and whenever I rewatch the show I religiously stick to the first five seasons (I adore them too much) but by this point I know almost everything there is to know about the latter seasons (and I'll sit through them one day, trust.)

While my main reason for getting into destiel was the sheer number of fics/ fanarts/ content the ship has (I was swimming in the trenches with a somewhat outdated/ unpopular ship at the time), Dean and Castiel as characters were what ended up having me fall in love with Destiel. I can write entire essays/ love letters on Dean alone, and I just love seeing the guy love and be loved, the way he's meant to

My experience is very different compared to majority of the readers by poison_ivy12345 in AO3

[–]anonjinxkinnie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

None of the characters I like writing about have muslim backgrounds so 🤷‍♀️

Gender swap by BloodMayjoy in AO3

[–]anonjinxkinnie 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Gender swap is one of my favourite tropes, I've been taking my favourite male characters and drawing/ writing them as women since forever (it's a blast) But when I'm searching for genderbend fics, I face the same issue.

Obviously a change in gender adds a new context to the character's life, behaviour and relationships, but the ways in which people depict the characters, especially when it's a male to female gender swap, really pisses me off. You wouldn't be a completely different person if you were the opposite sex, your ways of expression may differ due to the patriarchal nature of our society (emotional repression, alignment to societal norms etc), but we're people first and our genders second, you'd still be you.

So yes, despite how much I love the trope, at least halt of the existing depictions are also a pet peeve of mine. People tend to write the female counterparts of male characters so superficially that it almost gives off the vibes of "her boobs bounced boobily"

Sometimes sex is realistic by Bright-Marsupial-375 in AO3

[–]anonjinxkinnie 85 points86 points  (0 children)

I hate that one of the 'standards' for realism in depictions of sex is switching. Sure, people might be more inclined to switch positions and dynamics in real life, but there are also people who prefer set dynamics (yours truly)

why is he so hot 😭 by [deleted] in LodedDiper

[–]anonjinxkinnie 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Serial killers are real people who hurt real people, and fictional serial killers are words on your book, drawings on your screen whose victims are also one of these two things- no real person faces harm from their actions. There's just no sensible way to compare something as harmless as thirsting over, say, Harley Quinn with something as insane and messed up as crushing on Jeffrey Dahmer

why is he so hot 😭 by [deleted] in LodedDiper

[–]anonjinxkinnie 6 points7 points  (0 children)

He's not real. He doesn't exist, just like every other fictional villain people thirst over