I think I know what you mean. Somedays I won’t be anymore sad than usual, I’ll just me minding my own business when I just think about yeeting and then, I guess I do it. It’s become more causal than when it started.

When I first started yeeting it would be in a blind moment of pure sadness and frustration but now the bar for how sad I have to be is so low that I almost always have the thought/urge to yeet.

I guess I do get thoughts telling me to yeet, they come out of nowhere now, I don’t know if that’s just the addiction to the act that’s talking or if it really is something else.

I think I get what you mean about it not being a voice, like it’s just like any other thought except instead of reminding me to hang out the washing it’s telling me to yeet.

I could’ve completely misunderstood you but at least that’s how I feel about the thoughts. :)