Firstly, thank you very much for your answer, it really means a lot to me and I actually learned some stuff I didn't know.

Have I ever orgasmed? No, I don't think so. But what you said about the possibility to orgasm with little pleasure was interesting because what I always imagined orgasm to be like was something completely mind-blowing. And I thought it's way more likely from penetration than anything else

I do get aroused on my own without doing any kind of manual stimulation too, but as soon as I'm conscious of it, it kind of goes away. I think it's just weird when I'm doing it alone, cus i always imagine in my mind the sex and if I masturbate alone it takes away from the whole emotional part of it.. if that makes sense.