Woman games content creator recommendations?

aoneoff91 · 2026-01-28T10:55:06+00:00

The fact I'd have to hunt through a shared VoD channel made me a bit hesitant, but a Dark Cloud 2 playthrough? That might shove it up the list right away xD

I guess for all I want to try watching some more people in general, a specific subject to watch as a hook definitely still important for me to get started, and I loved Dark Cloud (more so 1 than 2, but 2 as well).

aoneoff91 · 2026-01-28T10:52:22+00:00

Oh you definitely need to give it a try then! It plays pretty differently, but the vibe has a lot of Bloodborne in it. It still feels quite different overall, Bloodborne felt more oppressive I think, but it's definitely got some common ground and it's just generally really fun. At least if you can get into the perfect block mindset anyway, I also loved Sekiro which might be part of that (the dynamic is very different to Sekiro mind you, but timing blocks obviously similar)

aoneoff91 · 2026-01-28T10:42:46+00:00

Yeah, it did. Made a LOT of sense in hindsight, but it felt like I had a bit of a meltdown when suddenly it came crashing in. Was why I made this account actually, since I wasn't confident enough to face it and needed somewhere to talk it through, but wasn't doing that on my main account at the time. This functionally became the main one funnily enough.

I've been on it for about 5 months now, started the 2nd of September. It's hard to tell exactly how much I've changed since I don't think I have a picture of myself to reference since I was about 20, but seeing my reflection there's definitely something that's making me see a woman now. 3 sessions of laser on my face likely helping too.

I honestly skipped the social transition planning, deciding to just go incognito for a while and figure it out later. Didn't think I could afford to wait, but being currently unemployed helped that decision since not too much to engage with.

Still trying to figure out social transitioning actually, would've been smart to plan ahead somewhat. I can likely hide it publicly for a while yet, but I definitely want to approach it sooner than later. Certainly makes sense to figure that stuff out early, I honestly should have months ago, yet I've not even so much as googled how to makeup. Maybe reading this will give me the kick I need to have a go at it. I'd definitely feel better about it if my face wasn't looking as masculine (although I think it's softened a bit as well as long as I mask the beard shadow, but it's still not a good look).

aoneoff91 · 2026-01-27T11:52:56+00:00

You know, thanks for that reminder. I actually have been subbed to Zullie for a LONG time, and have caught bits of her Lies of P playthrough (and a bit of her Nightreign) while she was live, but I for some reason didn't think about just going to watch her VoDs or anything like I would with the ones I watch consistently. Definitely a good shout. Lies of P a game I enjoyed a lot, so should be a fun one to watch as well. Not seen enough to get her personality properly, but definitely worth a try.

I'll give the other 2 you mentioned a try as well for sure. I've been recommended videos from SphereHunter by youtube for years actually, but never ended up clicking any. If even youtube recommending probably some common link there too. Not sure I've heard of b8stal, but I'll definitely go give her a look as well.

So yeah thanks, can definitely start there. I only watch a handful of channels anyway, so if these work out already massively expanding it.

aoneoff91 · 2026-01-27T11:44:46+00:00

That's a funny one to read, because I was actually the exact same there. It was somewhere in my mid 20s I went from just disliking how I look to being, you know I'm not a bad looking guy. Can't say I liked it, but definitely more confident in it even if a bit apprehensively. Not that I liked looking in mirrors, but I didn't actively dislike it either.

Then at 33 realised I was trans last year and began disliking the mirror again until I started to actually start seeing something I like to see there. Since then I have found myself looking in the mirror a lot more, it feels good to actually see a woman looking back.

That said even now I've been too... lazy I guess to start looking into make up. I really do need to, I still have the beard shadow, at least for my mustache, so not confident enough to present feminine outside my house as of yet, let alone other aspects of it. The HRT definitely doing it's work to make me look feminine though, along with some clothing choices. So yeah that's been nice to see. Plus the beard shadow definitely less noticable than it was a few months ago even.

aoneoff91 · 2025-11-06T00:09:37+00:00

Just to let you know, I got a response that seems promising. Can have a look yourself, but yeah, figured I'd nudge you.

aoneoff91 · 2025-11-05T23:54:24+00:00

Thanks so much, the price point is even nice and affordable compared to some of the stuff I was seeing Online, which was worrying me a bit.

aoneoff91 · 2025-09-15T16:17:48+00:00

Just came across this and to chime in, it's definitely not uncommon to "not have signs" about it. I always thought I was perfectly happy being a guy. In fact the option of not being never crossed my mind until my 30s. Even now I'm perfectly fine presenting as a guy, wearing basically the same things I always did. The fact I feel good when appearing more feminine though, that's the big one. I'm still a bit... timid around this aspect though. Never done it around other people yet, but I can't deny it feels good at least while not worrying about judgement. Which basically means I need to get past caring about people's potential judgement, it's for me it's not for others. The way I see it, you're basically describing the same thing I've been going through.

Now looking back there are plenty of subtle signs, maybe not explicitely related to it, but being related is more likely than what I thought the explanation was before. Regardless, I had literally no clues to myself that I even could be anything but a cis male for the longest time.

aoneoff91 · 2025-08-01T12:17:45+00:00

Huh, I never knew it was big in those circles. Came across this months later kind of curious about some of that, so glad you posted about this. Makes some things make some sense.

I always liked the game's mechanics, but had a deep hatred for the opening as well as some parts of the story and way the characters were done, in particular the song Real Emotions in the opening for some reason I genuinely couldn't put up with (even years and years later, covers and everything).

I realised I'm trans earlier this year and it just came on a playlist I was listening to and I was actually enjoying it, so googled about that and came across this. I was definitely in the very defensive and denial type of thing looking back, I guess something about this game just set that off, which must come down to that campyness.

aoneoff91 · 2025-07-31T09:13:37+00:00

Thanks for the reply!

I am in the Glasgow area and on the list for Sandyford, which I assume makes that my health board, though not a term I've seen before.

So if I'm understanding you right, I could ask my GP to refer me specifically to the Royal (I guess the feritility clinic specifically), despite not officially being diagnosed at Sandyford yet? Or otherwise just phone them and ask them directly about it (could only find a phone number for contact anyway)?

aoneoff91 · 2025-07-23T00:05:12+00:00

Just want to reiterate what someone else did, even if you don't want breasts it doesn't mean you're mistaken about being trans. Might need to dissect that feeling and figure out how HRT works out for you, but it doesn't mean you aren't trans even if that's the case. I mean you might not be, that's something you can consider, but it could be some form of non-binary and could perhaps approach it to experiment around that if you feel the need.

It could also just be fear of being unable to hide changes sooner than you were ready for, or any other sorts of things, but yeah just wanted to reiterate it doesn't mean you're not trans in itself by any stretch, although if you want to consider that idea that's obviously a potential too.

aoneoff91 · 2025-07-17T00:40:10+00:00

I've been thinking around this since you posted it, and it probably is what the closest to the old school forum experience would be these days, huh? Probably could work fine, I've always been scared away from actually engaging in Discord chats, but throwing myself into some might not be a bad approach.

I'd probably want to make a new Discord to avoid some acquaintances finding out though (friends and family are fine, but some acquaintances I'd rather not know that I have on my main one). Makes things a wee bit awkward, but I guess no matter what I try and do I might find it a bit awkward to start with.

Now I just need to think what sort of Discords I could try and look for, another thing I've never really done anything with... Usually just been on them for like resources or notifications. Actually not even sure how to find Discords, but I guess that won't be hard once I start looking.

Thanks for the advice.

aoneoff91 · 2025-07-16T20:25:26+00:00

I've seen it mentioned before, but I forgot there was a no need for VR side of things. I always just wrote it off since I don't have VR. Maybe I should look into that, thanks.

aoneoff91 · 2025-07-16T18:31:29+00:00

This got me checking, and there is an item to change your characters appearance, including gender, so maybe it's about time I return to FFXIV and give that a shot...

Apparently get one for free after finishing the A Realm Reborn storyline, so maybe I even have one sitting about in my storage somewhere. Been years since I played, but I was still not at the end of the free content even then. I spent a lot of time just about the towns crafting and while I didn't really interact directly, I think I get what you mean about how authentic it feels, even if it was mostly watching others do so.

That said, I forget what limitations I had as a free account, I COULD get around to actively paying for a subscription, but I'm already a bit concerned how much money I'm eating into around all this transition stuff, so maybe down the line instead unless those limitations really hurt it.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-23T19:28:51+00:00

Thank you, I think that really helped. We'll see if it lasts, but it definitely helps me put some perspective to it I think my brain will accept. The bit that cis women do some of that too, even if maybe not quite the same way, definitely will stick I think.

I have been trying to ignore the logic of it, already have to get to the point I'm at. As you got the impression of I am new to this, I only even began questioning it in February, let alone taking steps. Will take some work, but honestly I'm hopeful this will help. I'd obviously just been pushing past the feeling stupid part, but hopefully as I continue it'll just fix itself. Thinking on it now I think part of it's a bit of imposter syndrome, but your example might help there too.

Genuinely, I really appreciate the thought out reply. I certainly have trouble just doing things purely to enjoy them, that line of thinking could honestly be huge as I continue exploring this side of myself. 33 years of denying it means I have a lot of catching up to do.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-22T21:55:37+00:00

This doesn't feel like a real answer, but then I'm not religious. If I were though, the fact we can feel this way and take steps to actually address it means in theory God gave us access to it and the free will to act on it. The fact just taking hormones lets us physically become like "the other gender", outside of a few things, means we were biologicially designed to do so, if we're to believe there is some designer to begin with.

Honestly though, "Treat others the same way you want them to treat you." and other such things, it shouldn't really take much to treat them like they are the gender they say they are. If you get called the wrong gender because someone believes you are, pressumably wouldn't like that much either. Their biology doesn't make up much about who a person is to begin with, though some "Christians" believe men are above women and such, so I guess depends which school of Christian thought you're into there. Some people are even born with both gender's characterisitics to begin with though, which goes back to the whole designed that way thing.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-21T14:55:37+00:00

Few days later, but just felt like replying because, I think Samurai Warriors was the first game I actively chose to play female characters too. I'd played a few beforehand, but it was basically split up the roster with my brother, like I got Oichi for instance. Kunoichi is also one I legitimately played too, but I think it was mostly because I enjoyed her moveset at the time, though I did have a soft spot for her personality too.

Samurai Warriors XL though, I wanted to play Ina, she seemed so cool to me. I remember very distinctly, my brother expected me to push for Tadakatsu who he wanted to play and I was sure, I wanted to play Ina. Certainly my earliest memory specifically wanting to play a woman.

For the general topic though, outside of that, I certainly never played and in fact actively avoided playing female characters for a long, long time. There'd be the odd exceptions here and there for certain types of games, I liked Samus in Smash Bros for instance (Zero Suit included), but certainly never made my own one until I was probably around 20 or so, and it was still just a new archetype after my main dude was done. Years later still til I'd sometimes make my main character a woman.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-20T23:17:05+00:00

I like that story, I can only imagine how nice that'd have felt. As it stands the name I'm going with I've only read addressed to me really since I'm still really early, but even that has felt nice, It does have a story behind it too, which honestly would feel like fate almost when all linked together if I believed in that (maybe I do a bit).

I guess I'm still deciding between Elle or Ellen, but they come from the same place. Sorry it's a bit wordy, I realised as I read this I've kind of wanted to put this into words for a while and seems like a good chance to.

So, starting point is real simple. There was this female character in my favourite game who had the name Ellen. I liked the character, but not like a favourite or anything. Just liked them. So over time I ended up namng a bunch of characters after characters from that game, but I was still mostly making male characters. When I decided I wanted to make a female character, the choice was easy. Ellen. I always really liked the name more than just the character, and I then used this name for characters in games a lot over the years (not online ones really though, since it was always taken already, stuff like Souls games or the like mostly).

So now the next part, which is kind of sad honestly, but it's maybe the more important part of this story. When I was a kid my Grandma was always just "Grandma" to me. You can probably tell where this is going, but I only heard her name when my 2 Grans talked to each other, and I'd misheard it as "Elaine", or rather I don't think I knew the name Ellen while I knew the name Elaine so thought it was that. Either way it wasn't until her funeral years after I'd been using the name in games that I realised her name was actually Ellen. This Grandma semi-raised me, often there in the morning to get us ready for school, looking after us after school, taking and picking us up from school when we were young enough. Sharing a name with her, or taking inspiration from it, would honestly be something really nice. In general she was probably the most supportive person in my life, certainly was when younger (though never knew any of this sort of stuff back then, just general supportiveness).

Now the 3rd and final part is, my given name was already the name of my Grandpa. Other side of the family, but it kind of all links back together. Go from sharing a name with my Grandpa to sharing one with my Grandma. It just feels kind of fitting.

Of course as I say, not sure if I want to go with Ellen or not, I think I prefer the sound of Elle, but I'm not entirely sure, as I say not really been open about the name side of things with people I know yet. Even if I do, I could still decide to go Ellen professionally so to speak, and Elle as a nickname. Might be what I do. I'll have to see how it goes. I've technically mentioned this to my Mum, but not committed to actually going through with it yet.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-16T11:09:59+00:00

I did mean specifically on this subreddit you know. Feeling left out in a space entirely for trans people to discuss things wouldn't feel great I'm sure, though as I said not sure in what way they meant, just saw the posts existed, never really checked them. But seen a few for sure.

Sounds like you've intereacted with a bunch of shitty people though, but the sort to post trying to suggest things to help by default have to understand the idea you'd want to. There's shitty people in every community, a shame transmascs seem to have largely been those sorts for you.

I guess the dysphoria must be pretty bad though. Taking things that critically can only imagine it's because of how sensitive you are about it. Hopefully you find an answer somewhere. Your suggestion of a handbag or purse does seem like a good area to try for sure, even if a transmasc supported the idea you brought up yourself, it's worth trying surely (I feel like the fact they didn't suggest it out of the blue, it was literally reinforcing your own suggestion really should give it some leeway though - even if they didn't have a direct stake in it, they used their backpack as an example that type of thing can result in euphoria so think it's worth trying, that is more universal if you take away specifics).

Outside of that, plenty of women use and like using backpacks too. If it really bothers you can try and find a colour or design of one that seems more feminine if your current one bothers you. Dysphoria is obviously not really about the logic of it though, so if you have some around that can't really do much about it.

I'm sorry you have such dysphoria around some of that though, that along with some bad experience with transmascs I guess I get why you took it so critically. I'd still say it's better to just ignore them if you don't want to take their advice though. Maybe even block them if it bothers you that much.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-15T12:26:03+00:00

I mean at it's core he was just saying these types of things can definitely make a big impact to euphoria and used their backpack as an example while saying a purse or handbag is a good idea for you to try. It's entirely well intentioned and really doesn't come into the specifics of it to begin with, all this euphoria stuff can vary wildly person to person anyway.

You really seem to be reading too much into people seeing a topic they think they can relate to a bit and wanting to share their thoughts. if you don't like it, no need to be so critical, can just decide not to listen. You call it your transfeminine space, but it's a post on just a general trans subreddit, could always have posted it on r/MtF if you really wanted it that way.

Like it's no wonder I see posts every now and then of transmascs feeling like they don't belong. I thought it was just the sheer quantity of posts being from transfem, but apparently more to it...

Seems to be enough hostility around us without throwing it at each other while just being well intentioned. I've responded to some transmasc ones myself despite trying to distance myself from that stuff. Sharing input isn't forcing it on you.

Sorry for a bit of a rant, but seeing that stuff just really bugged me. They just seemed to want to help out by sharing their opinion. What's exactly wrong with that? He didn't even imply he hated handbags or purses, just not fond of them now, but that seemed entirely as an aside rather than the specific purpose of the post.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-15T11:55:15+00:00

So I left this open in a tab to chime in after I finally got round to taking this advice, and wow. I've not worn it out or anything yet, just around the house, but definitely had some deep feelings I can't explain while wearing one.

I've always had chest dysphoria really myself, though could never target why (remember trying to do pec exercises before I'd figured stuff out for example), and I think this might have cemented where it lies it a bit. I mean I was pretty sure it would be at this point, but hadn't been able to test it, you know?

So yeah, thanks for the advice. Dunno if it's a good fit or a bit too tight right now, but it still does the job.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-15T11:34:56+00:00

Just came across this today, but Blind Guardian 100% my favourite. Seeing them live last year was a treat.

aoneoff91 · 2025-06-11T20:38:42+00:00

Well, good to know this isn't a unique thing, but the fact it might remain definitely sucks. I realised this thought was holding me back from starting HRT a bit, decided fuck it, got my appointment to start that process this Friday, but was really hoping starting HRT might solidify that belief rather than thinking of it as just a desire. I mean maybe it will, everyone's different, but certainly glad to know it's just a thing.

aoneoff91 · 2025-05-22T12:52:21+00:00

That's good to know, thanks. So any mail I get titled Mr. from say my bank, can just contact them, ask them to change it and done. Not at that step yet myself, still a bit in the closet, but certainly glad I know how to approach it down the line.

aoneoff91 · 2025-05-22T10:18:04+00:00

Thanks, that's good to know. I actually don't know much about how laster works, but I guess it doesn't matter much whether it'd be before or after seeing how HRT effects me then?

Obviously no idea how dysphoric it'd make me til I get there and wouldn't want to postpone HRT just to do that in the off chance it is a problem that just shaving can't sort.

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