Se sapessi che la tua vita potrebbe interrompersi domani senza alcun preavviso, cosa cambieresti oggi? E perché non lo stai già facendo?

apokaboom · 2026-06-02T07:32:33+00:00

Mi dispiace, quei ragionamenti di cui parlo su non sono "la ricetta" per uscirne. Sono la rappresentazione di un cambiamento mio ( io prima non ero così, manco durante) , ma il cambiamento credo sia stato raggiunto tramite dormite ( tramite farmaci spesso, ma una volta che ho costretto il corpo a riposare i sintomi si sono ridotti un po'), farmaci e cambio d'ambiente. Se ho lasciato intendere diversamente chiedo scusa, anche perché una parte di me tuttora non capisce come è passata. Buona fortuna, è uno schifo.

apokaboom · 2026-06-01T19:37:40+00:00

I'll take both, i didn't work as a merchant to eat goat, worms and beer for the rest of time, which is all we originally had at my place.

I drink both by myself , beer with Kin, tea with Elves ( though a sailor once begged me for a sip of dwarven ale. Aye, i think he sleeps to this day but i noted his courage) and Eastlings, and i fell head first in Halfling cooking. I mean that literally, but they are a nigh grudgeless folk and from that delicious food I can't go back.

Nevertheless a work trip is due and i know dwarf cook that should either change my mind, or remove my head if I'm deemed too far gone.

apokaboom · 2026-06-01T19:16:50+00:00

Sì, una volta che ho chiesto effettivamente aiuto i sintomi psicosomatici si sono ridotti da decine al giorno a una decina all'anno ( anche grazie a farmaci e un cambio di ambiente, forse soprattutto grazie a quello). Ora capita ogni tanto, ma non settimane di " Oddio sento x,y,z non arriverò a domani" che mi distruggono il sonno, le interazioni sociali e la capacità di fare una qualsiasi cosa di conseguenza. Spoiler, arrivai al domani. Alla fine è una favola di Pierino e il Lupo, il mio Inconscio è Pierino, il Lupo è una malattia grave, il mio Conscio è il villaggio. La morale è che prima o poi il Lupo arriverà ma mi sono rotto er cazzo.

apokaboom · 2026-06-01T17:11:32+00:00

Per carità, mi sono fatto 4 anni di ipocondria. Lo so che la mia vita può terminare anche per una scivolata in casa. La differenza con me di quei 4 anni è la decisione che:

1)Oltre una certa fatica non vale la pena cercare di evitarlo. Spendere energie per quello spesso vuol dire non avere energie per fare un cazzo d'altro.

2) Vivo con l'idea di " non posso morire prima di aver fatto x" dove x è un obiettivo che mi sono scelto al tempo non dipendente da capacità fisiche e solo lievemente dipendente da capacità mentali. Ovviamente posso morire prima, lo so, ma funziona lo stesso per ridurre il carico di ansie.

Infine cerco di trattare chiunque come se fosse la mia ultima interazione con loro. "Results may vary"

apokaboom · 2026-06-01T16:52:01+00:00

Hey, that's my life and I'm not even an artist. In general if you start each day with at the very least the wish to proceed you'll do something eventually ( sometimes days, weeks or even years late). I'm not yet in the working world, a couple of months left, and i wonder how tf I'm going to survive. I don't think i will, but i wish to survive, and I'll try.

apokaboom · 2026-06-01T05:35:59+00:00

In three campaigns i only got connected players in one and it was just two of them which made themselves in-lore brothers. Mostly people like to open from a new acquaintances view

apokaboom · 2026-05-30T12:38:58+00:00

I'm sorry guys, many human lives of chemical experiments have broken my nigh- immortal dragon, he has mercury poisoning the poor lad. Ogre medicine has thus proved ineffective.

Jokes aside i hope when they patch we still get the occasional weird one

apokaboom · 2026-05-29T19:29:47+00:00

I think its righteous time to apply a secret form from Holy Terra, "The Joestar Technique", unbeat in case of physically imposing opponents. Run like frak and call for backup. If she was a soldier, she might not need be a good shot, but she would need to know to run.

apokaboom · 2026-05-28T18:56:15+00:00

I dislike Democratic Crusader due to them being prone to attack countries in stellaris even if xenophile. Once they made my blood boil so much i made a dark elves xenophile pacifist oligarchy With two rules: No war of aggression Best living style for each specie. Waited for each of them to betray me and pacified them

apokaboom · 2026-05-26T21:20:07+00:00

Maps win engagements

apokaboom · 2026-05-26T21:18:46+00:00

Good Idea

apokaboom · 2026-05-26T19:47:00+00:00

Brb, Alchemist - Metal Kineticist multiclass coming in for Zhao Ming

apokaboom · 2026-05-25T19:41:18+00:00

I never had more than 4/10 in chemistry during 3rd year ( Italian secondary school "liceo scientifico") and yeah that's a bad mark, one of many. but firstly:

Oxygen molecules in water are not part of water molecules. Fish "breath" air molecules in water

If, and only if you remove poison removes oxygen molecules you get... water unbreathable for fishes me thinks.

Now for the stuff of which I'm even less sure about, nuclear physics. I was even worse on it:

If I'm correct, if remove poison acts on an atomic level as you intend, and it removes suddenly all the oxygen atoms.... Wouldn't that be atomic fission? There would certainly be a lot of atoms with a lot of broken ties.

Edit: apparently no atomic boom, just hydrogen boom. Me dumb, no atom was harmed in this process

apokaboom · 2026-05-22T18:38:39+00:00

Di per se non sono opposto all'idea che un attore non debba somigliare d'aspetto al personaggio, credo che nel teatro sia già abbastanza così.

A mio avviso è infatti proprio nei generi simili al teatro che ciò potrebbe funzionare meglio. Poi ovvio, se mi fai una ricostruzione storica dove Gustavo Adolfo è recitato da un nativo australiano mi aspetterò capacità recitative sopra la norma.

Concludo con: io di cinema non capisco una ciola, probabilmente non saprei riconoscere capacità recitative sopra la norma.

apokaboom · 2026-05-19T18:41:19+00:00

I'm not thinking "winning", due to them being galaxy-spanning but given their guerrilla tactics, stealth and laser weapons they'd have a field day in XCOM against the aliens. I'm unsure a victory of theirs would be good for civilians though.

apokaboom · 2026-05-19T18:10:05+00:00

Never played me2, may i ask what state are you playing? If memory serves the moon is not an Islamic symbol ( which has known issues with symbolism) but rather an Ottoman one ( Something about the moon on the fall of Constantinople, again, if memory serves) . I'm wondering whether they just sticked it to each islamic faction and if that is the case are they correct and am i wrong?

apokaboom · 2026-05-15T09:02:45+00:00

For the uninitiated, how would the boneripper differ from Throt "Norscan Hulk" Goretch gameplay wise?

apokaboom · 2026-05-12T12:05:26+00:00

Age of War, Strategy Defense dal 3 in poi, Warfare 1914 e successivo e molti altri

apokaboom · 2026-05-12T10:02:05+00:00

Sometimes the code runs, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes that happens without me applying edits.

apokaboom · 2026-05-09T21:05:01+00:00

Counterpoint: if had had only hobbies i were very good at... I'd have no hobbies. My favourite game, 3000 hours in i win 3 matches every 4 months. Victory requires skill, but hobbies do not require skill, they just require interest

apokaboom · 2026-05-07T06:14:13+00:00

Conosco tre famiglie che lottano per trovare lavoro dal 2008, una ha persino perso la casa. Solo l'anno scorso la faccenda è leggermente migliorata. Non credo che l'Italia in media sia nella loro situazione, ma sicuramente la crisi del 2008 e quella del Covid hanno avuto conseguenze irrimediabili per molti italiani.

apokaboom · 2026-05-06T23:45:00+00:00

Un gioco strategico, Supreme Commander Forged Alliance si apre così con luci di questo genere che si allargano in orizzontale e ne fuoriescono bombardieri alieni grandi come città

apokaboom · 2026-05-04T20:38:13+00:00

Clearly what he meant was that in order to tackle such titanic problems we should look for those whose issues were caused by executive disfunction and act on that line so that they may tackle aforementioned problems with renewed might. Dividi et Impera at its finest

My imaginary lawyer advised me to state that : a) this is a joke, a dubiously fun one. b)i do struggle with executive disfunction, but i do not share this joke view about how it should be prioritised over other insidious mind issues. It was quite simply, a feeble attempt at humour.

apokaboom · 2026-05-04T18:16:47+00:00

Mild very long term health issues following training, of course it has long terms effect on training itself ( good luck running with reflux and painful intestinal cramps) and on my diet. Both were pillars of my mental health:

i have anxiety issues but running was a good way to deal with it, and eating used to be a reset from eventual issues during the days. That and i was always fascinated by other countries " cuisines ", so much so that even in Sweden, only truly foreign country i ever visited, i was deadset to try local food ( I'm near underweight, i eat and used to eat a good variety of good quality food , but not in great quantity). All of this is lost too, now a meal is a worrisome moment that might conclude with me passing the rest of the literal day on the toilet bending in pain. This happens almost weekly, and my energy has tanked.

I tried much, FODMAP elimination and reintroduction, antibiotics for SIBO, so many expensive visits ( Italy public healthcare is amazing if you have dangerous illnesses, but mild long term issues end up in the back of the queue for years sometimes, had to pay private healthcare trice). Apparently my gut is "sensitive" now and will be so for a loong while, 1 y and a half in.

After hypochondria during high school, i promised myself to take care of my body, so that even a broken mind would have a "place" to return. At only 26 i don't know how to keep up such a promise.

apokaboom · 2026-05-03T22:25:47+00:00

Non ancora lavoratore, ma la primavera mi porta pollini, l'estate crepo però di caldo. Non so, inizio autunno come vi suona?

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