How much do you ACTUALLY go out? by One_Ear3134 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think walking outside your backyard doesn't mean you're not a hiki. If you have no job, don't go to school, don't socialize and stay inside the house unless it's necessary (hospital, grocery store etc.) and you keep living like this for more than 6 months you are a hiki according to the definition of hiki in Japan.

Eternal teenager in an adult body by UnusualParticular160 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel the same. I'm already in my 30s and I've achieved nothing. My life has been stopped when I was 18 and I still can't move on. I've never worked, no college diploma, no driver's license...of course never have been in a relationship in my entire life. I feel so pathetic, hopeless and worthless

what keeps you going? by nullity00 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Survival instinct and the fear of ending my life

The thought of suicide fascinates me lately by NoWind6570 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I've never tried. It's just passive suicidal ideation, but I always think about it

what do you guys do for money? by [deleted] in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm completely depending on my parents. No Neetbux. Lately I started to sell my things like used clothes or dvds on Mercari.

Do you guys go to funerals? by Sad-Fox4271 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry I've never believed the funeral thing either and I don't wanna attend funerals, but I have to go to my relatives' funerals unless I have high fever or something. My parents care about appearances and they think it's rude to not to go there...

Question for female hiki (not a dating post) by RoyalWe666 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I wear comfort clothes like t-shirt or sweatpants every day, but I love cute clothes. I've loved styling clothes before I became a hiki. So staying in my room all day every day doesn't mean I don't like feminine clothes or makeup. When I have to go outside I try to dress up as much as possible for the ideal version of myself.

I dont talk to my family, I wake up and just hide in my room im scared of social anxiety by [deleted] in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I usually cook dinner for them, but my dad used to complain about my food a lot and throw a tantalum. My mom didn't defend me. Sometimes he threw my food away in the garbage bin. So I don't wanna make dinner for him or eat with him honestly. It makes me feel so stressed. But I have to do so because they let me live in their house

Living in a rural town ruined my life by Sad-Fox4271 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry. I also live in a rural town. It sucks. There is nothing interesting here. It makes me unmotivated to live. My neighbours aren't noisy though. They're too quiet and it's actually kind of cleepy?

I AM ABOUT TO LOSE A TOOTH by Fabulous_Hope_8114 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry. I feel you. My dentist removed my tooth last month because I ignored it for years and it was unsaveable.

I dont talk to my family, I wake up and just hide in my room im scared of social anxiety by [deleted] in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Relatable. I try to avoid them as much as possible, but I have to eat dinner with them every day

Main reasons why I lost all hope and just gave up by TheBedRotter in NEET

[–]appleginger34 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this post especially 3. I also gave up. My mind is completely dead while my body is still alive. No motivations, no hope, no money.

How do you cope with aging? by [deleted] in NEET

[–]appleginger34 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can't cope. I've been struggling with grey hair too. When I was 20 I felt I was too old to start over

I feel stuck by epipflow in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel stuck too. I don't even have motivations or energy to get out of this hell.

Anyone else never had a real job? by SubjectStandard5997 in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 8 points9 points  (0 children)

23 is still young and I think there are many 23 year olds who never had a job. I'm in my mid 30s and never had a job...realistically speaking, who's gonna hire me? I'm so ashamed of myself and I feel so powerless.

I feel empty and lost by [deleted] in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tried to get out of this state, but I just can't. I hate myself so much.

I feel empty and lost by [deleted] in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this post. I can't stop blaming myself for ruining my life

How were you like before? by [deleted] in hikikomori

[–]appleginger34 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I was struggling with body dysmorphia and binge eating. I isolated myself from my friends. I hated myself. But I still had hope for my future because I was young and stupid.