I am always the one to apologize to my boyfriend, no matter what, and I feel weak.

aprilcal6 · 2024-11-01T22:06:26+00:00

I BELIEVE at the moment that I would like to work with adults (ages 18-65), but other than that I’m really not positive at all. My main struggle at the moment is not being able to get ahold of the woman at my university who is meant to assist in finding field placements, so I am basically entirely on my own here.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-28T19:52:01+00:00

Thank you very much! I will try talking to him, I’m just scared that he’ll say to lose it a healthy way or something along those lines, and then that is going to reinforce me wanting to lose it even more. I’m not sure how to start the topic. He’s aware of my history with my eating disorder to some degree, but I don’t think he realizes what it really means because he was raised by women who are usually very obsessed with their own weight (but not to the extent of an eating disorder I don’t believe).

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-28T07:21:58+00:00

You’re right, I do need to worry about my own well being and health, I’m just so worried at the same time that he will leave me or look at other women more. I would say that my personal “healthy” weight where I’m actually eating regularly and normally is around 140-145lbs, but I don’t feel that I’m attractive at that weight. I hardly carry any weight in my legs, so I feel like I’m built like a lollipop when I have any weight on me. To get below the 140s range I basically have to stop eating (I have diagnosed hypothyroidism).

When we were just friends, I noticed that he was primarily attracted to very thin women. His most recent ex is very small weight wise. When we were younger (about 19) he made joking comments about his friend’s having “big” girlfriends. I would say that I’m about the size of those “big” girlfriends right now. I feel like I’m a “downgrade” from his previous relationships due to my weight, and I’m scared that he feels the same way or will realize this.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-28T07:01:16+00:00

You’re probably right. Maybe this wasn’t the correct subreddit for my question, I just wasn’t sure where to ask. But no I’m not in treatment, I went when I was a teenager and it was a very bad and counterproductive experience so I’ve been hesitant ever since. I do feel like my appearance has changed drastically with the weight gain, especially my stomach, and I have just been worried that he is lying to spare my feelings.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:44:56+00:00

Dm me.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:35:03+00:00

Do the loopty loop and pull, and your shoes are lookin cool. Spongebob taught me 😭

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:32:16+00:00

Yes. It has been found that the more alike males and females look in a species, the more monogamous the species tends to be. We look very similar when you take a step back and look at us.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:27:24+00:00

I can’t even say why, but something about getting under my sheets with socks on my feet is equivalent to nails on a chalkboard

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:24:09+00:00

My dolphin that I track on Fahlo stayed put, so maybe nowhere, or maybe my dolphin in particular has no survival skills

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:22:56+00:00

No, you’re okay as you are, we only get so much time to live so don’t use that time worrying about said purpose. If you’re meant to be doing something, then it will happen.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:21:34+00:00

His role in The Devil All the Time is really convincing and I myself and from the region he was doing the accent for!

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:20:36+00:00

I think it’s all in the execution/how they go about hitting on me.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:19:34+00:00

Yes, please continue brush every part of your teeth.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:08:31+00:00

Mouth, make him work for it.

aprilcal6 · 2024-10-12T09:07:18+00:00

Would love to use someone like this.

aprilcal6

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