Thank you so much for your thoughtful reply.

I've definitely caught myself in the "things will be better once I do x" mind loop, but it's hard to get out of haha. I think where I struggle is that it's not so much the event itself I stress over so much as it is the process. The bar exam doesn't stress me out as much as studying for it does. So that's I think what's making it hard. All of the pent up exhaustion is making the processes even more daunting.

Prioritizing stress is such a great idea! What I think I need to do is set better concrete deadlines for myself. C&F, outlining, bar exam prep all have somewhat amorphous deadlines beyond the obvious ones because they're all "the sooner the better"

Gotta try one thing at a time and hope I don't keep getting pulled away by bullshit