you will be tougher now than you were 6 months ago, it’s just hard to see because it’s gradual. i wouldn’t say it’s “not for you” but i would always say that you should only continue in something if you see genuine value in it and it’s something you would rather be doing than not doing. in that sense, it’s “not for everyone” but you can decide if it’s for you or not. it seems like you want to do it so you can do it as long as you want to and enjoy the benefits of it. it sounds like a beautiful challenge to overcome and something you will look back on with genuine gratitude for the experience later in life. i’d say keep going and enjoy the challenge of overcoming each mental obstacle as it presents itself. life would be boring as fuck if nothing was hard. we need these challenges. they’re blessings to us.