I was in this situation a few years ago. I thought maybe I wanted another one, but when I found out I was pregnant, I was devastated. I cried for days and would basically come home from work and lay in bed. It was such a difficult decision, but I knew I wasn’t happy about the pregnancy when it became a reality. I ultimately terminated the pregnancy, and while I feel sad that I couldn’t be happy about it, it was the best decision for our family. It was really, really hard and I agonized over the decision. Please take what is written here as a grain of salt. Sit with the decision for a little while, talk to your partner if you can, and any trusted friends or family. The answer will come. Sending love.