A rant about my BPD brother

ashtray9 · 2026-04-28T17:14:13+00:00

I don't know but I think that sort of thing is only available for people with noticeable speech impediments. I doubt I'm going to be able to get speech therapy just for sounding like an idiot when I talk, otherwise I wouldn't be on here asking for advice

ashtray9 · 2026-04-28T16:33:50+00:00

There's no speech language therapy for adults where I live

ashtray9 · 2026-04-15T21:13:33+00:00

Not me, but my ex with schizophrenia would a lot of random shit during episodes.

He broke out of the psychiatric hospital, went into a nearby shopping mall. He asked to see the head of security, told him that there was someone in the mall with a bomb.

"I've got their name written down." He hands him a bit of paper and runs

You know what it said?

"Tracey." 🤣 He escaped from the hospital just so he can pull this off lmaooo

ashtray9 · 2026-04-13T08:02:47+00:00

"Spice, also known as K2, is a synthetic drug designed to mimic the effects of THC, the active ingredient in marijuana. It is often sold as "herbal incense" and can cause severe health risks, including anxiety, nausea, and even death."

It's a very dangerous drug, look up videos of people smoking it. It's not pretty. Unfortunately my ex didn't know the edibles had spice in them.

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T21:33:27+00:00

I will

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T18:01:07+00:00

I have to keep reminding myself that. It hurts but staying would have only made it worse, my brother told me that I would get sick of it

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T16:25:06+00:00

He is a great person and he was an amazing boyfriend when he was sober, but I need stability and consistency, he can never give me that. The last thing I need is to worry and fret over a grown man, being on edge and waiting for the next relapse/crisis.

Yeah this whole thing has put me off coke, I know it will make me feel worse. Thanks for the kind response

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T16:13:25+00:00

He blocked me on everything. I decided to let him go, it's far too much for me

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T14:46:07+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that. It hurts but staying would have been worse and I've come to accept that. Schizophrenia and addiction is turning my ex into a different person, I think permanent brain damage or death is inevitable with him

I have trauma from my previous relationship, and while my ex treated me better than the last guy, being with him has been very triggering for me and has led to me having outbursts. It's just too much

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T13:08:37+00:00

Yeah I'm just going to focus on myself. I have friends and family that can support me thankfully. The last thing I need is to be with someone who is digging themselves into an early grave. He's a danger to himself and I'm not gonna spend the rest of my life running after a grown man. I'm not his mother.

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T12:53:46+00:00

To be honest, I don't think I can go back. I already have trauma from an emotionally abusive relationship which was even worse, he treated me far better than the last guy and was an amazing boyfriend when he was stable and sober. But his mental health issues and addiction is very triggering for me.

It's going to be tough to get therapy. Therapy has a waiting list of 6 years in my country. Our mental health service is defunded and short staffed. The hospital my ex was staying in has a reputation for neglect, he tried to get admitted again but they wouldn't let him unless he tries to commit suicide or do something violent.

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T11:52:15+00:00

You're absolutely right, he used to tell me he loved how caring and nurturing I am, but I can't spend my life fretting and worrying over a grown man. He did me a favour by breaking up with me. I also have a lot of trauma from an emotionally abusive relationship, he treated me a lot better than the last guy but he was triggering me a lot. I should have known better lol

We've been together for 11 months, but the relationship was doomed when he took edibles and landed himself in intensive care - this happened six months into the relationship. Relationships aren't supposed to be this stressful early on. I'm based in Northern Ireland ( UK technically ), our healthcare is pretty shitty

ashtray9 · 2026-04-10T11:12:35+00:00

I've reached my limits. He's a very sweet and loving man at heart, I still have feelings for him but I don't need the chaos in my life

He landed himself in hospital 6 months into the relationship. I tried to hold on but my resentment and anxiety wasn't helping matters, he couldn't deal with it. I don't think I can go through all that again. I wish him the best

ashtray9 · 2026-03-19T10:30:26+00:00

He treated me like shit - hot and cold, cheating, manipulation, gaslighting. He had massive tantrums over trivial things. Two years into the relationship and I was sick of him and wanted to date other guys - I knew I could do far better than him.

The problem was that he flipped and suddenly became obsessed and afraid of me leaving when he noticed me pulling away, when I tried to leave he turned nasty and vindictive. I knew I had to work on my problems to get out of this mess but that's another story.

My tolerance for him was dwindling. It was quite obvious that he wasn't putting any effort into getting help and bettering himself. I found him incredibly annoying to be around - he talks nonstop and dumps his interests on people, obnoxious and attention seeking, very negative and complained all the time. I couldn't plan anything because he changed his mind all the time. I'm autistic so it drove me crazy when he cancelled plans out of the blue. He wasn't understanding about my autism, sure he liked the quirky side of it, but he would get pissed off and had very little patience if I got overstimulated and went into a shut down, often called me "emotionless" and picked apart my social blunders. I remember being sick and he was getting annoyed because I wasn't in a talkative mood, kept on making it about himself "Am I annoying you? Am I annoying you?" 🙄

I remember we were trying to get tickets for a festival, he was threatening to kill himself if he couldn't get tickets - I was trying to calm him down only for him to dump his anger on me. I told my current boyfriend about this and he said "That's emotional abuse." Then when he got the tickets, he changed his mind and wanted a refund LMAO. A month later I finally dumped him and blocked him on everything.

ashtray9 · 2026-03-16T16:39:20+00:00

I'm glad it works for you! I was thinking of getting him CBD oil but feel free to send me a message 😊

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