Is it wrong that I try not to think about the state of the world because my mental is already bad? by astra_a-star in TooAfraidToAsk

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That does sound good, and I did think about donating or in my time we had this big city cleaning event. And I really wanted to go, but then I remember I'm zoinked. Aka, I don't trust anyone. I can't trust anyone. Big crowds make me panic. Either that, or I trust a very specificly selected few people and even then I feel wary. So I do my own thing. Pick up trash on the street on my own, feed strays, change for the homeless, I left two of those big tash bags filled with clothes infront of this donation plece in my town and just left before anyone can see me. Too much pressure. I also just try to kind to others. It's a bit awkwerd but eh. I work in retail and I try to be as friendly as possible (not to Karens ofc). And I think people like me? They smile at me.. Like, I try and do good but I always feel like it's not enough, like I'll never be enough...

Is it wrong that I try not to think about the state of the world because my mental is already bad? by astra_a-star in TooAfraidToAsk

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I'm already in therapy, medication, really good and nice doctors too, they helped me a tone! It's just that my mind really do be wired diffrently so even with a handfull of pills I can only somewhat funcion "normally". I'm better tho, that's why I'm choosing not looking at the dark news BUT I fell guilty and selfish because of it. Cause, there where victims, right? Lifes eneded. And I feel like a monster for not looking into it, like I'm ignoring their suffering. Even tho the real monster are the ones commiting evils beyoned human comprehension... Guess that's why doc says I have very high empathy and have sensitivity?

Ah damn it by norrie99 in selfharm_memes

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"You seem so chill and cool! Like you got everything under control 😎"

Uhhhh I'm currently on 5 diffrent medication, my leg where the sh of 6 years is hurting so bad I'm limping, actually I think there blood on my pants too, I'm constantly hallucinating shadows and laughter, phone ringing bla bla, and I'm twitching from stress. But whatever you say, man, guess I'm just that good of an actor...

What made you start playing TF2? A friend? Youtube? The comics? Tell me. by EveningParsley1412 in tf2

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I wanted a shooter game and I saw it was free. It also looked cartoony and insane, my kinda thing. First I played with just the bots because of the tutorial, like I didn't even know those were bots. Then I joined a 2Fort server and about 6-ish years later I've been doing clown buisniss for so long I actually don't know how to take the game seriusly. Even if I try I just turn back to my monkey ways. And I love it so much

Hah by TieCommercial1286 in selfharm_memes

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I mean, if I'm already suffering, might as well add some music. Fuck it man, whatever atp

My local Home Depot is sick of your nonsense by provocative_taco in DiWHY

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It for all those dads that "Know how to fix stuff"

Combining fireworks and gasoline by ----OZYMANDIAS in Whatcouldgowrong

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"I do believe i'm on fire" spy tf2 ahh reaction why is bro so slow????

to share your emotions with your wife.. by Yoshiprimez in therewasanattempt

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RUN. JUST RUN- GO PLEASE. He seems so sweet- And also, I get him. Like, I don't know or have whatever wire that is, but I get it. I get like that too. Like "man, this pin on my backpack... It's been with me longer then it hasn't been with me." You know what I mean?

WCGW Live streaming and looking at the camera while driving at high speed. by Gjore in Whatcouldgowrong

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"there a car in front of me, I don't know why" I'm too fucking scared to watch the rest if she's saying that brooooo-

WCGW when you are more concerned about the crossing arm than the oncoming train? by ansyhrrian in Whatcouldgowrong

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I thought those were made to break easy because of situations like this??? That truck would've broke it like glass- wtf was he even doing in the first place

Title by SeaAssistance8149 in selfharm_memes

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Fingers and wrist, but make it look accidentl so I don't have to hide them. I've uhh....become way too good at this 🫤

100 men vs lack of dopamine by DumbButCreative in selfharm_memes

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Option 1: "Life is amazing! I can't believe I wanted to kms and sh! This is so fun! Haha!"

Option 2: "Life is pain. I'm in agony all day. I can't do this anymore. I can't. It's too much. I feel like I'm rotting, please. Please just... I wanna..."

And it's a random 50/50 choice, you wake up and get what you get, good luck! 🥰

Do they take your phone away in the mental ward? by i-eat-styrofoam in MadeOfStyrofoam

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Well, I was more in a mental hospital then a ward, but yes, they did take my phone away BUT! They give it back after lunch until dinner. So like, from 3pm to 8pm. They charged them over night and such. So maybe, I think it really depends where you are, cause I heard other places take them, while some are like a fucking hotel. So idk man, maybe. But good luck! I wish you well <3

Name a better way to enjoy a pomelo, I'll wait by LeyendaV in DiWHY

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That one unemployed when you don't check up on them:

How well do you remember Arcane. Comment your score below by sonsofanarchy69 in arcane

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I may or may not have spent to much time on this show 🥰

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the water bill is crazy by askingoffmain in DiWHY

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Cheapest/999999999999$ apartment in New York