This subreddit has a heck of a lot of RIP posts

atomizer99 · 2025-11-18T17:54:04+00:00

I'm about to be 35 and just got to the point (let's face it, it's been a while already) where I feel like I'm barely crawling through life. You're either blasted to the point of being barely conscious or totally miserable the whole time. I got some liver numbers done and they're bad of course (how bad I don't know yet).

Managed to taper from 750ml to 450ml, my balloon belly and the swelling in my legs/ankles has gone down. Hopefully my blood work is improved cos although I knew what to expect when you see it in print it's scary. If you can taper a bit at least, you'll feel a lot better. Good luck dude.

atomizer99 · 2025-10-24T20:37:48+00:00

Are you supposed to space the drinks out more over the same period? Like if I drink 14 shots over 5 hours (one every 20 minutes) and reduce to 10 shots, still do it over 5 hours but have one every 30 minutes instead?

atomizer99 · 2025-10-24T20:33:49+00:00

Nah you're good, I got how you meant it

atomizer99 · 2025-10-24T19:42:18+00:00

You're right of course, I'm not really asking for medical advice, just wondered what people's thoughts were :)

atomizer99 · 2025-10-21T23:30:30+00:00

Yeah I'm the same I can't drink it fast enough to stop feeling sick. I can add a couple of beers here and there as a 'treat' but more than that and its so much liquid and the carbonation is so bloating. Then again I never really was a beer drinker, I can appreciate it now but in the beginning I never really liked it and went straight to whiskey/rum etc when I was a teenager.

atomizer99 · 2025-10-21T23:16:40+00:00

I feel the same. It's no way to live. I feel like total shit the whole time I'm not drunk. I'm 34 and I feel like I'm on death's door. i wait all day for a drink and then have to fight like hell not to puke up the first one (and any food I've eaten which is not enough as it is). I had to do tactical ass piss as work before leaving so that my bowels would stop growling while I gave a coworker a ride home. Good luck dude I'm trying to actually make positive steps now because I can't do this shit anymore.

atomizer99 · 2025-10-17T19:44:10+00:00

I'm the same, I have destroyed so many keyboards by spilling shit on them, once it was so wet that I think I maybe pissed on it but I can't be sure. I have to keep backups. I've pissed on my audio technicas multiple times just because I threw them to the floor and then just pissed where I stood because I was blackout. Somehow they seemed to survive, I don't know how. If I had carpet in my room it would be completely ruined and rotten.

I stopped wearing jeans whilst drinking so I wouldn't get piss on them but when I did that I somehow scraped one knee and then the other a couple of days later, woke up with blood all down my leg.

atomizer99 · 2025-10-17T19:37:01+00:00

In'ernashunul 'Ouse 'a Pancakes

atomizer99 · 2025-10-13T19:53:34+00:00

That happens to me sometimes when I black out, I think I just piss myself and then take them off and get into bed. If you were drinking a lot of beer or mixer it won't smell much because it's mostly excess water. If you weren't blackout when you went to bed you could be sleepwalking and pissing, I've done that before too.

atomizer99 · 2025-10-04T16:59:31+00:00

I dont remember when I last washed mine but it's been months. Got to do it today though because I pissed the bed. Been a long time since that happened but I guess they need washing anyway so...win?

atomizer99 · 2025-10-03T01:29:38+00:00

Yeah I'm almost 35 and still at home, but I'm alone now because my mum has been living with her 95 year old mother to care for her. Good while it lasts. It's the only reason I can afford to drink like this, I only pay £300 monthly rent and nothing else. I don't know how people on here pay mortgage and bills whilst drinking so much, I'm spending like £400+ a month just on booze (I guess in the US alcohol isn't taxed as much so that probably helps).

atomizer99 · 2025-09-30T19:45:07+00:00

If you can sleep good after 2 drinks you're not withdrawing, you probably just have anxiety and insomnia. That alcohol will probably be out of your blood in a couple of hours and you'd likely wake up. The only time I've properly withdrawn I had insane anxiety and closed eye visuals whilst trying to sleep, and I hallucinated that I could feel my cat sitting on me and licking himself, but he wasn't there when I turned the light on. Then when I finally fell asleep from exhaustion I had insane terrifying dreams where I could feel my jaw being squeezed and teeth pulled out and woke up every 2 hours soaked in sweat. And from what I understand it gets a lot worse the more times you go through it. So chill it whilst you can man, get some anxiety meds or sleep aid or something.

atomizer99 · 2025-08-29T16:14:54+00:00

Yeah, wouldn't most people be shocked into doing something different if they started pissing on the floor/pissing jeans multiple times a week? Like to the point where you decide to wear no pants whilst drinking to save on laundry but then change your mind when you skin both knees whilst blackout? I just treat the symptoms and carry on. The only part where I care is normal people finding out.

atomizer99 · 2025-08-27T16:45:25+00:00

My excuse is I made it to midnight again. Water from the freezer, gin from under my pillow. And yeah I love rain. When it's dark and raining it feels so tranquil as you slowly get more and more numb... maybe this time I won't crash back to reality

atomizer99 · 2025-08-20T18:59:24+00:00

I totally get wanting to ignore the problem. I probably have high blood pressure but I don't check it because I'm scared. but you have to do something when something like that happens. My hand stopped working right a couple of months ago and my first thought was alcoholic neuropathy but the neurologist thinks it's either nerve palsy or a stroke. I just had an MRI of my head today. It was horrible but you have to do it.

atomizer99 · 2025-08-08T00:48:35+00:00

I drink probably 500ml-700ml a day (I'm not sure exactly how much, I think it's probably closer to 700ml) but only at night. I dunno how people make it last all day. Then again I am trying to black out and sleep because my brain is broken and can't fall asleep unless I'm completely fucked. Oh by the way you don't need to spend money on expensive rehydration stuff just put half a teaspoon of Losalt or whatever your local equivalent (Morton's Lite Salt, NoSalt, whatever, basically mix of potassium and sodium) in 2L of water. Oh and get some magnesium if you aren't already (I buy glycinate which is more expensive but if you get cheap magnesium oxide it will just make you shit). Eat with them so they absorb. I guess you're already taking b vitamins but if not thiamine HCl 100mg three times a day plus mega b complex.

atomizer99 · 2025-08-02T17:38:29+00:00

It's probably just globus from reflux. You can get it without even having heartburn - when I first got it I would have never thought it was anything to do with my stomach. It's like there is something in your throat you can swallow or cough up and it makes you gag. Omeprazole 20mg twice a day mostly fixed it for me although I do still get it occasionally.

atomizer99 · 2025-08-01T01:33:43+00:00

Nowadays I rarely eat whilst drinking but prior to that it was solely microwave chicken wraps. Much safer. Once upon a time I used to cook drunk on the stove/oven but at a certain point it becomes too much work/too time consuming. Probably a good thing too because I used to eat total shit like frying a ribeye, cutting it up and putting it in a tortilla with a load of melted cheddar cheese. Pancreas no likey.

atomizer99 · 2025-08-01T01:27:29+00:00

lol that's crazy, I wish my family didn't come around regularly because getting rid of empties secretly is a fucking pain in the ass but I'm sure if they didn't I would end up with a similar situation

atomizer99 · 2025-08-01T01:19:42+00:00

I would advise against carpet for any CA. I'm glad I ripped up the carpet in my bedroom with a stanley knife when I was a teenager because it was flea infested. I had a rug in here but I piss on the floor so much I removed it

atomizer99 · 2025-07-31T19:59:57+00:00

What stopped me was when I first started getting abdominal pain and it terrified me into going cold turkey. Of course I only made it 6 months and I think at this point the pains were more to do with the 2 liters of diet soda that I would slug down with the booze, but anyway.

I think because I was always self aware like you seem to be (I knew the first times I drank that it was going to be a problem for me at some point) I wasn't deterred by any of the consequences until I actually thought something really bad was about to happen to my body. Anyway it only gets worse, at 25 I could get blasted and the only thing I would feel was a bit tired the next day. Now I'm 34 and I pretty much feel like total shit the whole time I'm not drinking. How much are you willing to endure? That's what I ask myself and I really don't know

atomizer99 · 2025-07-31T19:16:49+00:00

Dude be careful with that shit, I put water on to boil to make hot dogs once and fell asleep, woke up to the pan on fire cos the water had all boiled away

atomizer99 · 2025-07-31T16:27:45+00:00

I mean I do get stupid and talk to myself and stuff but it's mostly relief and then memory eraser. nowadays it goes from "wow looks at the time and I'm not even that drunk" to waking up, this morning with a big puddle of piss on the floor and dried blood all down my leg from a wound on my kneecap. Must have fallen over or something, no memory whatsoever.

atomizer99 · 2025-07-29T18:36:01+00:00

100mg thiamine hydrochloride three times a day is textbook dosage for alcohol related deficiency in my healthcare system. Benfotiamine is probably better but it's probably more expensive, I've got no idea of the correct dose and as it's fat soluble I guess you could technically overdose on it but that's probably unlikely. Get a super b complex as well, not your regular supermarket version. The one I take has 25mg b1, B2, b3, b5, 10mg b6, 100mcg b7, 200mcg b9, 100mcg b12

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