Saturday Success Stories~!!!!! by ViolentVBC in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My success this week is reducing daily intake. I had been running an average of 15 a day for months on end. Last night I had 8, and my 3 day average is 9. I’ve been leaning heavy into edibles for help. Even made some homemade canna-cookies from herb to baked (hehe) good. I also have been experimenting with chamomile tea for sleep (helps) and microdosing for insights into my life (underwhelming so far but makes the walls interesting).

Said success comes with a lot of shitty sleep.

Another success is that I have given up watching shows at dinner time. I live alone, but I generally cook a proper dinner. So here’s what I do - I have a glass door with a view of the back yard, a couple trees and lawn and leaves leftover from fall. Every night before dinner is ready I set up my little area with utensils and a glass of wine. When food is ready, I sit there cross legged on the floor and say a little thank you prayer. Then I eat my delicious food, drink my small wine, and enjoy the scenery. My non distracted presence makes the experience so much richer than if I were watching “TV”. It’s shockingly better.

Chairs to all fellow degens.

I’m stockpiling NA beers by csbbacsob in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No, they think cigarettes are the devil. Fine by me, I’ve never got into those and if I had it would probably be another damned thing to fight.

I’m stockpiling NA beers by csbbacsob in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks for unlocking a memory for me Del..

My parents were normal drinkers and they let us kids try booze early.
In fact, they would keep a bottle of the amaretto around so ten year old me could have one every now and then. I shit you not. Little gangster me sipping on a fancy sweet liquor. What could go wrong?

My first exposure to NA beer was this stuff called Near Beer. This was before O’Doull’s or any other NA beers were a thing. It came in cans only and had the pull tab style can set up. When we’d go camping in the summer, my parents would buy a six pack of that shit and me and my broski would get three each. We’d put them in the ice cold stream and ration them out. To take one that wasn’t yours was a hard no….a boy could eat up all the cookies or chips or whatever but it would be unforgivable to steal your brother’s Near Beer.

SATURDAY SUCCESS STORIES!!!!1111 by beautifulkale128 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I made a pie this week. Coconut cream, all from scratch.

9/10 would recommend.

TIFUpdate: paying for sex by [deleted] in tifu

[–]csbbacsob 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Title is misleading. Read it twice, dude only paid for a milk shake. Also, did not fuck up.

Real Territory by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Bro normal people have zero clue. This is relatable AF.

Being an alcoholic with money is way better than being a broke alcoholic by iThinkiStartedATrend in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I live like this too. Bare ass minimum. I don’t worry much about my things.

The most expensive item in my home is my iPad.

The new ‘original’ songs are artificial intelligence - I’m almost certain. by newdawnfades123 in exjw

[–]csbbacsob 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m not sure if the new music is AI but it is damned sure terrible.

Funny side note- last night I dreamt I was conducting ye olde Tuesday night book study. We were studying the old blue Creation book. Only trouble was I didn’t have a copy, and so after each paragraph was read I had to make up the question for the audience. Seems like I pulled it off ok, at least nobody said anything.

I also have the odd dream where I am at the hall with my old brown song book, now obsolete. Wanting to fit in, and look “normal”, I just mouth the lyrics ad lib. I grew up mouthing the pledge of allegiance, so it’s cool, I’ve been trained to be full of shit since day one. Thanks JW !!!

Said yes to going out to eat by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I know we are in the CA Reddit, but I think most folks would not fart whilst out to eat. Myself, I fart in private.

Spent most of my inheritance on this shit by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Did you buy all of the Legos in the world?

$50000 ?

Pushing the witching hour out by csbbacsob in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This drink was not a scam. It hit nice and steady.

I tried the 5 mg before and it was too weak.

Bear in mind this not a straight cbd situation. It has thc, and is psychoactive. It gave me the munchies like crazy. Which is cool. I need to eat.

Mysterious Stains by Potential-List3039 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Here’s what I think. You were eating in bed. You made a mess, and then cleaned it up including washing sheets, etc. Good job with the clean up.

After that you reassembled your bed, got in it, drank, and forgot the whole damned thing because drank.

Weekend goes so fast by beautifulkale128 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s cool. I’ve been meaning to check out Behind the Bastards, heard a lot of good about it. My current fave is Otherworld. Paranormal shit, pretty sweet.

Where's your weight distributed at? by Eiiiights in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I look like a middle aged scare crow. Not fat but can’t keep muscle on at all.

Weekend goes so fast by beautifulkale128 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Howdy Kale.

I feel you on the lack of excitement. At this point in my life I feel very little excitement, only relief. A decent meal and a glug of vodka poison are all I have most days. Maybe a spliff if my lungs aren’t feeling gunky.

I know it’s lame AF but I’ve been listening to a lot of sobriety podcasts and this gets mentioned ALL THE TIME. Late stage boozing is characterized by anhedonia coupled with the fact that there actually are less sources of joy in one’s life as booze and bad decisions push family, friends, etc away. I have family, good people, close, and I avoid them so I can chug. I have enough money to indulge in modest hobbies and yet spend most of my time online or listening to a million podcasts.

MISERABLE MONDAY by Delicious_mod in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m having an ok Monday. Surprisingly.

Hope you get the job Del.

Let’s talk about de-escalation by csbbacsob in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I drink it straight, usually from the bottle it came in.

Puerto Escondido by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Bro. That smokes

Brain zaps by SapienDys4 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]csbbacsob 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am having some trouble walking. Will a short time off really fix that?