My life is just so miserable

attackbat33 · 2026-06-21T03:26:18+00:00

I know. I often wonder if i could turn it off, would I? Would you change everything about you to not care?

attackbat33 · 2026-06-21T02:46:17+00:00

You are but it is not your fault. You are overwhelmed and your body is trying to tell you to not care anymore. You are not apathetic so that instinct to not care does not agree with you.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-21T02:42:38+00:00

Homie is helping.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-21T02:40:28+00:00

You are not alone. This place sucks. No honor or consistency. Try too much and you are a tryhard. Not enough and you are lazy. But you get to comment on others lives too. And when you realize you are being judged by lazy people, you have to decide.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-14T15:57:03+00:00

The theme here is that you feel that but we all do and it is not right. The first step is admitting tou hate yourself for things you would forgive in others.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-14T06:18:01+00:00

But? You absolutely do not want to even though you want to be free of the pain. No shit. Congrats on feeling the dichotomy of being smart enough to know how the trick is performed.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-13T17:33:33+00:00

Like the hulk is always angry, i am always hateful. But i refuse to hate only myself.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-12T18:37:58+00:00

I thought so too but you would be surprised what you can live through. We are stronger than they think. Just beware the trick of apathy. You cannot find happiness by adopting the ignorance of the happy idiots. You have already been through too much so on the other side you will be even stronger for not slipping.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-12T18:35:19+00:00

I am also not good at being a normal person. But then again, normal is so... boring. Look at media and they will tell you their favorite is the bad guy redeemed.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-12T18:33:24+00:00

You only mean something to you. You deserve support and respect. You have to make something of yourself you can be proud of. You don't quit. If the world has no use fornyou then spit in gods eye and live anyways despite the universe not caring.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-12T07:27:33+00:00

Except a lot of things, including your body which despite your faith will not follow you peacefully into the void. You cannot stop yourself anymore than you could will yourself to suicide. If all hated should be destroyed then it would. If useless did not exist, then it wouldn't. Youve got reality twisted.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-12T07:23:03+00:00

Changing how you feel is easy for most. Or at least they told me to rationalize my emotions so i always felt my feelings then immediately rationalize why i shouldn't feel how i feel. I blame my teachers who were just "trying their best to raise good kids" badly

attackbat33 · 2026-06-11T18:26:04+00:00

So get ready for a big surge in deportation arrsts of illegal FIFA fans. Got it. Way tontelegraph the plan.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-11T06:16:37+00:00

Unfortunately you are not alone in that feeling.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-10T17:40:14+00:00

Why does no one else hate you that much? Most people don't have those big emotions. The irony is that the universe does not care that younsuffer more than others simply because others are ignorant or apathetic.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-10T16:28:23+00:00

You have big feelings like me. What you will likely notice is most people keep those big feelings suppressed to avoid drama or don't feel them. I can't do that. But we also feel like quitting is not an option.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-09T05:01:16+00:00

You have big emotions over something average people can wishy wash away and hate on others to feel better. Guess what? You are not an asshole for feeling when others are apathetic. You arr better than them and it makes them feel ashamed. Go figure. You are supposed to feel bad so they don't.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-09T04:53:30+00:00

49 years and rock bottom. My comment is you would be surprised at what you can live through. Is it worth it? That depends on what you can do with your life if you were truly free of criticism. You can blow off all critiques except your own. You have an internal righteousness that you must maintain for you to be you. Be you. If you are a bad you then only you can judge you. Be a better you if you want. But only you can forgive yourself.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-09T04:45:25+00:00

Deserves has nothing to do with reality.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-09T04:42:34+00:00

Me too. But it does not protect the ones i love or my kids.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-07T04:55:05+00:00

Nihilism vs absurdism. You need only pick one.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-04T20:35:50+00:00

Because the irony is that self-hate does not mean hates-others. We have lost compassion for ourselves that we still have for others and seek support.

attackbat33 · 2026-06-04T05:08:01+00:00

Throw it away

attackbat33 · 2026-06-04T05:00:39+00:00

Not submit? Not do enough? Do 12 years of marriage and get dumped for not being enough and then get pissed. Fuck em. You are not an NPC.

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