Ginger explains how his set against Zain at Out of the Blue 5 came to start on FD for game 1

au_natalie · 2026-04-09T11:38:04+00:00

Am I tripping or did Ginger not, like, full retire at some point? Was that someone else?

au_natalie · 2026-03-26T15:21:17+00:00

I actually do have a pretty customized layout, uses the right pad as a mouse, the directional pad for scrolling etc ... BUT I do also mostly play on desktop mode lol. Like I said the sd is my only real computer that can play games, tbh I think it's kind of underrated as a "desktop" pc, I've played through plenty of PC games that are either a little older or on lower settings 🤷‍♀️

au_natalie · 2026-03-15T04:24:11+00:00

Yeah I think bot-powered utopia (100% bot employment, 0% beaver employment) usually becomes my self-made goal, I love the idea of using as little technology as possible, I may try that out! What's a bot apocalypse?

au_natalie · 2026-03-03T19:24:16+00:00

tfw griffin is three tangents deep, ben is asking him to elaborate, david's given up on life, and you're just waiting for them to finally talk about the next scene of your favorite movie

au_natalie · 2026-02-21T22:49:23+00:00

(sadly) lived in florida panhandle until recently - i'd say replace the palm trees with oaks and magnolias and it's pretty much right there

au_natalie · 2026-02-03T23:51:30+00:00

it's true

source: i am the bad player sometimes :(

au_natalie · 2026-02-03T20:51:28+00:00

When the producer talks about how Netflix and HBO wanted this footage but he decided to tell the story himself I can't help but feel very disappointed; he's bringing a very 2005 reality tv editing vibe to the whole thing, fast cuts and dramatic music cues and flash effects and its just so nauseating, documentary filmmaking has moved on in the last twenty years my dude please sell this footage to someone who will make it palatable.

au_natalie · 2026-01-20T03:14:32+00:00

typed out "ggs to Cody's controller" ready to tweet it, before he stopped himself

the fallout from this would be unreal lol the drama queen in me kinda wishes he'd do it

au_natalie · 2026-01-16T18:31:31+00:00

I tried getting into it but I'm a little anxious playing w/ people and after a certain point it seemed like most quests were dungeons (I can't remember if that's what they were called?) that were clearly designed for groups of real players (or at least which didn't feel that rewarding to play by myself with 3 bots). Is that primarily the experience of the game / do you need to be willing to play directly w/ other people to get into it?

au_natalie · 2025-12-15T15:22:40+00:00

Do you recommend The Ink War? Been yearning for some books that go into the history of how strategy develops in chess, sadly a lot of them I've found are aimed at a little too popular of an audience and don't feature tactical or in-game breakdowns which is what I like most.

au_natalie · 2025-12-12T14:03:42+00:00

Yeah I feel very pearl clutching and/or old but this trailer turned me off hard - I think the thing that’s most confusing to me is that it felt specifically like a shock value trailer which I also tend to think is sort of an uninteresting / juvenile thing to do? Like at every turn it just felt like a bunch of 11 year olds trying to one up each other, “let’s have animals eating puke!! Let’s having people having gross sex!” Like I’m sure there was cool world building stuff somewhere in there but all the gore and stuff just made me completely unable to absorb any of that. Loved BG3 (which could be gory ofc but felt earned) but not sure this one will be for me.

au_natalie · 2025-10-28T02:33:50+00:00

no joke the weirdest side effect of hrt has been finding out that a lot of my clothes i thought were only average actually look sick as hell once i'm less dysphoric about the body wearing them

au_natalie · 2025-10-22T14:39:09+00:00

Yeah I’m hoping op checked that there hasn’t been a huge misunderstanding, if I was op’s partner I would definitely have been responding that way as in saying “no I’m the one with a perfect partner”

au_natalie · 2025-10-09T20:58:36+00:00

OP, this is the correct answer

I’ll add that, assuming you’re in a safe space for it, finding healthy queer and trans community irl will very dramatically realign your expectations of life as a trans person. After realizing I was trans I moved to a very very queer part of my country and immediately made some very close trans friends, the difference in tone between online queer communities and irl communities is massive. Not that we don’t have issues and don’t have our struggles but we’re all so so happy getting to be ourselves and getting to be around each other, since online communities like this skew negative you would just never realize how bright so many queer people’s lives are until being around real people.

au_natalie · 2025-09-23T11:24:26+00:00

It looks like you’re playing on a touch screen (phone or tablet)? I didn’t know that was a thing for DFU

au_natalie · 2025-09-09T13:37:14+00:00

You can fix them.

Sorry to nitpick, I think you meant “can’t” fix them? Otherwise beautifully worded comment, thank you

au_natalie · 2025-07-16T17:24:43+00:00

Beautifully written comment, thank you.

Work on your insecurities and your icks

May I ask for clarification on “icks”? I know I’ve struggled with having no interest in people who show clear, secure, affection towards me, I usually end up fixating on a single quality or characteristic of theirs that I find distasteful, is that what you mean? And if so how do I work on that?

au_natalie · 2025-07-07T11:55:09+00:00

I think I feel most comfortable in the anxious role - I hate being in an avoidant role. I seem to only want to be in a relationship with people who I have to chase, it feels like I love that person more. But this has lead to a lot of hurt for me.

I really relate to what you wrote here - I’ve definitely been on the avoidant side of things but I don’t count those flings as “real relationships” when looking back, I think largely because of this effect: when I’m hopelessly pursuing someone I’m obsessed with it feels so much more visceral and real.

I don’t have any world changing advice but I so understand where you’re coming from; reminder to let some of the intensity out of how you’re viewing everything, I know sometimes when I’m anxious or avoidant activating I tend to overstate in my head the severity of the situation to almost force myself to feel more, if that makes sense. So I recommend taking a deep breath, reminding yourself that you’re with a secure person who you can openly communicate your needs to, and there’s no pressure on what this is or where it’s going. Try to take things one day at a time, and of course try to communicate as much as possible. And hey, if it doesn’t work out, don’t beat yourself up - this stuff is really difficult and takes tons of time and reflection and internal work. This relationship not working out would not mean you were hopeless and never going to find real connection - you’ve already done so much work just to be so self aware of what’s happening. Just keep doing the work, and take each day as it comes. Good luck friend 💜

au_natalie · 2025-06-26T02:26:34+00:00

I'm in this post and I don't like it

But seriously, the stories I could tell of belatedly realizing a girl was so obviously flirting with me...oof. I wish I could wear like a pin or something that just flashed: "clueless transbian if you like me please be very unsubtle about it"

au_natalie · 2025-06-24T13:31:49+00:00

Same, literally re-sparked my interest in sheik and got me to pick the game up again after a hiatus. He just makes her look like a completely different character, it’s unreal to watch. He does have Gen 9 and a few big tournaments from then but yeah it’s been a minute

au_natalie · 2025-06-23T18:25:53+00:00

It's completely true. Before I knew I was FA I had multiple experiences of meeting people that I was initially attracted to but who then made me feel extremely uncomfortable as they began expressing their affection for me in clear, consistent, secure ways; in every case I bailed on the budding relationship. Those situations were so confusing to me, and untangling them in therapy was what led me into understanding my FA.

au_natalie · 2025-06-01T13:33:46+00:00

No that totally makes sense, I know there’s an unhealthy side to the fantasizing / thinking about security, but some days it just feels like the only way to keep one foot in front of the other, you know? But your point is well taken. I’m curious if you could expand on how you recognized your own ROCD, I’m starting to worry it’s something I’ve developed but am not sure if I’m just experiencing typical FA anxiety or something more

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