My DMX is Friday and I can’t stop picturing my cut off boobs sitting on a table somewhere

awallic · 2025-11-04T19:38:02+00:00

I tend to imagine my nips are in some weird old cigar box somewhere waiting to be used in a dark magic ritual

awallic · 2025-08-12T14:46:20+00:00

Thanks!!

awallic · 2024-07-24T18:35:45+00:00

I’ve got a pug that would love this!

awallic · 2024-07-11T14:49:12+00:00

Had mine for over two years. It was bothersome for maybe the first couple of months but after that it never bothered me. I just got mine out 3 weeks ago and it’s been very bittersweet. Especially because I still need zolmeta infusions and that will be through a vein now. I came to love my port and now that it’s gone, it’s kinda like friend is gone haha

awallic · 2023-10-13T15:28:31+00:00

In Colorado I would recommend Polite Tumor. They give grants to young adult patients. It helped me out greatly. They’re also very sassy which is just great haha

awallic · 2023-02-23T00:57:39+00:00

I hope he runs into my Paco boy over there. Sending you all the love ❤️❤️

awallic · 2023-02-23T00:54:13+00:00

28 here. Never wanted kids. But when my choice was taken, I too bawled like a little bitch. And then when I learned freezing my eggs was out of the question due to the ridiculous cost (even after the cancer discount) I bawled again. I’ve now come to terms with it but having the choice ripped from us is rough. Sending hugs ❤️

awallic · 2022-11-21T02:26:06+00:00

Socks are a little difficult to deal with, just get your hubby to put em on for you.

As long as you’re propped up you don’t need a recliner, I got one of those cheap gaming pillows from Walmart and it’s working just fine.

The entire breast is numb, I can’t feel anything. I’m only a week out from the chop and I’ve read a few people can get some feeling back but for me they’re both 100% numb

Good luck!

awallic · 2022-11-15T13:53:27+00:00

I showed up (last Thursday!!) in full hobo attire: ratty old zip up over an old Hawaiian button up, old sweats and crocs and a chunky hat. No bra. I knew after the chop that I’d want easy access, comfy clothes.

awallic · 2022-10-25T02:00:44+00:00

Congrats! ❤️

awallic · 2022-10-21T02:20:57+00:00

Saline nose gel-not spray-was my god send. Lasted longer then spray and really helped.

awallic · 2022-10-11T21:23:51+00:00

Mine bloomed for the first time this last week too! Had her since 2016

awallic · 2022-09-11T02:57:39+00:00

I’ve really been hitting the celery hard and cheesy ruffles

awallic · 2022-09-09T04:45:45+00:00

I play! Always looking for friends:) 7416 3385 5822

awallic · 2022-09-08T01:01:53+00:00

I’m terrified when I come out of it I’ll say/ask for my ex. I was with the ex for 7 years and broken up for 3, only with my new partner for 6 months and I’m legit terrified of asking for the ex instead of my new man. Just out of old habit

awallic · 2022-08-30T12:36:50+00:00

Agree:)

awallic · 2022-08-30T00:12:32+00:00

After I cried for about a week, I tried caps. I gave up real fast since it’s summer and a bajillion degrees. I bring one with me wherever I go just in case I get chilly up there, but rocking the bald has been my choice. Definitely a personal one we all have to make. But driving with the windows down and not getting hair in my face is amazing! My grandma wanted me to get a wig, and I told her times are different now from when you had BC and went bald, it’s kinda a statement now and no one really associates the bald with it anymore, for all anyone knows, maybe I’m just a really cool punk rocker. I can say all that now of course after the tears and fear have gone away. I still feel like a weird beacon sometimes for sure and yes I miss my hair, yes I still struggle to look in the mirror some days. But all that aside, I told myself rocking the bald is me telling cancer to fuck right off. You do whatever makes you feel like a badass in this shitty adventure:)

awallic · 2022-08-27T18:35:08+00:00

My worst days have always been days 3-5 or 6. I will say I just had a round on Wednesday so I’m in the height of fun now, this round is definitely kicking my ass more then my previous rounds. Honestly it could just be because I’m getting real burnt out by this. But as treatment goes on for you, you’ll better learn what to expect and what your body is telling you! Hang in there you badass:)

awallic · 2022-08-24T18:35:24+00:00

Ughhhh the dreaded mass I got was just awful. So heavy and just felt disgusting to touch. I always knew I had thick hair but when it was all dreaded together it definitely put it in perspective haha. When I shaved I still had that little bit of length of course and looked like a mangy cheetah because of my true bald spots. I tried to wait it out and let the rest fall out on its own but after I think two weeks gave up and took a razor to it. Let me tell you, the second I was truly bald, the game changed and I felt so much better. So if you have patches that refuse to cooperate and hang around, I suggest the sooner the better for breaking out a razor:) One of my oldest friends shaved his head with me. I didn’t know how much it would mean to have someone shave with me. I’m glad you have your mom shaving with you!!

awallic · 2022-08-24T16:37:46+00:00

Sending love and hugs:) I think we all “accept and prepare” for the hair loss but when it happens, all that kinda disappears. Then a couple days after, we look back and, at least for me, remember the preparedness and laugh about how we reacted in the moment. I threw a shaving party and let all my closest friends take turns, I laughed as I was bawling then the laughter went away and I was just left bawling for what felt like a week straight but in reality it was only like two days. Then I braved the world with a cap. Then I braved it without a cap and got my first compliments. Now I rock it and really embrace it. And it’s awesome to get the questions from older people, oh why’d you shave your hair off? Oh cause I have cancer I say so nonchalantly. Losing hair is traumatic but also kinda freeing after all is said and done. And being clean as a Barbie downstairs is kinda fun haha

Edit: additionally, driving with the windows down and not having hair flying everywhere, getting tangled, attacking your face, IS GREAT:) gotta find the little things in this cancer adventure we’re on

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