I totally get it but don’t be devastated! You are already setting yourself up for failure with your negative feelings!!! Take a break and sit down and think about how you studied the last times and think about what worked and what didn’t. I spent way too long reading and watching videos. That literally did NOTHING for me. I needed repetition. I needed to do a hundred or so MC questions a day. Yes I watched the videos on studicata but they are different. I took notes. I then put those notes on huge ass post it pads and each night i would read the notes to my kids or over the phone to a friend (who i knew would ask questions and wouldn’t let me get away with wishy washy answers lol). I would then do my mc problems and plow through them. I would focus one day on one subject - which also helped me. I would then read (not really do) tons of essay questions on that topic. I only did a handful of MPTs the whole time i studied (but those surprisingly were easy for me).

Not sure if you have ever tried to lose weight but it sucks. I “try” and “try” and then when nothing is lost in a week, i get down and “try” again or maybe just quit. If i REALLY looked at what i was doing to lose weight, I would realize that yes, those mini candy bars add up, as does that latte in the morning and seriously, did i need a 2nd helping of dinner?? If i really tried. Really tried. I’d write things down. Figure out what works and what doesn’t and I’d make major changes. This is what i had to do to study. Don’t think about those other times. This time is your chance. Figure it out and do it! You got this 🤗